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问中医几度秋凉(三)
TCM, its past, present and future(3)
Author: Ai Ning
(China)
录入者:医者佛心
作者:艾宁
Yesterday, when
I and my friend walked in the street, we met a doctor who came
back from Beijing visiting his family. My friend consulted with
the doctor about his disease. The doctor is a western medicine
doctor. He performs surgical operation quite often. After asked
some lab test results, the doctor told my friend to care about
his liver and gallbladder and told him the relationship between
the kidney and the liver and the gallbladder. My friend said his
gallbladder has been removed. No problem needed to worry. The
doctor pulled down his face and said: “What I mean the
relationship between organs is not from western medicine point
of view.” I laughed beside. I thought, if a doctor comes from a
western world to China for practice, he must feel confused, in
China, the line that separate the western medicine and Chinese
medicine is not very clear. Also, the way and the manner of
Chinese in the treatment would also confuse the doctor.
I met a friend whom I did not see for
several months. I asked where he has been. He said he went to
doctor. He got leukemia. I looked at him with surprise. He
looked the same as before. It is hard to see him a patient with
leukemia. He said he went and lived in the hematology institute
Tianjing (China). Doctors said he needed at least four
chemotherapy periods to make the disease stable. During the
first chemotherapy, he continued to collect information,
analyzed the data comprehensively, then believed that one period
of chemotherapy is enough. So he escaped from the institute
without telling the doctors. He did not even tell his family. He
went to the Northeast of China, found a Chinese medicine doctor,
and started an herbal therapy until the disease was entirely
under control. He said with very happy that he did not spend any
money but got the disease under control. Seeing that he treated
leukemia as a common disease, I have to admire him having a
strong mind.
Can't help
thinking, if he is western people, where could he run? It is
very interesting the things in China. I know of an old doctor in
Chinese medicine. He died the year before last year. He was
originally a doctor in western medicine, but he later also
learned Chinese medicine. I saw by myself that he cured cancer
for my friend’s father. He used herbal paste in front and on the
back of the chest, as well as let the patient drink herbal tea.
I questioned why he charged so much since there are no such
expensive herbs in the world. He told me, his herbal formula was
left from another old doctor in Chinese medicine. The formula is
not special, but the herbs were real ones that he got many years
ago. After using, there would have no more available. He said:
“I have only such amount of herb. With the use, it will be less
and less. After it is used up, I cannot treat cancer any longer.
I have to depend on income from these herbs for my old age”.
From this, I thought, that the reason that
my mother excellent healing effect was also largely due to the
high-quality herbs she used. She kept to collect and store the
herbs. I question if she can still have similar good results if
she worked in a big hospital. My mother had given me a piece of
“Loutai Gao”(鹿胎膏).
The deer placenta came from a deer that was hunt by a hunter. He
brought it to my mother to prepare it into a herb paste. He
later left a piece of the paste to my mother as a reward. My
mother used it for the treatment of infertility for women. The
results were excellent. Mother told me that it could not eat too
much. I can only eat a small piece like the size of a soya bean.
Sometimes, when I ate only such amount, I could feet a strong
feeling from it. Many years later, when I want to prepare this
herb for my daughter, I found that it is impossible to find real
“Lutai Gao”. Though I went to the deer farm to purchase, I could
not feel a clear effect even if I eat a bigger piece of it. Then
I realized how good my mother’s herbs. In this time, I
understand why Chinese medicine falls. If my mother could live
to today, her healing effect might not be as good as that early
years, since she would have no proper herbs to use. It is
impossible that the current doctor goes to mountains to collect
herbs as my mother or to collect herbs from folk. When I was
young, I help my mother to put some herbs into wine, or fold
some herbs with plastic paper and sealed with wax… That my
mother was so confident when she worked in the clinic might be
due to the herbs she had in her herbal cabinet.
My daughter’s
Great master worked in Chinese medicine hospital and directed
the herbal preparation by himself. Every dose of herbs to
patients needed to be checked by him. What he checked was the
quality of the herbs. He said, he does not chase for the quality
of the herbs, but real herbs, not poisons or fake medicine.
Also, it is pretty common that staff in the drugstore made
mistakes. He had to prevent it. I suggested my daughter later
work in town clinic. I told her that she might be able to get
some valuable herbs such as “Bezoar”, or “Goubao ”.
To recall the
things with my mother is not just to remember the old things
with her. Any today in history is the history of today. Many
ways used by mother that she could not explain clearly by
herself, show meaningful today. The reason that I tried to talk
about Chinese medicine with the description is that I want to be
as objective as possible.
What is real in
the world? It is not my dissertation, my comment or my
conclusion. I only want to express the things as much as
possible with the original way and leave it for the readers to
analyze and to make a conclusion. Also, the reason why I
descriptively talk about Chinese medicine is that I have a
passion for the image. I also think that the information of the
image is holographic.
I noticed that
my mother paid much attention to the image in a patient’s dream
when she was in clinic work. When a patient told “many dreams”,
“scared dream”, she would ask the exact content of the dream.
This is because the weak signal of disease is commonly showing
to the person through the dream. Why the brain has the ability
to perform logic reasoning and at the same time choose to
express representative image in the human dream” For example,
you may accept a job that you evaluated good for your future,
but in your dream, you may dream you drive a plane with confused
hands and feet, without a clear mind to drive. This dream
expressed out your inner emotional status completely.
When my
daughter was three or four years of old, I did not know if it
would good to have her little bit obey or a little bit more
independent. I then had a dream. I dreamed my daughter crawled
into a tiger cage of a zoo. I dreamed her stroking the sleeping
tiger like stroking a cat. I dared not yell, pressed down the
voice to call her, she ignored it.… This dream vividly showed my
confusion in educating my daughter.
When she was in
teenage, she expressed out some characteristic of modern youth.
I met confusion again. But this time, the meaning of the image
in the dream remained unknown for me for a long time. I dreamed
I had a big white silver earring in my right ear. It makes me
bothered since I need to go to work every day. I tried to take
it off but failed. I wanted to cover it, failed again. Later, I
have to go out with it pending with confidence, pretending “I am
beauty, I like it.” This dream made me feel baffling. My
daughter heard this dream. She told me with tapping on my
shoulder: “Mother, do I make you really so worry?” I realized it
suddenly, understand its meaning.
Theory can only
give us reasoning, but the image could send us all information
including feelings. The brain is like a high-sensitivity
instrument that responds to many unknown movements in the human
body. It does not report to us by a dissertation all of this
information is scanned. The brain scans the human body, not
using an argument to report us, or even avoiding the rationality
we store in consciousness and expressing it in an image. What is
the meaning of this?
In previous
years, I saw that my mother was not so serious when seeing a
patient. If the neighbor, close or far away, came for
consulting, she even did not feel their pulse, asked me to fold
herbs for them. It left me very deep impression. It makes me
feel that the practice in Chinese medicine is very simple. Now I
understand, it does not mean that the Chinese medicine is
simple, but that she knew those neighbors very well. This is
just the advantage of the family doctor system practiced in the
western world.
After annual
physical exam for this year, one colleague runs into my office,
crying she got a heart disease, lifting CEG report in her hands.
I was very nervous when I heard her crying. I was not nervous
about her heart disease, but that she would make a big fuss in
the treatment. Her body was under a weak and fragile balance.
Any treatment could break down this balance, making her sick.
The CEG showed blood insufficiency. But she did not have any
loss of blood, how it became not enough so suddenly? If such
imbalance of Qi and Blood were not due to the lack of blood, it
would then be due to the relatively more of Qi. This made me
thought about the culture and gymnastic activity in our company
recently. It is somehow too hard for her, who almost never had
physical exercise. But I could not tell out this reason;
otherwise, she would refuse exercise forever. I needed to find
other reasons. I asked: “Did you eat Chinese date recently?” She
said: “Yes. Half pound every day. I have already had one big
box. Is that due to the too much date eating?” I told her to
stop to eat the date, care for rest and repeat the CEG after one
week. Another colleague came to me with a lab test report. He
said his blood cholesterol level increased. I asked him what he
ate recently. He said he ate many tinned fish-seeds. I said you
have already had your gallbladder removed. How can you bear such
much fish-seeds? Stop to have it. Wait for one week and recheck
the cholesterol. Later, the reports for both them were normal.
Nowadays, we
are used to regarding the disease as a disaster coming outside.
We think that it is the doctors’ job to find the reason, rather
than ours. In fact, we can find the reasons for many diseases by
ourselves by such tracing the reason to its roots.
The child of
one of my friend studied in another city. One day, the school
called and said the child got paralysis. The hospital there
could not treat it. The school was sending the child, by
ambulance to a hospital in the provincial capital. The couple of
my friend was scared to stun. They hurried to that provincial
hospital too. They called me on their way about this.
Considering that they had no any relatives there, they had no
clear mind, and I also feared to delay the treatment for the
child, I went to them with the next train.
Used all high
technology detections, various lab test, nothing was found
wrong. The teacher said the child caught this paralysis, after
exposure under the rain, during the military training course for
all newly enrolled students. The child went to bed then could
not move at all. I saw that there was no any red or swelling in
the child body, I asked if he had a strong body attack with
other students. He thought for a while, then answered: yes. He
was running and collided with another one who ran from in front
of him. That child fell down. All other students went to help
that one. He did not fall down but collided against a tree. He
felt numb in the whole body at that time. I found the doctors
and told them this story. They came asked the child again, then
they invited a female doctor, had the child had acupuncture
treatment for twenty times. After more than 20 days, the child
was discharged from the hospital.
My daughter said: in the internal
department of western medicine, the doctor who has had training
in Chinese medicine has an advantage than those who have only
western medicine training. In the early years, I denied my
mother’s lifestyle. I thought that she was not in the mainstream
of society. She had no social reputation. She was pure, young,
not know society, lack of social experience… However, after I
went through most of my life, I basically deny my own social
value.
Recent days,
one of my friends brought her son, who just graduated from
university and started a job. My friend wanted me to give a
"political education" and tell him the unspoken rules of
society.... When my daughter was young, whenever I asked her to
do something, she would ask me why. Every time I told her, it is
not that I want her to do so, but society wants every one of its
members to do so. We all are trying to adapt the society. We
think it is normal to do so even we need to pay many costs. It
seems that without doing so, we cannot live or cannot be a
member of society. However for me, I hold much such social
experience in my mind, when I turn back to have a look, I need
to ask, are all these social experience real learning?
If there is no
comparison with my mother, I would not at all doubt my
experience in living and in common conversions. Several days
ago, in a professional conference, all of us felt that such
social experience are precious. However my mother lived her
whole life, without any social experience, not knowing any
social hiding rule, even had no attention for self-protection.
She lived in calm and peace. Even in the darkest time of
“Cultural Revolution”, when my father was picked up, beaten, and
tortured, at least for the reason that his family occurrence
belongs to farm landlord, she opened private clinic but had no
any trouble. Is it extraordinary?
Is the social experience precious, and useful? Now, I
thought, mother’s life was also socialized, and it was really
socialized. She practiced medicine but never hang advertising
board. She depends on her good skill, good reputation and the
praise from patients.
People at every social level, in every age,
came to her. She was almost their family doctor. Her clinic was
similar to the current “community clinic”. How can we say that
her relationship with others was not a social relationship? The
society that was constructed with such social relationship
endured the attack of the “Cultural Revolution”, whereas in our
current society, what we have is a more cold relationship.
Compared with my mother, how many values of
my social experience and how much necessary it is? That I
support my daughter to learn Chinese medicine, is also for the
reason that, I do not want her like me, learned a lot of social
experience, spend a lot of intelligent minds, but only get a
living in society. Human life does not need all of these.
However, when I was young, I learned all of these as learn a
class, and believed that it is true things. My mother only paid
attention to her Chinese medicine. She could live well. She did
not know any reasoning or rationing for business, not that
personal relationships… She was not cheated, or scared, no any
conflict in medicine. Her social relationship was stable, solid,
true, natural and safe. Her root was in the ordinary people.
Therefore, she never felt the society as complex, as dangerous.
She did not feel the bitter of people’s heart. This made her
pure and simple. No matter how my father explained to my mother
that society was how complex, the heart of people was how hard
to feel, my mother appeared no feeling and any action to protect
herself. I felt, however, my father was right. I intended to
protect myself, and kept such learning forever. Now, when I turn
back to have a look, I found that if the social relationship was
not established on human being basis, nor a natural basis, we
would not be able to feel safe, no matter how we try to protect.
My mother help
others with her ability, she was also helped by others for all
of her life. Her relationship with others was not established on
the basis of money. For people who afford the treatment, they
would pay for it. For people who cannot afford, or for people
who were old, or for a child who came by himself, there was no
money charged. If she heard that someone was sick, she would
send me to have a look. She not only went to the home but also
send some fruits to the patients. I said my mother had three
Great masters. She
told me the first and the third Great masters do not care money.
The second somehow preferred money and had money too. But his
son died of a pot smoker. My mother did not leave money to us.
Her dress or food was not better than others. It was common that
some people send her gift. At that time, the most common gift
were fruits, cake, or tinned food, and so on. However, she never
allowed my brothers and me to touch it. I remembered one time,
my mother did not allow my senior brother to eat a cake. For
this, my grandmother cared for her grandson, blamed my mother,
and brought her grandson on the street to buy a sesame seed cake
for him. I always send such things, for the name of my mother,
to old people in various homes. Before I grow up into an adult,
I never ate a whole apple. We always shared an apple. A quarter
of apple would be eaten by me with front teeth scratching for a
long time. The taste was so delicious.
Because when I
was young, I had to carry water on shoulders, carry firewood on
back. Longtime overweight labor work made my spine into a curve
shape. Under X-ray film, it looks like an “S” shape. I ridiculed
at it, and said, curve tree is also a tree. Curve tree can live
too. If it is corrected straight, it would be damaged to die. A
little bit more than ten years ago, when I walk, I was collided
by a very strong man. I stuck to the wall, hard to move at all.
I stood for a long while to start move again and strolled home.
From that time, the left side of my body is not smooth.
Especially for the left arm, it was numb and weak. Later it lost
feeling to pain or temperature. I believed it was due to that
collision, that made something wrong to my curved spine that had
an original problem already. Since I saw that the result for the
treatment of cervical spondylosis is not satisfied, in addition
to the fact that I was very busy at that years, the problem was
delayed for six to seven years. One time in a hospital, I had my
blood taken. The nurse is a new one. She tried for three times
but failed. So she felt a kind of worry. I advised her not to
feel worried but repeat it slowly. I said that my arm did not
feel any pain actually, so she did not need to feel worried. One
doctor who past us criticized me: “You are really ridiculous.
She has already worried for no success. If you dig at her in
this way, it is better to criticize her directly.” I cried you
mistaken me. I said my arm indeed had no feeling at all. It was
as a wood almost… The doctor felt strange. He asked me what was
wrong with it. I said it was cervical spondylosis. He said it is
a joke. You patient can name new terms by yourself. How could
cervical spondylosis have such symptom? He checked me all over
and believed that I got a tumor in the brain, asked me to have
CT scan. The cost for CT at that time was very high, so I
refused. I opposed him: “If the tumor is in the brain, how it
stops growth for six to seven years?” He felt my words
reasonable, so he said: well, you do not need to check
furthermore here. I am the top expert here. You need to seek a
higher level expert. He wrote a name for me, asked me to see
another doctor in another city and bring the result back him.
After half a year, I had a chance to find
this expert, during my business trip. His diagnosis is: hollow
in the spine. My friend who came with me asked him, is this
problem treatable? The expert said it is heard that it can be
treated. Heard this, I knew there was no hope. My friend again
asked, what would happen after continuous development? The
expert said, of course, paralysis. My friend wanted to ask
something again, I pulled her out the hospital. I said, what do
you want to ask? Did you not find that it was a disease hardly
treated? From that time, I prepared to live in a paralysis
condition. Upon the winter the year before last year, the skin
in my left arm started to have an ulcer, muscle shrink, necrosis
in nails, then the fingers hardly to move, to bend or to
stretch. My friends felt very pity: Unfortunately, your
beautiful hand. Now you cannot attend the competition for
“Beauty Fingers”. My daughter performed acupuncture to me. She
told me that the profession in the nervous department of her
university said, such condition would be only maintained not to
further development, but not cured. I knew from my heart. It can
only be maintained, not improved. Seeing that my beauty fingers
became a claw as an animal, I pretended a brave spirit to accept
the scientific truth.
One day, one of
my friends got sick. I brought her to see my daughter’s Great
master. He saw my fingers, asked what’s wrong, and insisted on
having treatment by him. He soon started prescription. I smiled:
“Well, my case is also a kind of difficult case. You can do an
experiment on me, to explore how to solve this problem.” My
daughter’s Great master felt unhappy right away: “Why you said I
am doing an experiment on you? Chinese medicine never believes
the disease is not curable or hard to treat. Whichever way it
needs for the treatment, just use that way. If the treatment
matches the disease condition, no disease is not reversible”.
Though I did
not wish to cure my problem, consider the need to delay the
development of the disease, I agreed to drink his herbal tea. He
asked me to prepare the herbs into a powder. I felt it is
bothering to eat the powder. So I make them into pills with
honey. I ate two pills every day. I thought, so severe disease,
how such two pills could work? I kept taking the pill for almost
one year. The shrink of the arm muscle was stopped. The lost
muscle came back mostly. My fingers can stretch, close. Now I
can practice sound finger as used in the Spanish dance.
Some people
said that to be able to cure the hard and complicated disease is
the last excuse for Chinese medicine. I thought those of
diseases that are believed hard to cure by western medicine
becomes curable in Chinese medicine. Can this not make people
feel that Chinese medicine is magical? For this, my daughter
said, there is initially no mystery. One hundred years ago, no
matter what disease that was cured by Chinese medicine, we feel
it is normal and natural. Only compared with western medicine,
Chinese medicine appears mysterious from time to time.
Currently, the
diseases that are termed hard to cure by western medicine has
been described in the early Chinese medical literature. In the
treatment, there are also rules and formulas to follow. How
should it be hard? I laughed: in this way, the mystery of
Chinese medicine is given by western medicine? Daughter said
"yes". Without comparison, neither side is mysterious. After her
explanation, I accepted the fact with easy that my “claw” turns
back to “beauty fingers” again.
My daughter’s Great master studies the
bible level literature in Chinese medicine every day. In his
eyes, my condition belongs to “Pianku ”, not care about the term
“spine hollow syndrome”, he used herbs to nourish my blood and
Qi, dredge meridians, not thinking about whatever disease in the
spine. Though my arm is controlled by the spine, I cannot
prevent, when I moved my arm smoothly and freely, from thinking
that the leader is of course to lead the follower. If the
follower arm moves actively, would also create active
stimulation to the spine?
My daughter’s
Great master is very dignity. It makes him slightly away from
the mainstream of thinking, so to be able to keep some nature
characteristic in Chinese medicine. Though he also used western
medicine terms to explain disease for patients, it is to arm
himself, for the sake to have proper communication with a
patient. In his bone, he is still a Chinese medicine doctor.
For any
question, if it is so difficult to argue, if it is returned into
its existence, it would not be so hard to find its reasoning to
exist. The nature of Chinese medicine, its co-operation between
patient and doctor, its prediction, simplicity, natural, cheap,
used by ordinary people, charity, equality, etc., all not
entirely determined by the medical nature of the Chinese
medicine, but by the survival rule formed by traditional Chinese
medicine on the road of survival and development for thousands
of years.; it has never been supported by the government. The
presence of Chinese medicine, of course, will have its real
reason to exist. Such reality reason does not disappear even to
today.
The
independence of Chinese medicine can supply many valuable
references for the development of the current medical system.
Chinese medicine continued to correct its relationship with the
reality, seeking the best combination with the reality, so to
gain its life. Through the expressing of the Chinese medicine in
the three generations of my family, it is clear the reason for
the fall backward of the Chinese medicine, and for the
difference between Chinese medicine and western medicine. Human
life is not only the life of one person but also a continuous
life of generations, such as my mother, mine and my daughter’s.
When we put the
life of one person into the continuous lives of generations,
many personal characteristics and many occasional factors start
to show a common characteristic and necessary. Even many minor
cases could imply to current people valuable information. If we
do not close our eyes, do not only stick to the science
technology, the knowledge and wisdom obtained by careful
observation of life may not be less than the science.
I have a friend who denies the wisdom of a woman. I
asked him smiling: did you think that the wisdom of human being
comes only from the gene of the father, not from the mother
either? The gene of a mother is only a hollow shell? He asked:
the man depends on the society and science to develop wisdom,
what woman depends? I said: woman depends on observation and
feeling. In history, women with wisdom were usually regarded as
a witch. When I see this word “巫”
in Chinese, I felt kind and warm and felt it bears philosophy
meaning. This Chinese character looks similar to the human
brain, with left and right half of brain. One side represents
the inner human, and another side represents the outside human…
When my mother was alive, she taught me Qigong. When I have
trouble in the body, she would ask me to “hold a movement of
Qi”. I had asthma when I was young. Since I felt hard to breath,
I had to practice the Qigong breath. Later, when I got trauma
and hollow spine syndrome with severe pain, I also used Qigong
to release the pain. Later I also find that the Qigong has a
function of release emotion. Whenever I met some emotional
conflict which appears hard to solve, I would sit for a while
with a mouth of Qi in the mouth. Then, I felt the Qigong could
open a meeting room in my heart, allowing every part to sit down
for a meeting.
Then you would find that the components of self
were very complicated. My daughter asked me how complicated it
is. I made an example to her. When she was young, one time she
was very naughty, which made me very angry. I pulled her to me
and wanted to beat her. But my arm suddenly felt a spasm in the
air, couldn’t fall. My daughter, who was initially scared, could
not prevent from laugh by seeing this. Later I explained to her,
my grandmother was very cruel. She beat child very heavy. My
mother was kind. She did not beat a child. When I saw my
daughter naughty, the gene in my body that came from my
grandmother orders me to lift arm to beat, but the gene from my
mother asked me not to do so. In my heart, since I did not beat
the child, I felt angry against my mother’s part. So and so, the
conflict in my heart made me beaten my self on my head.
To release my
inner conflict, I had to sit, holding a mouth of air in the
mouth, opening an emotional room, allowing my grandmother and my
mother have dialogue. As the way usually mother advised my
grandmother with soft matter, in my heart, the part of my mother
would advise my grandmother stop angry. If I do not create a
chance for them to have a democracy meeting, though they have
died for many years, their conflict continued in my body. If I
omit their conflict, they would use my body as war field. In a
war, besides both sides in the war, the most damage might be for
the field, not to speak of the situation that they both have
become part of my body? How severe my loss would be?
If our
understanding of life is simple, the spacecraft we launched to
the Mars will return without any finding. If our understanding
to life is deeper and deeper, we would need to launch spacecraft
to the Mars again and again.
That Chinese
medicine is not the mainstream of medicine system, is also the
reason to deny it by some people. Such denying something with
its result is too simple.
Chinese people
think everything has its most proper time. If this time is not
good for one thing, it would be good for another thing. If it is
not good time for another thing, it would be good for this
thing. The time and space co-exist. Every time there is a time
disease. The disease is expressed as the mainstream. For
example, we all feel unhappy to the current mainstream education
system, but is there any no-main stream education system? Who
can start a second education system? Even a small “Mother class”
cannot be endured by the mainstream education system. I have had
tried to change the way of teaching in class. But the student
stood up and told me, teacher, the class should not be touched
as such. Who can stop their children to go to school, like Mrs.
Zheng Yuanjie (郑渊洁)
against << Education Law >>? My daughter tapped my shoulder and
said: a young person needs to be as a container, to store
knowledge and fertilizing thinks; when they become old, they
start to secrete thinks, “when the libido is full, it would
spill out by itself”.
it is needed to make a tube for them to export thinks.
From my mother to my daughter, Chinese
medicine went a big detour back in my family. Sometimes, my
daughter criticized me that this detour is too big. If my
mother’s experience can be passed to me, my daughter would be
able to stand on other’s shoulder (to be excellent Chinese
medicine doctor). But Chinese medicine was razed to the ground
in my time. I feel very guilty in my heart.
As Chinese, I
feel guilty to my old generations. To correct my mistake, I can
only try my best to describe out my memory to Chinese medicine
in my young age, to make it as a reference to my daughter. If it
can inspire others, would my guilty feeling less?
When my mother
was seeing a patient, if my father was also at present, he might
make some naughty sometimes. He would encourage patients to
accept the new scientific technique treatment in western
medicine. He got some terramycin tablets. He told me not to
drink Guizhi Tang, but take the tablet. One time, there came a
patient with a dark color face. My mother felt strange for the
dark color on his face and she was unable to find the reason. My
father saw it. He chatted with the patient, asking his job, etc.
Then he brought a basin of water and a piece of soap. He asked
this man wash his face. After twice washing, his face was much
bright. The reason for his dark face was that his work was to
burn coal tar. Every time, he washed his face not completely.
For a long time, the face looked dark. For this thing, my father
felt pleased with himself, laughed a lot at Chinese medicine and
boasted his judgment.
Now, the way of
some people against Chinese medicine. To me, it looks like the
way of my father before. However, my mother advised me to drink
some Guizhi Tang anyway. Mother asked me to have an observation:
the use of western medicine usually suppressed the Yangqi in the
body. She feared that my surface disease would change into
inside problem after taking the western medicine.
I feel that the
value of Chinese medicine is to supply a view to look at western
medicine. The contribution of Chinese culture to the world
culture is the same way.
Does western
medicine or western culture need another view to look at it? Why
when talking about the western and eastern culture, there is
only either admire or belittle? If I say that my motion to study
Chinese medicine is to explore and study the jade of western
science, is it ok? If I say that I polish a Chinese diamond bit,
is to carve the western chinaware, is it ok? If there was no a
mother of Chinese medicine, but only a father of chasing for
science, I may not, for the whole of my life, get a view to
assessing the current science.
How could we
say that to assess the science is understood to throw away the
science? The western science and Chinese medicine in my family
is my father and my mother. It is very difficult for me to
separate the scientific spirit from my father, neither to
separate the traditional culture with my mother. No one can make
a decision to chose one and threw another, nor push them
divorce.
If I lose my
parents’ culture, I still have another choice, that is my
grandmother’s folk philosophy. My grandmother believed that
marriage was bigger than one man and one woman. Though the
worldview of my father and my mother is different, under that
domination of my grandmother, they got married anyway and had
four children. That professor (Mr. Zhang Gongyao), who asked to
sign to delete Chinese medicine, why not first break the
marriage with his Chinese medicine wife? Therefore, as correct
as my grandmother said, nothing is more important than to live.
The competition between Chinese medicine
and western medicine, and that between the Chinese culture and
the western culture, all ask the occurrence of a bigger culture
that can unite the two. That I talk about Chinese medicine
through talking about my mother and my daughter, is for the
reason that I believe the feeling is the root. Feeling and the
reasoning is the root each other. None can stand alone. If there
is only feeling, there would be no way to describe. If there is
only reasoning but no feeling, it would be as an alien. It would
also be hard to talk with an alien, since the nature of language
and the culture is to “quote out of context”, leaving a lot of
space.
When we teach
child essay, the simple way is to make a short or omitted
description for the things that are well known by people in
current time. However, this does not work for aliens. They are
outside the human world, not experience any time of human life
generation. Therefore, they have no perception to many human
“theory”, cannot understand things that are well known by the
current human being on the earth. So, the metal plate we send to
the universe, to them, is a picture, not words. Scientist Hua
Luogen (华罗庚) suggested sending the ancient
Chinese picture “Blue-Red come in and out”(青朱出入图)[1]
to them. I recommend to send them the Yin-Yang and Ba-Gua. Why
would human civilization be summarized in this plate as an image
or imagination? On the earth, in current times, we produced some
“earth aliens”. They hold the reasoning like aliens. They do not
adjust their time-space position, not to build time-space
“Einstein—Rosen bridge”, not to study those things that are well
known by many other human beings. They cannot understand a
traditional culture, feel hard to understand many current
things. They sit down there waiting to adjust things. They hold
a one-inch long logic, to adjust this is not correct, and that
is not correct either.
Contrary to the
children’ one-inch logic, the logic of these “earth aliens” is
away from the reality of the earth. Looking from the Chinese
medicine, they got the disease of time-space disorder. Only
aliens can ask a human being to split the feeling and the
reasoning. In the current situation of rational paranoia,
returning to emotions, in order to re-select rationality with
emotion as the root, this is the way for Chinese to return to
the source.
Recurrence is not only the way of some fish
and birds. It is needed for human in spirit to return to its
root, so to start new spring and branch. Chinese care about the
importance of time and space relationship. It is not only the
need in the Chinese medicine for disease treatment but also in
the Chinese prediction. If we learned the change of the time and
space, it would not be so hard to understand the thinking of the
ancient Chinese. If there is no understanding of the knowledge
in different time and different environment, how could we have a
thoroughly master of human knowledge?
To kill the
other culture by the name of science is to make the science wear
a lousy reputation. It is not the correct way to love science.
The current logic in criticizing is separate people into right
or wrong, wisdom or foolish, good or bad, dignity or lowly. It
is actually to exclude the others and make comments. Therefore,
we can see in the scholar discussion there is full of laugh at,
blame, rant, and rave. From the beginning, I thought it is an
education level of a person. Later, I realized that it is the
question of logic. The big mistake of this logic is that it does
not respect people, denies the value of human life and the
significance of life. How could a theory that is correct combat
the human being?
When I was 12 years of old, I followed my
father to the countryside to live. My father advocated the use
of scientific way of farming, by using high-quality seeds and
fertilizer and by using agricultural mechanization. I saw by my
self the process my father guided them to learn. In fact, these
young persons in the countryside were very smart. The role of my
father is to inspire them. My father, who kept laughing at
Chinese medicine, when he inspired the interest of these young
persons in the medicine, what he used is a model of an ear, and
the herbal books he stole from my mother! Started from the ear
acupuncture and herbal therapy, he encouraged two girls as the
“barefoot doctor” in the village, to use the simplest way to
treat the simple disease first. At this time, why my father did
not encourage the use of western medicine? The reason is no
money! His seeder machine was made of wood! Father asked some
land from the team leader. He asked the “barefoot doctor”
planted some herbs. I helped them to collect some herbs.
My father described to me the future
society of human. He said there would have the development of
the material and the spirit two aspects. The development of
material is very fast, but the spiritual aspect is very slow.
For example, he predicted, the Chinese character will not only
be simplified, but also be Pingyin-formed, then into a world
language – the whole world speak the same language. At that
time, there would be some people who dedicate themselves to the
creation of the world language.
Father said,
the world language is neither the perfect one. The best one
would be mathematics. In the future society, everyone is a
mathematician. Why his prediction does not work? It is an
interesting thing.
When we talk
about Chinese medicine, the opponents mentioned it with witch
and fortune-teller. If this is correct logic, when we mention a
leader, we should regard him a corrupt official. When we mention
a judge, we comment him might be a corrupt officer too. This is
another logic to create “angry youth”[2].
However, even for the future-teller, there are different styles:
the “scholar style” and the “itinerant”. They are not the same.
The scholar style was created and studied by those of ancient
Chinese who were most clever; the “itinerant” style continued to
use the study results into the practice. They worked together
and helped each other in the development.
If we look the
“scholar” style future-teller, its nature is actually
philosophy. I not only not look down the witch in the ancient
times, but also keep study attitude to the Chinese culture of
ghost and supernatural beings. Even for the witch in the current
time, I do not simply deny them. Many years ago, one of my
friends told me, the wife of one of her friend was a witch. She
cared about some “pseudo-disease” for people, from time to time.
One day after a classmate meeting, her husband drunk a lot. A
friend sent him home. His wife can not only tell out the number
of the man and woman in the party but also the number of the
wine bottles they drunk. The friend said it was extraordinary,
that the wife was an ordinary house woman. When she talked,
however, her realization to the things was very high level and
spoke on the spot. When my friend talked this to me, we were
walking along the street. She pointed out one house on the side
of the road and said she was to visit a friend in that house,
and wanted me to accompany.
After we came in, we saw several people
were already there. My friend pointed to one of the women and
introduced that she was that witch. Now I understood that she
brought me here to have an assessment on this witch. My friend
introduced me to the witch: “This is my friend, would you please
see what matter is with her now?” The witch said: “I do not need
to see for her. She knows what’s matter she has”. I smiled: “I
am not a witch, how do I know?” The witch said: “You did not
find that, when you gave people a suggestion or gave them an
idea, it worked well?” I justified that it was the result of my
study and learning, no relationship with witch. The witch told
my friend: “Her mother was also a doctor”. My friend looked at
me surprisingly: “Your mother is also a witch?” Before I said
anything, the witch said: “Her mother graduated from standard
school.” I said: “Since she graduated from school, her medical
work would have nothing related with a witch”. The witch said:
“Well, if there was no relationship, how her healing result was
so good, without any medical accident?” Heard this, I opposed:
“If it is a witch see patient, it is enough to have people as
you, why she need to study hard for so many years?” The witch
said: “Many people are studying hard too, but not everyone can
master the skill, neither everyone can exercise the job as
working for a bounden duty.” I smiled: “If you change the
spiritual nature of human being into an image as a super-nature,
I would not oppose you. But the question that I want to ask you
is: if you have no technique but only the good heart to help
people, how you can serve your bounden duty?” The witch pointed
to all the persons in the room: “Indeed I have nothing, but when
I help people, is it that I have nothing?” I asked: “Wouldn't
you think that you are cheating?” She said: “I do not feel that
I am cheating you. Do you feel that I am cheating you?” I
smiled. I did not feel she was cheating me, but felt that I met
wisdom woman, listening to whom is worthwhile than reading ten
years of books.
My friend said: “What you are talking
about? I almost cannot understand. Please talk about some real
things”. She asked the witch: “Tell me, do you think that my
friend may find a new husband or new partner?” The witch said:
“Would not”. My friend asked: “Why?” The witch said: “Because
there is a male snake in her body occupying her, not allow any
other man close to her.” My friend and I laughed. Though I
laughed what she said pretty ridiculous, but she could make a
very clear image summary of complex psychological factors. This
is very interesting. In fact, that my friend could not
understand the words that came from an ordinary woman, is due to
the limitation of the current thinking model. Now I remembered
the program host, Mr. Zhang Yue, of Chinese television station
<< Half Sky >>. She was surprised to the countryside farm woman
in Shaanxi province, Mrs. Liu Xiao (刘小), who has no any
block to communicate with her. This is the same situation as
this friend. We always believe that knowledge can only come from
the book, school, teacher, do not know the human is a learning
animal. It can learn from inside too. The wisdom as the plants
on the land, it can grow naturally in the natural environment.
Nothing strange. The current learning model and manner makes us
used to look the ordinary people from a high position down.
Compared with
today, the early development of human being is commonly and
naturally believed low, primitive, passive, simple. Where would
have godhood with them? We now try to clear any remaining
primitive things from our body. We are with a human face but
snake tail. We cannot only want to keep the face but not the
tail. I do not know our history of the human face with a snake
tail. We cannot only keep the head but not the tail.
One of my
friends vividly described our current development is a man with
paralysis lower body drives an electric car. Our current
presence status is as an adult. We can only say his reality of
development, but not the possibility of development when he was
a baby. We, adult, lost how many possibilities for development?
But we proudly look the child there naïve and innocent. I not
only believe that the “Human maker” was not lazy, but also that
the evolution goes completely without leaving not-finished
residue. Those we omitted the feeling level things, so-called
low level of us and those we are trying to get rid of might be
the most important things. The decision through the natural
ability, rather than through reasoning, might be the best and
wisdom one. Some things that were denied by science, thrown away
by reasoning, contain surprising wisdom. They imply again and
again much bigger logic than the science that we have already
had in hand.
One time, I was
in a flood. I struggled for two hours without any hope to touch
land. I had to consider my body power, ready to accept to die to
the bottom of the river. Then, I saw a very huge dark red ball
running in front of me – it is a ball of many ants. They hold
each other into a ball. To avoid drowning for those ants that
touched the water, the ant ball rolled continuously, from inside
to the outside, clock-wised… I was stunned. The age of the ant
is not long. Not to speak of an individual, even for ten or
hundreds of the ant generations might not be able to meet such
massive flood. Where they got this knowledge to survive? If I
pick up one ant from this ant ball, ask it how it knows? You can
say that they did so is due to instinct, and by chance. But the
way they used to protect the species is not science? The wisdom
is so much great over the ants, that they handle themselves to
the fate by instinct, which appeared to be the most wisdom way.
Therefore, to give oneself to fate sometimes might not be a
passive action. When I was in the flood, realized that there was
a logic that is bigger than individual and than the science, I
felt more energy that made me survived.
I talked so much, someone might say that I
still did not talk out what is Chinese medicine. I know that the
amount of knowledge in Chinese medicine cannot be compared with
western medicine. Every term, my daughter brought back the
western medicine textbooks, every of which looked thick like a
brick. Indeed, there were not so many books in Chinese medicine.
I said before, the storage space and the searching power in a
human brain is not better than the “Deep Blue” computer. Once
the searching ability of a doctor’s brain is not enough, there
might be a medical accident.
I studied a
medical accident case very carefully. This was a very good
doctor. However, due to the lack of knowledge and the limitation
of his searching ability, he has a mistake in assessment,
causing a medical accident. In the meeting of the medical
assessment committee, he was questioned, blamed, even laughed
at. I thought, these experts had a higher title than him, older
than him, more experience than him. They are a group. What they
did is the “clever after happened”. How they had no
understanding of a doctor working in a community hospital?
In a big
hospital, there always are many doctors consulting for one
patient, not including a large amount of detection or test
machines and the operation stuff for these machines yet. Does
this not mean that the western medical knowledge cannot be
remembered all by the brain of one person? Therefore, why
western medical doctors tend to be in a group, why they tend to
work in a big hospital, why they depend on high technology
technique, why people tend to go to a big hospital for
healthcare, are all not clear? People want to go to Beijing so
to feel they did all they can do. What kind of medical facility
can get becomes the standard to separate the social levels. It
is indeed the technique logic determines the thinking logic of
people.
The study
period for a medical university is five years, longer than an
ordinary university. Along with the development of the medicine,
and when the medical knowledge double, how can we learn the
western medicine? We know that in western countries, the medical
student needs to learn ten years before they can see a patient
independently. Would it be prolonged to twenty years or thirty
years? Will it happen that the student graduates at 50 years of
old, then six to seven doctors see a patient? Alternatively,
develop a robot that can work as a doctor for the diagnosis and
treatment?
I admit that
the knowledge in western medicine is very “solid”. As a
comparison, the knowledge and technique in Chinese medicine is
less. The learning in Chinese medicine is kind of “not solid”,
“not concrete”. After I lived for the fifty years, I realized
the usefulness of the “not solid”. When I was young, I tried to
learn the technique, tried to occupy the knowledge. When I
become older, I, however, try to pay less attention to the
technique and knowledge. My profession is a lawyer, but now I
try not to use law, e.g., not to use my professional knowledge
to solve a problem. I try to make my inner “void”. I let the
things that I faced into my inner side as a whole, not being
separated into pieces.
The ancient
Chinese compared the “void” status as a lake of water. After a
could or bird flies over, there would be its shadow on the
surface of the water. It is used to explain that, with coming of
things, there is feeling in the heart; after away of the things,
there is nothing left in the heart. Therefore, Chinese medicine
is the “void” without anything in it. My mother’s third Great
master paid much attention to the “void” status in heart and
Chinese medicine. One day, when he explained the “void” to my
mother, my father was the presence. Later when my father
mentioned this to me, he said, indeed, there is nothing in the
Chinese medicine. The “void” is to scare people. It is to
sweet-talk, to do things according to the current condition, and
to do things without principle… I agreed with my father.
Now I know, it
is not hard to learn technique and to learn knowledge. It is
however tough for current people to master this “void”. Our
heart has been filled up in solid. It makes our original sense,
the hearing, the smelling, the feeling, etc. all regressed.
One time, I accompanied two colleagues to
find another colleague. I saw him coming, so I was very happy.
These two colleagues laughed at me too short-sighted that I can
regard a stranger as a colleague. After that man coming close, I
have a look, it is indeed not my colleague. However, I do not
admit failure. Since I was short-sighted, I recognize people not
by face but by body shape. The body shape of this man appeared
similar to my that colleague. So I reached that man, asked him
if he knows my colleague. The man said: “He is my older
brother.”
The year before last year, my uncle came to
see me. We did not see each other for 25 years. I brought my
nephew to meet him in the railway station. I told my nephew
about the characteristics of my uncle. I told him, even if the
chance that I recognized him is fifty percent, the chance that
he recognized me is also fifty percent. Altogether, it would be
hundred percent. However, my uncle passed us, did not recognize
me, neither did I recognize him. But after out of the station,
my uncle recognized my daughter. This made me very strange. My
daughter looks like her aunt, but I look like my grandmother.
How my uncle recognized my daughter? My uncle saw my daughter
and said: “How only you come to see me?” My daughter answered:
“They are inside the station.” Then she called me: “Your uncle
is here.”
Recently, one of my friends told her sorry
thing to me, that has been a burden on her mind for 20 years,
and that she and her son both got type B hepatitis. She sent
this to me by text through a cellular phone. I did not answer
it. She asked if I am upset, not give her a pardon? I returned
her message: would the hepatitis influence friendship? If by
chance my child got it, would she never tell me? Her son usually
ate and lived in my home when he was young. He was almost as a
child of my home. She said she felt weighty burden since when
another of my friends, who also had hepatitis, ate at my home, I
gave her separated bowls and tablespoons, etc. When I invited
friends at home, I usually prepared server-self dinner. So, she
did not mention at her disease and pretended as same as I. She
excused that, according to her experience, the type B hepatitis
does not transfer to others through sharing common tools for a
meal. Her evidence is that her husband and the husband of my
other friend were not transferred to this hepatitis. I was very
upset about her excuse.
Her way made me
feel sorry to my daughter, so I told her and repeated what my
friend excused. My daughter, however, was pretty generous and
accepted her excuse. She asked me: “Do you know why the two
husbands were not transferred?” I don’t know why her husband,
who ate and slept together with his wife with type B hepatitis
for twenty years but were not transferred. My daughter reminded
me: “Think about the personality of your friends and their
husbands?”
Those two of my friends are both type A
personality. They insist, careful, asking exact, quick action,
chase for perfect. If one of them wants me to buy something from
the market, I have to change my personality into the type A
temporally. I need to have a look of the whole market first,
then chose the one that is perfect in shape, color, package and
so on. When the seller measures the weight, I need to push out
my head to see if the measurement is correct. If I buy the same
thing for my self, I will not pay too much mind do this way. One
New Year’s Eve, the son of one of them came to my home for help.
He violated the discipline of computer bar and feared penalty by
his parents. I padded my chest that it would not. In the New
Year’s Eve, even the cruelest landlord before, would treat the
slave kindly. However, the second day, the child showed me his
wound that was beaten by his parents. It made me very angry and
had a quarrel with them. I did not see any parents not so
lenient. But their husbands were very kind, lenient, no
resentment. My daughter said those of my friends were very easy
to get upset and not consent, how could their livers be good? On
the other side, their husbands are not as their wife. If they
had liver disease, with no more than one month, the disease
would be improved well. Her explanation made me laugh. In this
case, people deserved their own disease.
Due to the
nature of our work, people in our company, especially those who
are the leaders, mostly type A persons. I know the work of us
needs such type A person. My slogan is: “Dote on them. Let them
A being more A!” So, on my computer, there are several sample
formats of self-criticism. Once there is any conflict between a
colleague and the leader, I would first of all consciliate, then
write a self-criticism for the sake of my colleague, hand it to
the leader. Think about it: the type A person asks more in the
job. They bear heavy emotional stress on their liver. If they
got angry with others, they would be hurt much more. How
dangerous it would be to their body!
Therefore, such
a simple sheet of self-criticism is the herbal formula for the
liver Fire. The work needs all to do. But there is always
someone who worked more critical, more careful, and more strict,
so spend more of their bodies. The only several times of over
regular performance of mine were done by the push of the persons
with the type A personality. It is hard to keep the moving speed
together them, so it is needed to prepare several sheets of
self-criticism.
One day, I made a series of humor film with
the computer. All felt funny and humor after looking, but the
leader felt very angry. I hurried to write a self-criticism and
handed over to him. If this self-criticism was read out, it
would be heard as a comic dialogue. But he did not laugh but
read it carefully. He felt that my self-criticism was very
critical and serious. He had hepatitis too.
Type A person works under high pressure.
They would not feel it after a long time. In a summer vacation,
my daughter came to my company to see me. One of my male
colleagues asked her to feel his pulse. My daughter said his
pulse suggested damage of his body Energy (Yuan Qi). She
insisted on asking the reason. My colleague said he did not have
any surgical operation or tuberculosis. He just has had an
annual body exam, and nothing was found especially wrong. He had
distance running every day, perform up-down lifting, and felt
nothing wrong. Upon saying, he showed us his strong muscle.
However, my daughter still closed her eyebrows, thinking the
reason. I advised her, there might be someone who has a strong
body but weak pulse. My daughter said urgently, it is
impossible. If we cannot find the reason, it is as we did not
find the mine hidden in the body. It would be very dangerous. It
is this kind of person who is easy to get a sudden death. Heard
of this, I started to care too. I reminded my colleague: did you
feel tired after searching an escaping criminal? My colleague
said he had been out for 120 days to find that escaping
criminal. He could not eat or sleep reasonably. The brain nerve
was strictly tight. He indeed was exhausted. But it is his job.
All are doing the same way. My daughter said, such way of
working hurt people very much. It is the reason for over-working
death. Daughter said it would be better after finding the
reason. She suggested my colleague careful for rest, do not do
extreme physical movement…
Recently, a Spanish football player died of
sudden heart disease. He was only 22 years of old. How strong
his body was! Where comes his heart disease? I thought it is due
to the damage to the sport.
My daughter’s
father was drunk every day for some time. One of his friends was
good at drinking, and he wanted to let him also drunken and
drunken every day. I felt it was not a good thing for him. So I
invited this friend to a party and advised him to stop to
inspire my husband. The guy, however, did not listen to me but
declared no one could stop his “killing” action. No way, so I
let my husband wear “Shengong Yuanqi Dai”, perform physical
therapy, eating herbal diet, and other various health
maintenance means. In this way, my husband increased his
tolerance to the wine. He not only no longer fall into drunken
but also be able to make that guy drunken. The guy did not give
up. He tried much more hard to make my husband drunken. Finally,
one day the guy drunk and fell on the stairs, broke the glass
and went downstairs. Though saved very hard in the hospital, he
became a vegetative state.
After the
accident, I regretted very much and blamed myself. It was my
little medical knowledge that hurt him. How can we use medical
knowledge carelessly? Due to self-blame, I went to the hospital
to see him often. He lied there like a baby. His wife asked me
what to do? I said, try to restart his wisdom. On the street, I
bought a lot of various toys for him. But he only liked one:
cloth doll. This makes me very strange. A man, after the loss of
social consciousness, what he loved is a doll. It is not correct
if we say that he has no social consciousness, since his wife
said, when he plays the doll, he would feel shame if there are
any people around. The roommates in his ward, all were damaged
in the brain, hard to express meaning clearly. If he wanted to
mention the western, the expression out would however the
eastern. He was outraged for people not understand him. One day,
he broke things when I came.
All other people have hidden aside to see him expressing
his emotion. After watched him for a while, I gave him a pen and
paper. He drew a cup. All of us felt relax: oh, he wanted to
drink water. Later when I went to visit him, he showed me what
he drew. He drew a lot. He drew better and better. He was no
longer angry. It appears that the concept in the human brain is
not stable storage. Its access is easy to get trouble. So, many
cliff paintings are more like a picture, less with words. Maya
people indeed left words, but no one can tell out its meaning.
When we use our knowledge, when we explore our hidden inner
ability, we could not realize the risking component in it; not
realize that when one factor varies, many other factors would be
varied at the same time; not realized that this whole variation
may not always in harmony, in a friendly and healthy way. This
idea applies to not only the social but also the body. However,
the nature of our humanity is to act though we know it should
not and can not. Science is such a thing. It is the development
of the ability of the human being, but also the tragic drama of
human being.
The Yin-Yang
and Five-element is a model. The progressive decline of Chinese
medicine is due to the disconnect of this model with reality. It
is not so much the model cannot keep the time, as the human
being is away from nature. It is the protective role of the
science that makes the human being no longer keep the same step
as nature. Alternatively, we can say that changing nature with
the science makes the human have no nature to keep step with. I
am not worried or feel pity to lose the Yin-Yang and
Five-element, but worry that the natural power may later rebound
back, to break our protecting shell, draw us back into nature
again? At that time, would we not bring a gold bowl but beg for
food? I know that the Yin-Yang and Five-element model might not
perfect, but it, however, holds one side of the sky. The society
develops as an individual department in front but constructed
with many kinds of cultures. Break the Chinese culture, this
holding pole to the sky; there might be a collapse of the sky on
that side.
Is it ok if we
do not repair that sky? When I went out for a traveling with my
daughter, she thought it would be enough to bring enough money.
I would bring enough money but also a big cake. My action of
bring a big cake would be laughed by young people, the cake
might have to be throw away for moldy. But once the human being
is still on the way, my job is to bring a big cake with me.
The year before
last year, I followed a group out for traveling. My colleague
advised me: “This time, you do not need to care for anything,
but your own fun.” I promised. However, when I saw the team
leader put all of the bank cards, personal certificate cards, so
many important things, into a single small bag, I could not
prevent to ask him: “Let me bring the bank cards?” The leader
asked why. I said, there might be depletion of magnetic from the
cards if you put all together. So, he gave the bank cards to me.
Three days later, his bag was stolen. Since
the bank cards were with me, our overall traveling was not
really affected. I told my daughter, China is a multiple
disaster country, who can ensure that your generation would not
catch a war or natural disaster? Without electric, a huge
hospital would be a ruin. I never said that the western medicine
is not good, never said that we should not develop big hospital,
never said no need to bring enough money on traveling, I only
wanted myself be a person who can supply some supplement to the
whole process. I would not feel easy if I do not leave a big
cake, my daughter, to the human being. Not afraid of 10,000, I
am afraid that in case. A woman in menopause period is such
worry. My daughter criticized me from her young. It appeared
that she would not grow up without denying me. I would like to
be denied by my daughter.
From my daughter, I also realized that
history is not for being enshrined, that God is not for being
respected, and that its vivid life lies in the use of constant
negation and affirmation. Deny or confirm both have no
significance. The significance is the growth of human being.
Chinese medicine is under deny and confirm too. It means that we
are growing. The reason why I lived to be fifty years old still
feels alive and interesting because I can always taste the magic
of life.
I lived a
childhood with the accompany of my mother. After the birth of my
daughter, I accompanied her. I lived again a childhood viewed
from a mother’s point. Then I found, though I believed I have
already known things, I actually did not know the thing in my
early years. My mother, whom I have believed not knowing things
from my point, appeared not really so. Then I realized that our
childhood is not only one time. When I accompany my grandson for
his childhood, would I live another my childhood again, to bring
back the nice time as my grandmother accompanied me? History,
why it is again and again hammered and pondered?
Primitive, why it makes people hard to
throw away? Why human want to go back to the root? It is because
the human does not grow up once, but repeatedly. So, returning
does not mean to go back an old road, but a new road. It is to
pick up a life that belongs to me. It is to make me toward
perfect again and again. In accompanying my daughter, the shape
of my mother grew taller and taller, and with dignity and
divinity. For this, I understand why Chinese ask to behave like
a human (not an animal), why Chinese respect ancient generations
very much. My daughter said: “Mother, after you die, if I want
to argue with, who can replace you?” I felt happy in the heart.
From the constant deny by my daughter to me, I was pushed to a
position in which no one can replace me. After I die, would my
shape be some divinity in my daughter’s heart?
One day I met
my previous neighbor. I asked about his grandfather’s mother. He
said she died. It was in spring. She lived for 98 years. I
corrected him, it was not 98, but 103 years of old. Chinese does
not want to be the full hundred. The person who said he/she is
98 or 99 years of old most probably has already over 100 years
of old. This old lady went to visit my neighbor family ten years
ago. She came to visit us one day in the morning. She looked
like only 70 years of old. She told me she was old, had one
tooth fell. The memory was reduced too. If she went to the
street to buy three things, she would then return with only two.
I told her, I was only 40 but lost two
teeth already. If I go to the street to buy one thing, I can
even forget that one. I was surprised when she told me that she
was 93 years of old and she still cooks for the whole family. On
May first this year, we went to the suburbs to have a volunteer
working. I met the grandmother of my colleague. She was also 93
years of old. She lived herself, burning fire, cook, washing
clothes. She had many sons and grandsons, but no one could
successfully invite her to live with them. Seeing that I picked
up a camera to take a photo, she hurried to make a pose, smiled
facing the camera.
From the long-lived people, I learned a
lot. Those people got old does not necessarily cause bothering
to others. Old people over 90 can take care of his/herself, but
also serve the whole family. How nice a picture of the family?
Many of our current people, when just over some age, want to be
cared for by others, asking son or daughter come to visit them,
asking for material and also feelings. Would it not create a
burden to the next generation? Whenever I saw the public-benefit
advertising on TV, I told my daughter, I am strong enough. She
does not need to come to visit me, but instead, I would help her
any time.
There was a very selfish and cruel
colleague. He has no strong feeling to his parents, wife or son.
But, when he got the call informing him that his grandmother was
severely sick, he took out all the money he saved, hurried to
the hometown. His grandmother was 96 years of old. The doctor
said there was no value for the treatment. This colleague asked
the doctor if there is any medication that can be used? The
doctor said there was one drug that had not been used. The drug
imported from Germany. But this drug might not work either. He
asked if there would be any adverse effect from this drug. The
answer was no. The colleague said, then, if there is no side
effect, use it now! He brought out the money to buy that
imported drug for his grandmother… The grandmother who was in a
coma for several days opened eyes, smiled when she saw him: “My
senior grandson comes! Didn’t you have a sleep? Look, you appear
very tired. Come and lie down beside me and have a sleep… Close
your eyes.” She groped a quilt to cover over him. This colleague
said it was the happiest time in his life when he lied down
beside his grandmother holding her hands.
His mother,
however, complained pain in front of him, asked for some money
for a pain killer, but he refused. It made me surprised that a
lady nearly hundred was the feeling target of this colleague. I
asked my daughter if I am old, no any use, would my value reduce
to zero? She tapped on my shoulder: “Not really. You still have
unlimited loyalty to me..” Oh, I understand, this is my value as
a dog. Daughter said: “Mother, when you become old and sit down
the bed. You smile to me with mouth without teeth, upon seeing
my come home from work. You see, would you not be better than
any pet?” What she said pointed to me a future: being a pet.
I think, if I
really have no good-for-anything, to live seventy or eighty
years of old, as a waste as cat or dog to eat leisure food,
should I at least have a value of a pet? This makes me pay
attention to the behavior of the pets, the warm of the dog, the
soft of the cat, the cute and lovely of the bird… all are what I
need to learn. In the consideration to be what kind of old
people, I would not find any other better role than a pet. There
is an old lady in the street selling pouch made by herself. The
pouch is not so cute, but in which there is fragrant grass she
planted. My daughter said that is the fragrant pouch. She kept
such fragrant pouch beside her pillow whole of the year.
There was an
old man begging money. Heard his reason for begging, his fast
thinking and reasoning convinced me. I gave him some money and
pointed to him a restaurant selling dumpling. I also told him
which kind of dumpling is delicious.
I also have an
elderly friend. She lived to 96 years of age. When she was 84
years of old, she ran, by her self, to the building field where
his son was building a house. She, unfortunately, fell from a
stare that has no fence yet at that time. She broke her three
ribs. I thought she must be damaged. I bought some gift and ran
to the hospital to see her. Seeing her terrible condition, I
felt very sad and hardly found any words to comfort her. She,
however, told me: first, she was 84 years of old. Even if she
died, it was not early death. Second, one of the three broken
ribs was healed now. With one more rib healed, she would be able
to work again. Indeed, no more than another several day, the old
lady tried to get up to cook for the family. I admire her simple
but strong thinking.
On noon later,
she told me she got sick. I cannot see what’s wrong with her.
She showed me. She drank a mouth of water, the water falling
from the corner of her mouth. She could not close the mouth. She
got a stroke! I hurried out to call her son’s wife. The wife
came and wanted to bring the old lady to the hospital. She held
the door frame and resisted not to go. The wife told me that her
son went out for business travel. How to explain what happened
to the old lady? So the wife called the lady’s one daughter.
The daughter came and brought the old lady to her home.
Upon going in the car, the wife handed a herb pill called Zaizao
pill (再造丸)
to the old lady. One week later, the old lady walked back by
herself. Her disease was recovered. She told me she did not go
to the hospital. She only ate those pills.
I observed
these long-living people. They had no particular way for health
maintenance. My mother’s uncle lived nearly hundred years of
old. My grandmother blamed his lifestyle. My grandmother said he
ate almost anything, what dead cat, dead dog, dead chicken, or
diseased pig. He brought all of such things home to eat. A
grandfather of my neighbor lived to 90 years of old about. He
liked to fishing but could not get fish. Every time, what he got
is a soft-shelled turtle. My grandmother joked with him for this
quite often. When I was young, I bent my knee beside him,
watching how he killed these turtles, but I had no patience to
wait to see the turtle pushing out their heads. When he drunk
the turtle soup, no one asked to share with him, but laughed at
him. Now I regret not asking the soup to drink at that time.
Psoriasis that is also called “Cow skin
ringworm”, has bothered me for many years. I have tried many
kinds of medications. They were either no effects or only worked
for a short time. I have also tried to see some experts. I went
to their clinic room, sat there listening. I left soon since I
do not agree with what they were talking. I felt it was a joke.
My mother was good at the treatment of such disease, but I,
however, got this kind of disease. The formula that my mother
used was not recorded or left to me. I, therefore, have to live
with this disease. Later, I heard by chance from one of my
friends who was a doctor in a mental disease that psoriasis
could be termed the second mental disease in human. This makes
me pay attention to the physical-emotional characteristics of
such disease.
I know that
people with blood type A are prevalent among patients with
psoriasis. I am not the type A, how could I get this kind of
physical-emotional disease? An expert said it is a genetic
inherit disease. There is no rule about its incidence. I
thought, if it is due to genetic disorder, how could emotion
affect the expression of the gene? Also, my emotion is pretty
stable, how could I stimulate the gene angry?
Careful
observation makes me find that my disease indeed changed along
with the change in my work and lifestyle. When I worked as a
male role, and when I work, live and think as a social style, I
get to admire from people, I felt happy, but the disease was
worse at this time. And when I live naturally in a sensual way,
following nature, no one admires me or confirms my job, the
disease was however relatively less severe. What does it mean?
Does that mean that our society needs and the physiologic needs
are inconsistence? After a long time careful consideration I
changed my work and lifestyle, stop the career that is very
promising in other’s eyes. Pretty soon, my psoriasis
disappeared. Since then, there have been several signs of
recurrence, and I have only controlled the recurrence by
adjusting my life.
To be honest, I
am sad, even painful, for loss of my social values. My disease,
however, gets cured in my pain. So I realized that happiness is
not the only standard to mark emotional health. One of my
friends felt very sad to die for her break of marriage. All ask
me to comfort her. I said I don’t do so. I know that, sometimes,
sadness is more following the emotional logic than happy. The
surface harmony and happy marriage made her twists, suffered
from many kinds of diseases. Her crying turned the longtime
twisted logic back to normal. It is not a bad thing. Why should
we come to comfort her? I termed my ringworm as “small window of
emotion”. If it happens, I would sit down, search the deep
emotional roots. Among these roots, some are very deep. I cannot
realize it without the happening of a disease.
In daily life, how a person realize that
the work and lifestyle that bring to you the honesty, dignity,
the money, and the social status, might in fact not suit you?
Someone consulted with me where my disease was cured. I said it
was cured by myself. I can control it to cure or to happen
again. They felt it impossible, thought that I was joking. From
this, I think that the average life span of a male is shorter
than female. Would that be due to the socialized lifestyle that
hurt the body? Does the man really a social animal? A female can
escape from the society, where the male goes? Is the happy in
the success the same as the happy for life? What kind of society
human really need?
Women come into society in a large
quantity. They accept the reasoning of the society. Perceptional
knowledge is no longer the half of the whole reasoning entity.
One of my friends said the human knowledge is as a tree. The
perception part of women is as the root parts in the soil. The
rationality of men is the above ground part. The rationality of
man should be the result they “read” the women’s perception.
When the women are no longer perceptual, the human knowledge
tree is pulled from the root. The men’s rationality knowledge
becomes the wood without roots. The human knowledge becomes a
vine, not tree. Vine may crumb very high and very long, but it
would take the climbing as a reality rather than itself being a
reality.
Now, I can
still find the reason for my disease by searching the deep
emotional reasons for it. What about in future? Would science
help us to search the deep reasons in the emotional world? Many
chronic diseases, as the stubborn ringworm (psoriasis), are
emotional diseases. For them, science is trying hard to solve.
Many people criticize that Chinese medicine is to “guess
disease”. Evaluation
on the course in which I tried to find the reason for the
disease also shows kind of individual, occasional, and guessing
characteristic. Finding any evidence using science is hard.
When I was
young, I also refused things that were guessed, due to the
influence of my father. So, I refused to guess riddle, to play
poker, or to buy lottery. I felt that a riddle as “Net house,
red coat, white fatty inside” is an extremely boring game. Why
should we describe the peanut with such twisted manner? Why are
Chinese so glad to guess the riddles? I never got any award by
guessing “lamp riddle” or “word riddle”. I felt it is not
necessary to spend mind on such things.
Later, however,
I gradually noticed, there are such “riddles” all over the
Chinese history, philosophy, medicine, and literature. The novel
<< Red Chamber Dream >> is the biggest riddle. It attracted many
people to guess again and again from history. The “Dao”,
“Yin-Yang”, “Five-elements” and many others that we think not
worthwhile to spend mind, all show us the “net house, red
coat…”, attracting us to search the corresponding historical
real “peanut”.
The
riddle-making person who is most close to us is the author Lu
Xun[3].
But our ability to guess him is sharply declining. Someone said,
the reason for him to made riddle is because it was time the
Guoming Party dominated in China, which created “White terror”
in China, not allowing any criticism. Why did our old
generations, however, make riddle in Chinese culture? I think it
might because our ancient Chinese also felt a kind of destroying
power in the Culture.
“Peanut”, can
this word allow implying what it is? When Chinese create word or
phase, they chased for implying it meaning. This implication
does not only mean “similar” to the shape of the stuff but also
allowing you image out its meaning. Besides, from one word, you
should also be able to have connected, linked, related, or
clustered shapes and meanings of other things. For example, the
word “south”. In Chinese, the south could mean “noon” in time;
mean “fire” in temperature; mean “heart” in the body organs;
mean “summer” in season… you can continue to guess out, again
and again, no end. So, the word “south” is no longer a single
word. “Net house, red coat…” could get rid of the “shape” of the
“peanut”, but its “meaning”. When the word “peanut” can not
imply us its original meaning, we can find the peanut in our
space, through guessing “Net house, red coat…” We can re-find,
re-establish our culture in this way.
I saw many
herbs in a Veterinary Hospital. I felt strange. The vet there
told me, he was the medical consultant for several farms. The
farms gave him a technique share, to inspire him the most active
in work. In this way, his job changed from earning money by
treating the disease to earning share income. His emphasis on
the work also changed from the treatment to prevention. So,
besides the vaccine, the herbs became his first choice for
prevention, since he needs to care the financial cost. I asked,
though the human and animals are all animals, there is much
difference between the chicken and the human. How could you use
the herbs? The vet said, why not? The mechanism is the same as a
human. In the autumn, the weather becomes cold, the lung of the
chicken would also feel discomfort. Add some herbs in the
feeding to the chicken; the chicken would not catch a severe
disease. In spring, add some bitter vegetables in the feeding,
it would also prevent the spring infectious disease. If we wait
until the chicken really catches a disease, even if it not dies,
it would affect the production of eggs. So we will lose in
financial, right? For western medicine, besides the vaccine,
whatever it has for prevention? Also, western drugs are too
expensive.
Heard this, I could not prevent from
laughing. I think it is of course not proper to regard the human
society as the chicken farm, but if the officers who plan and
dominate the healthcare reform can refer to the chicken farm
model, the existing value of the Chinese medicine would indeed
show out. So, to me, the conflict between western medicine and
Chinese medicine is not so much as scholar aspect, as the
backward of the financial situation.
The reason why
mothers are committed to preventing diseases and treating minor
illnesses inside and outside the courtyard is that once a small
disease occurs, it is not that Chinese medicine cannot cure it,
but in the case of economic difficulties, people often give up
treatment. Only 12 dollars, that girl who was the same age as
me, and who suffered from aplastic anemia, died because her
mother did not buy the herbs for her. It only costs her mother
12 dollars! My mother fell tear when the girl died. Mother said
the herb was expensive for the ingredient “antelope horn”.
However, it could not be omitted. Mother blamed herself deeply
for not used even cheaper way to save the life of the girl.
From the beginning, the Chinese have no
condition to develop with high costs and high risks. If Dr. Hua
Tuo did not want to treat the severe disease, he would not have
died. For the combination of western medicine and Chinese
medicine, to me, we should not chase for the combination in
technique, but in the dislocation of the healthcare facility in
society first. Of course, this depends on the government
direction of the officers and the economic experts. On the road
of the human development, ancient people said: “Those who follow
nature would survive; those who act against nature would die”.
We, however, said, “Change the nature”. We did not die, and
nature was neither changed. But it is clear that the cost is too
high to act against nature. Why can we not have a good
relationship with nature? The sky (everything in the sky), the
earth (everything on the earth), and the human, their
relationship set up the rule for the human philosophy and
emotion. It is Chinese medicine, which recognizes this
relationship and transfers it into medicine. Of course, I think
that Chinese medicine can also transfer it into a
political-economic study.
Chinese medicine is created by Chinese
collectively. When mother was feeling pulse for a patient, all
the people in the room were watching and listening. The patients
were the chief examiner, who held the active power. The doctor
was the consulter. If patients can not accept the doctor, the
doctor would not be able to practice medicine. When my mother
was young, her medical skill, of course, was not good. During
the course as a consulter for patients, the nice co-relationship
with patients made her improve her clinic skill further.
Therefore, Chinese medicine is a people’s medicine. It is a kind
of human medicine. Nowadays, we deny this collective wisdom too
carelessly.
The existence
of a human being is not only the consciousness, the only
“layer”, but there are also much more under this layer too,
e.g., many precipitations. The consciousness is the face of a
human being; the precipitations is the body of the human. The
face is modern, but the body requires close to the world. In the
current time of human being, the face and the body of the human
has separated away. It is due to the “Decapitation” of modern
science activity that chasing for the face but not the body. The
result is a mutual call from the body and the face - anxiety.
Compared with western medicine, the
“technique” in Chinese medicine is relatively “void” or “empty”
or “not solid, not concrete”. However, the learning contents in
Chinese medicine beyond the “technique” are much more than in
western medicine. To master the relationship between the
universe, the earth factors, and the human being is the
pre-condition to learn and master the Chinese medicine.
The void of
Chinese medicine is just its container role. We use the
container to hold and keep private things. The regulation in the
hospital refuses private things. Since my mother had too many
private things, she is not assistance with the hospital.
Compared with western medicine, Chinese medicine appears very
simple, without many technique contents. This is as the
comparison between the Chinese coat the Western-style clothes.
My hobby is to make clothes. I told my friends, I can do any
kinds of dressing but not the Western-style clothes. My friends
laugh: that means you have no enough skill, otherwise why you
cannot make Western-style clothes? I said, almost every process
in making the Western-style clothes needs the help and facility
by science technique. The Western-style clothes is not made by
hands, but high temperature heated and high power pressed in a
machine that costs tens of thousands or even hundreds of
thousands of dollars. How can I do it with my hands?
When I was
young, a gentle and refined patient came to my home. If he moved
a little bit, the edge of his clothes as fly up, layer by layer.
If he kept not to move, the edge of his clothes also moved a
little bit like a small wave. The whole man as walked out from a
poem, very scholarly and refined. I went around him several
rounds to search why he appeared so gentle. After a serious
reasoning study, I believed that his charm came from his Chinese
style of pair of casual clothes. Grow up in tenement courtyard,
as known reasoning, I never compete with others for eating or
wear. This time, I asked very formally from my mother, I want
similar clothes. My mother was very serious too. Very quickly, A
blue coat made of plain cloth was put on me.
Though I had it on my body, I did not show
any poem. My classmates said that I looked as a grey rat. I
neither knew why I looked not nice or refined with this coat on
the body, that appeared made very carefully and refined. After
many years, I understand, my coat was made using Western-style
clothes of technique. It was platen, suit to the body, without a
fold. On the body, there is no flying style as Chinese coat,
neither the tall or straight of the Western-style clothes. The
coat of that patient was made by his mother by hands, using
platen cutting, linked sleeve, with the collar towards more
behind. In adding the collar, it should not fix on with equal
distance but fix several spots first further, so, the dressing
sticking up in front, but also raising on the behind. The
dressing was not under balance, but also finding balance by
itself. It moved even if the body did not move, showing a result
of skirt fashion. Therefore, when we see the year 2001, the APEC
conference in China, we see the “Chinese Coat” wear by the
leaders of each country, showed as same stiff and inflexible as
my coat that year. I was eager to tell these leaders, it was not
the way to wear the “Chinese Coat” as they did. A sleeve of
western style would make the loss of the taste of the Chinese
dressing. But including the designer of the dressing, would any
people feel any defect for these “Chinese Coat” the leaders
wear?
I have a
friend. When he heard that he got liver cancer, he asked his
wife to call me. I brought a bound of flowers to visit him. He
asked me two questions. First, was there any necessity for him
to struggle against the disease? See that he lost his body
weight as a speed of three kg every day, his cutting-down slim
body, and the bloodstain in front of his chest after his
vomiting blood, I steeled my heart and told him, no need to
struggle. He heard my answer, asked his family member to release
the turtle to the river. He said, since it cannot save me, there
is no need to kill it. The second question is, “Why good man
lives not long?” I felt hard to answer, so I asked him back: “Is
this world really so nice?” He died at that night.
This friend of
mine is a very spiritual man. One day when we mentioned dance, I
said everyman who danced with me turned dance into the teaching
me dance. But I finally did not learn how to dance. Heard this,
he smiled. He invited me to dance. That time, I was the queen in
the dance, like I wear the “red shoes”. Dance became my genius
show. After that, I however still do not know how to dance. When
later on, the gentleman taught me again for dance, my attitude
is no longer honest, but believe that they are the ones who do
not know the dance, but not me.
The question he raised before death is not
meaningless. I cannot say that there is no relationship between
the good or bad of the person and his life span. I did not
really answer his question, letting him died with sad. In fact,
I admit the fact that a good man does not necessarily live
longer. I know it is a social question. There is a criminal.
When asked why he committed the crime, he said, when he knows he
got cancer, there were no more days to live, he wanted to commit
a crime to be “happy” once. After referring to his hospital
case, indeed he got cancer. According to the diagnosis of a
doctor, he would not be able to live longer to the adjustment
day. For this, the forensic medical expert brought him to the
hospital to check again. The result showed no cancer cells. The
criminal was very angry, requesting the doctor to explain. The
doctor has to say that it was a misdiagnosis. The criminal did
not get happy since he had no cancer. He blamed the doctor for
he had to stay in jail. I think the chance of misdiagnosis by
the hospital is not high. Most possibly, it is the “happiness”
of the criminal that dissolved the tumor. Being a good man, he
got cancer; being criminal, cancer cured his disease. Would this
be the more evidence that a good man does not live long? Being a
good man, suffered from suppressing, which hurts his health.
This means that the principle of “Stronger one eats weaker one”
works. The question my friend raised before his death reflected
his confusion as a human. When we admire the stronger,
struggling, how could a person like my friend did not feeling
suppress? He could make a woman who does not know dance danced
as a dancing queen. It means he endeavored to allow others to
express their ability rather than his. How lovely and valuable
personal quality of him? He, however, paid for his life.
Among the people with the same age, I
participated in much more kind of job than others. Whenever
there was a competition for a job position in our company,
needing the end one dismissed, I cannot endure the eyesight of
my colleagues. I would tell them: “I oppose the competition,
argue that the person who has a higher ability to leave. I can
find a new job, so I leave. “I would not feel any happiness in
the victory of the job competition.
Several days
ago, I read an article. It opposed against birth control policy.
The article said, there is a large population of Chinese, but do
we have too many children? But what we reduced in the population
will be the children. After reading this article, we felt
embarrassed, felt as we, those of old people, occupied the space
for children. Now it seems that the action of my mother’s Great
master is pretty conscious. Nothing hard to understand him now
(He refused to live longer). It might be that good man should
not live longer.
However, that doing bad thing might make
people happy is not in conformity with the life logic, since it
is not the way the society established. I do not regard the
moral with different eye or principle. I told my daughter, moral
is not a good or beautiful thing. Nothing in it is real, true,
or hypocritical. A group of robber want to live more than three
days; they need the same moral as us. Being a person who does
not follow moral could feel happiness and live longer, but have
a cost of others health and live. The damaged is not only good
people but also the whole society. We should also consider this
significant medicinal cost.
The award mechanism of human society is far
and far away from human nature. When the human nature asked to
return, people usually went to the road of crime. For example,
Theft and corruption, like primitive people picking fruit, may
let people feel more fun than they work to earn money. There was
an embezzling officer, he was not short of money at home, but he
continued to embezzle. After into the jail, I thought he would
collapse in spirit. One time, I organized a law education in the
jail, Someone suggested that he be present and talk about his
criminal psychology. I said he would not do such thing that
loses his face. I didn't expect him to agree very much.
In the jail, I
saw him as same active as before. He calculated to me that he
earned more mark, reduced more penalty than others. The award
mechanism in the jail made him find the direct happiness as
embezzling. However, in society, it is tough for us to get the
primitive happiness as “picking fruit” and “hunting” from our
work. We usually suffer from the social pressure that suppresses
human nature. How our body would not catch a problem in such a
life? On the other side, if we let the good man behave like a
bad man against social moral, it would also make him pay the
cost of body health. You see, if we do not make the human life
regulation in assistance with the personal body-heart logic, it
would be very difficult to let a good man lives long.
My daughter told me, Buddhist monks also
get sick. She felt the pulse for some monks. The pulses were
weak. She said it indicated that being a monk was against
nature. A human being needs normal diet, needs to eat some meat.
I said when did Chairman Mao ask eating of Hongshao pork? It was
usually after a victory or after finish an article writing. The
current monks are hard to escape from society. Many monks use a
computer, visit the internet, even buy stocks. Any such action
would exhaust their heart energy and spiritual energy. If they
insist on vegetarian food, how would their body not become weak?
Therefore, it is not that the lifestyle of the monks is against
nature, but that the modern life of the monks is away from the
original road. If we stand on the current time point to assess
the life of monks correct or not, the monks need to eat meat and
should get married too. In this way, the monk is no longer a
monk.
We really need
to stand on another time-space point to assess the current
time-space and make some necessary adjustment to it. In other
words, we should not look at things in history and the world
always with the current point of view. We need to look at the
current things from the historical point of view too. As in this
point, we not only need to understand the “today’s history”, but
also “today in history”. This is the value of history in today.
If there were no liquor, I am sure, the
number of people who get sick and who had to stay in jail would
have reduced to half. There is no nutritional value for the
liquor or cigarette, but the social costs of drinking liquor and
smoking are huge.
It was reported that the death number of
people died of smoking or of smoking-related disease will exceed
that of those die from AIDS, tuberculosis, hard birth delivery,
car accident, suicide, and murder. In China, the number of the
population who smoke exceeds 3 billion. In the whole world,
among every ten cigarettes smoked, there are three of them
smoked in China. 67 man over 100 Chinese male smoke. Smoking
costs about 42.9 billion dollars for health loss in China.
More than 500 million Chinese drink liquor.
The car accident due to alcohol-drinking is 80% of all reasons
for car accidents. Liquor-dependent has been listed as a big
category. Patients belong to this group is about 10% of all
hospitalized patients. Alcoholics have become the “number one
public harm”. My father did not drink or smoke. He said the
person controlled by addiction is easy to lose self-dignity. For
those who take narcotics, he believes that they are not human.
Watching foreigner film, one police leader,
a hero, was injected drug by the Mafia. He then became a pitiful
creature crawling on the ground begging. So, the hero motion
cannot beat a syringe of a narcotic, half bottle of alcohol.
From this point, the human is a material creature. It is true
that matter is first nature.
What’s the most
painful in jail? It is smoke addiction. When I brought criminal
in court, I usually prepared some cigarettes. One day, I brought
one criminal in court, who has another partner in the same case.
The first one smoked off his share of cigarette, asked me for
the cigarette for his partner. He said the partner did not
smoke. I gave him. When I brought the second guy, he asked
cigarette with strong hope. When he got known that his first
partner had occupied his share, he fell a tear a lot.
He cried very wronged for unjust treatment and decided to
expose other crime by that partner. He said: “He was so rude to
grab my cigarette!” One cigarette could break the “friendship”
between them.
There was one murderer who hates alcohol.
He said to me: “It is the alcohol that destroyed me. I am not
going to drink the last cup of liquor that supposed to drink
before killing me.” When opening the court, he was brought from
a small cabinet of the jail. I asked what wrong he committed for
the jail regulation. He said he drunk liquor. Someone brought
into the jail a plastic bag of liquor. The “criminal leader”
gave him an award to allow him to drink little. He refused. The
“leader” insulted him: “I see you a death-criminal, no many days
for you to live, so I allowed you to drink it. You, however, do
not understand my good heart. What is the use for your regret
now? There is no chance for you to change to a good man now…” He
felt his yelling was reasonable, so he drunk some. The smell of
the alcohol was found by the discipline, who requested him to
stay in the small cabinet for a penalty. He asked me: “You see,
how hurt was I by alcohol?” It is the alcohol that hurt people,
but it is the people who are punished. The alcohol has no
penalty at all.
When I was
young, I wanted to be a Government officer like Mr. Lin Zexu to
forbid opium or alcohol. But when Gorbachev forbade alcohol in
Russia, I laughed. Gorbachev is a straight mind person. His way
of thinking is admired by the western. How can such a simple
thing, as a General secretary of a big country, he failed to
fulfill it? When I was young, I chased for a strong mind, I
wanted my self a man made of special material, though I was not
a communist party member. My father did not drink or smoke, but
he takes snacks. I, however, do not take a snack. My grandmother
said those who like snacks is easy to be wheedled. My mother
said, however: “Like snacks means health”. I tried myself to
resist my mother’s “wheedle”, lived as a puritan. The direct
result of such living style is that my feeling is more and more
sensitive. I clearly feel that from my bone, I am an addictive
people. I have a feeling to like the smoke and alcohol, though I
did not make it as my goal. I drunk coffee, tea, one after
another, and become addictive to them. They made me have poor
sleep so that I have to ban them. During quitting of the coffee
and tea, I realized that they are also toxic.
Dr. Li Shizheng wrote in his book << Ben
Cao Gang Mu >>: people addictive to the tea, chewing the tea in
the mouth from time to time. After a long time, it damages Yinqi
and Blood. Their faces are pale, yellow and withered. They got
sick, but they continued without regression. It is well known
the harm of coffee. It was said that the early death of Mr.
Balzac was due to the coffee. I have also tried to give up the
pepper. My daughter said that people with a weak heart should
not eat pepper as me to chew pepper in the mouth piece by piece.
After I got a recurrence of the heart disease, I had to stop the
pepper.
During the painful course for various
giving up, I understand the meaning of spirit empty. It is not
something wrong in the worldview, not needing the thinking to
fill, but need material to fill it up. So, I chew betel palm. I
chew something as “Shanzha pill”, “Guipi pill”, “Yimu pill
”these left by others. I comfort myself as this is more dignity
than picking a cigarette-end. My daughter said, why this way?
You had better drink some Chinese herbal tea. I went to a
doctor, asking for herbs. Actually what I wanted is the grass
root and tree barks!
Now, I
realized, were the goals of all the gentlemen with addictive not
the “grass root and plant rinds”? If allowing me to live in
nature, I may find some grass to eat by myself. I may be second
“Shennon”. It is said by all that it is not hard to give up the
drugs in philosophy but hard in emotion. I cannot prevent from
asking: why there is an addition in emotion? Would this addition
is not a calling from far away sky? Cigarette, coffee, tea,
pepper, opium poppy, hemp, all are the “grass” in the land.
“Grass” addition has been sediment in the human gene. If this
addition is gene-related, congenital, is part of our body, how
giving-up action against these smoke and alcohol would succeed?
Scientists explained the mechanism of
addictive reaction from the chemistry. I admit that this world
is a chemical one. The human is chemical, the hundreds of
“grass” are also chemical. Even the whole of human life can also
be regarded as a chemical reaction course. The “addiction” asks
the reaction of the human in and out of the body.
“The addiction”
needs to be met from time to time, but given up from time to
time too. The consideration of restriction in Chinese medicine
is to ask a balance in the chemical reaction. Purification
technique and synthetic drugs make the filling up as the
dominating power in the chemical reaction, makes it impossible
to give up the addiction. When using western medicine to solve
the addition, it comes quite often that the addiction
disappears, but the people disappear too (died). Alternatively,
the medicine used for giving up drugs became a new addictive
reason.
Currently, for quitting the drug, the
Chinese medicine works, like it works in the treatment of
cancer, not directly kill the cancer cells, or to quit the drug.
What it does, is to save the human life, is to support the
defense ability of the body, is to re-balance the disordered Qi
and Blood in every part of the body. The medication used in
Chinese medicine is the “Grassroots and plant rinds”, is the
course of the “addiction”. It is to open the window in the body,
through which the body chemical exchanges and reacts with the
chemical in nature, to make the human and nature in harmony in
the chemical reaction. From this point of view, it is really
worthwhile to study the Chinese herbs – such multiple natural
“original elements”.
The human life is so fragile. It can
disappear in a flash; it is also very strong, which is hard to
explain by modern science. I know one person, who lied on the
bed from his 18 years of old to now he is 40 years of old. He
suffered the whole body paralysis from rheumatism. like Mr.
Stephen William Hawking, he also had only three fingers that can
move. Mr. Hawking can sit on the wheelchair, but he cannot even
sit up. Mr. Hawking was sentenced by the doctor, when he was 22
years of old, being able to live for two years, but he has lived
to his 65 years birthday. Mr. Hawking enrolled in traveling in
space in the year 2009, to finish his childhood dream. The
doctors said, if he comes to space, he must die in the
spacecraft. I agree with the doctors. If he could live back, it
would turn off the physiology.
My that friend
who fallen from stairs died after lying on the bed for less than
one year. The doctor explained, if one lied down on the bed for
more than one week, the muscle would reduce by 20%. The human
function is the more use, the better. If the muscle is not under
use, it will shrink in mass. Lying on the bed makes it possible
that the activity of breath, the stomach and intestine movement;
the blood circulation becomes stagnated; immune system ability
reduced; the degeneration of various organs and tissues starts;
the secondary damage of the organs is hardly avoided.
All in all, it
means that every road leads to death. This friend died of lung
infection. Since paralysis is hard to live from the physiology
point of view, how my friend with paralysis can live for 40
years? There is evidence that he may live longer than some
healthy people. Why people like Mr. Hawking, who was sentenced
by western medicine to death, can last his life for so long as
it is hard to believe? Is it really as western medicine said,
their body defense system is so fragile? If it is so, how could
them live so long? If their defense system function is not low,
what’s the reason and how to explain previously western medicine
said? The physiology theory cannot explain why a person can live
a long time without being able to move.
That the relationship between the health
and long life span, that between the life and movement, is
hardly completely explained by current science. This inspires me
to image the human life that is in the evolution end. What is
the shape of life? What shape it can be? To Mr. Hawking, we may
explain that he got the best health service in the world –
several nurses worked for him day and night. But the person I
know of, lost mother when he was young, lost a father when he
was in middle life. He had no scholar degree, not job; has very
little life and healthcare conditions. He commonly has no people
around him to care for him. He had to endure thirsty and hungry,
endure the bowel movement, and other inconvenience… I saw him
always lied there by himself alone with one body position, using
a cotton gloves putting under his body. His thigh looked as same
big as an ordinary people, but if you look at it carefully, you
would find that the muscle has already shrunk, the size is due
to the puffy bone. Such quality of bone would break with a
slight bend. He had several ulcers in his body, with bone out.
He had no medicine, so he used several pieces of paper to cover
it. It however cured by itself.
His life inspired us, shaken others, and
implied to us something. I joked with him, God only created his
head, not the body. Mr. Hawking who lived with only one brain
almost turns the whole world. This friend, his spiritual power
is also very strong. I remembered an ancient article I learned
in my middle school textbook << Various Memory in Jail >>. It
said that the environment in jail was terrible. It always had an
infectious disease. Every day, there are a few prisoners die.
However, it is strange that the prison who was sentenced heavy
penalty almost had no disease. Even if they got sick, they would
get better pretty soon. The writer said this is because the
severe prisoner had overwhelming Qi. At that time, I thought, it
appeared that the overwhelming Qi in the body could increase the
function of body immune system.
No matter it is Mr. Hawking or this one I
know, both are not weak in their Qi though their body is weak.
If we do not say that their Qi is strong to pushing to the
universe, it is strong to the sky. When the father of this one I
know was alive, he hold his both hands to said to the sky: my
God, it is lucky you let him lied down, otherwise, he may pouch
broken the sky!
From the body of people like Mr. Hawking,
we know that the big ambition of a male might have some kind of
spiritual character. It is said, the home of Mr. Hawking is with
many pictures of Marylin Monroe; his second wife is one of his
beauty nurses. This man I know also made several girls falling
in love with him. The wife he chose makes many healthy men envy.
Book, is the representative of spiritual
power. We observed that no man who lost “body” did not use a
book to complete his self. Mr. Hawking is so; the Ostrowski, the
author of book << How the steel was tempered >> was so; this man
I knew also wrote a book of 2000000 words. Mr. Ostrowski
realized the relationship between the treatment and saving a
life after nine severe surgical operations. He told the doctor
who was going to perform the tenth operation for him, he said: I
have already donated some of my blood to the science. The
remaining part, I prefer to keep it for myself to do something
else. Then he started to write a book.
The goal of
western medicine is on the “disease”, while that of Chinese
medicine is in the “life”. If the patient still has his “life”,
there is a chance to continue to treat; if there is no “life”,
who can help? To combat the “disease” without caring about the
patient “life” is opposed by Chinese medicine. From this point
of view, I opposed the “treatment”. “Doctor can treat the
disease but cannot save the life” means the disease can be
treated but the life cannot be treated, but be protected, to be
saved. For some diseases, it is hard to cure. It can cause
paralysis to the patient, but not cause death to him. If it is
tried to treat, it might cause the death to him very soon. I
think if Mr. Ostrowski were not performed that nine times of
surgical operations that damaged his Yuan Qi (body life power),
based on his strong spiritual power, he might not die at 32
years of old. Science should be not only able to explain some
common phenomenon, but also some special phenomena.
The theory in
Chinese medicine about life, the Qi and Blood, and the spirit
might be able to explain my question about the living of Mr.
Hawking.
The concept of
spirit in Chinese medicine refers to the libido blood and
“Shen”. Chinese medicine believes, without material part of a
human, it is impossible to grow a Shen. With the human body but
no the Shen, the body is not alive. In the relationship between
the material and the spirit, Chinese medicine regards the
material as the priority (the first pre-condition). Chinese
medicine however also believes that the Shen is the master of
the body. It is the Shen that governs the body everything. From
this point of view, Chinese medicine emphasizes the important
role of the Shen. The Shen bases on the blood, and the blood is
the storage base or the Yang Qi. The go up and down of Yang Qi
in the body is the life of the body. And "life" is the most
essential feature of human beings. The paralysis person has life
and disease. His “Shen” still works as governor of the body
material part. The Shen still uses his blood. It is still
supplying strong material support to Mr. Hawking’s mind. People
in the whole world already feel the strong power of the spirit
of Mr. Hawking.
The one I know
is like Mr. Hawking. His most big movement is the storm in his
brain. I admired his sensitive in thinking and his fast in
reaction. From the life point of view, the lives of Mr. Hawking
and others are not only strong but also healthy, so the outside
disease-causing factors can not work on their body. Mr. Hawking
had three children with his paralysis body. His interesting to a
woman never lost. Is this the function of the blood? The one I
knew, is red in the face, loud in voice, bright in eye slight.
He got a child when he got married at his 38 years of old.
Modern society provides reality and
possibilities for the diversity of doctors, and doctors no
longer have a unified model. Even if in ancient China, Chinese
medical doctor had two models: earning doctor and teaching
doctor. My uncle is not a teaching doctor, nor an earning
doctor. I called him a “working doctor”. When my grandmother
died, he was only three years of old. Using his word, it was my
mother, who took over the responsibility of nourishing to him.
When my mother was young, she went everywhere, north or south.
She always brought her this young brother. Naturally, he was
brought into the door of Chinese medicine. He was sent to
Chinese medicine school to study. After graduate, he was
allocated to a hospital as a doctor. He married with an
acupuncturist there.
As a doctor, he
was well. He worked carefully, responsibly. He was good in the
professional test, clinic research, even for his English level.
He worked and eventually to a president position of that
hospital. My mother and her brother, the brother and sister, one
was good at the clinic, and another was good in an organization
job. Would both be a good doctor? My mother believed that her
brother does not know how to treat patients. She said, for a
patient whom a doctor can make a diagnosis of “Shi Zhen”
easily, he however prescribed supplementary herbs.
For this, I
have asked my uncle. He said: “How could I not recognize the
Excess and Deficiency condition? Your mother is too stupid, too
foolish. She cannot understand the feeling of patients. The herb
I prescribed is only a herb that supporting the male function.”
I said, wouldn’t your way be harmful to the patient? He said,
many people would not realize what is correct and what is wrong,
until they would get a lesson. If the body of these patients
will come into the problem soon or later, do you think it would
be better to let the problem come soon or later? If the problem
comes earlier, there may have a chance to help them, and if it
comes late, it would be difficult. How could you say that I am
hurting them? Though what he said is kind of heresy or fallacy,
I could not find any word to oppose him.
Indeed, the older a Chinese medicine doctor
is, the higher his reputation is in the clinic. My uncle so
should be a very busy man. He, however, plays chess, goes
fishing, visits the internet, lives an easy life. He does not do
any clinic work. Only his wife, who is an acupuncturist, is very
busy to do acupuncture to patients. Before, there is no saying
that a Chinese medicine doctor is to get retired. No one gives
him a pension. They have to work until they can not work due to
physical body condition. My mother continued her clinic work
until her last day. However, to my uncle, performing Chinese
medicine is to perform a job. The job is his source of living.
So, when he got a pension and no need to work, he stops to
perform any clinic work. Therefore, though he is old now, he
cannot be regarded as an old Chinese medicine doctor. When my
mother worked in the hospital, beside her clinic work, she was
also a teacher for newly graduated doctors. I saw her photo
together with her students in that class.
This group of Chinese medicine doctors, who
are the same age as my uncle, and who started working after the
establishment of New China, first learned is to adapt the
working and hospital environment. The “working” and the clinic
is the same thing, sometimes. For example, when we emphasize
“Saving the near death, help the wounded”, it is so. However,
sometimes, they are not the same thing. For example, when we
emphasize the interests of the hospital, they are different
things. A hospital means it needs to unite the thinking of the
doctors with the job; to restrict the action of doctors with
regulations; so to ensure everything in the hospital running
correctly. Therefore, sometimes, responsible for working may not
mean responsible to a patient. Even if a doctor paying much more
warm in his job does not mean he is much more warm to a patient.
From heart
feeling, the public could not accept the death case of a
pregnant woman in Beijing Chaoyang hospital.[4]
From the job point of view, however, the doctor there committed
nothing wrong. Are they not careful? Not responsible? Yes. Then,
in the hospital, could we ask the doctor more than it is needed
in a clinic? It is the mild difference between the job and
clinic that causes the doctor-patient conflict. I think the
generation of Chinese medical doctor as my uncle practiced
Chinese medicine as a “job”. Would it be another reason that
causes the degeneration of Chinese medicine?
We are so used
to a job that we never question the job. When I was young, I
felt that job is a glorious word. I felt that it was the
evidence of backward and foolish of my mother for her not
participating job (working in the hospital). Now we can see
that, because the ancient Chinese government did not administer
hospital, making the Chinese medicine no “job” to find, having
to face the patient directly, the Chinese medicine, therefore,
kept active life in history.
If we say that
my mother learns Chinese medicine is to help patients and save
their life, my uncle learns Chinese medicine is to find a “job”,
my daughter, this generation, learns Chinese medicine is to have
a University degree. In this way, the Chinese medicine doctor is
much far away from the medicine. Therefore it is not at all
strange that many graduates from Chinese medical university
change to other kinds of jobs after their graduation. Often my
relatives asked where my daughter would work after her
graduation. Neither my daughter or I think that is a question.
To find a job, or to go to university, for my daughter, is a
tool, not a goal. I do not want my daughter to understand the
“job” deeper than the patient. Chinese medicine doctor can
choose not to have a “job”. If they have a prescription right,
they can perform Chinese medicine at home, or in a herb shop. It
doesn’t matter if it is a “job” or not, but they should perform
the clinic.
My daughter
said, even if she organizes a hospital, it would be a loss
structured unite. My daughter suggested my nephew to learn
Chinese medicine. I opposed. I think that he is a “hand is
before the mind” person. I don’t think he is suitable to learn
Chinese medicine. My daughter however think that the Chinese
medicine is a much broad area, there will anyway something my
nephew can do. Later, my nephew, after learned Chinese medicine,
showed his genius in surgical operation. He is good at sewing
massed wound. Watch his diary in internet, it was written as a
clinic history (medical record). It was so clear for every step,
how sewed the intestine, how connected the tendons, that it can
be an operation rule. I joked, for those who turned to the hands
of my nephew, would have clear and complete body even if he was
dead. Though it is said, no use to sew the dead so nicely, those
who survived must be sew in a perfect way. From this point of
view, it is reasonable that my nephew sew every kind of body
regardless it is dead or alive.
When the body
is damaged into an open wound, the Chinese theory is broken too.
My daughter would felt loss when she faces a body with blood and
opened wound. Her characteristic of strong analytical ability in
the brain is not as practical as my nephew to sew it right away.
So, when they work together, I feel more comfortable than allow
them to work separately. But, it makes me worry since his good
at the surgery suggests that he needs the adhesion to a
hospital. I asked about the current situation in the hospital.
It is full of staff at every level of the hospital. It would be
tough that he join the job. He has to come into a hospital no
matter how difficult it might be anyway. How can set up a
complete surgical operation for himself alone? Now I understand
why the surgery in Chinese medicine is not advanced. In history,
there is no Chinese medicine hospital. It is really true that
something is good in one aspect and it might be bad in another
aspect.
It is the need
of social reality that there are multiple kinds of doctors. So,
the idea against either western medicine or Chinese medicine
does not allow the development of the whole human medical
system. For the sake of both my mother and my nephew, I hope to
keep the western medicine and Chinese medicine at the same time
and allow them to develop together.
For my idea
about the combination of western medicine and Chinese medicine,
I heard some opposing opinion from both western medicine and
Chinese medicine. An internet friend wrote to me: your idea is
as let the plane in the sky bring the train to run on the land.
I think that regarding western medicine as a plane and Chinese
medicine as a train is better than my analogy for Chinese
medicine as a “knife for cow or chicken”. We did not cancel the
train after we have a plane. From a perspective point of view,
the plane will not replace the train either. This is not
established on the function of the plane and train. We need also
consider the earth energy source and the ability of the earth to
endure air pollution. Besides, someone fears to take a plane. I
cannot keep from laugh when I see the conductor in the plane
showing the safety technique. If the plane falls down, what’s
the use of the safety methods?
Combination of
western medicine and Chinese medicine is not my idea from
theory, but a real need. During going to a doctor, the public
has already had a combination of western medicine and Chinese
medicine. When coming to Chinese medicine, patients usually
bring a lot of lab test reports with them. The patients who come
to Chinese medicine are either full of western medicine drugs,
or have had a surgical operation, or have had chemotherapy or
radiation therapy. All such conditions have to be faced by a
Chinese medicine doctor. It is no longer impossible for a
Chinese medicine doctor to work in a pure natural environment
without consideration of the effects of western medicine to the
body.
If it is true
that my mother’s Great master could work without consideration
of western medicine to the body, it is impossible up to my
mother, her generation of Chinese medicine doctors, to work this
way. For a patient who has had been treated by western medicine,
my mother must recognize what happened to him by western
medicine. Even if it is only a common cold, the use of western
medicine makes it from the surface into an inside condition. If
the doctor does not consider this, he cannot treat the common
cold either.
For the Chinese medicine doctor as my
daughter’s Great master, they have to use the western medicine
terms and explain the meaning of the reports such as lab tests,
ultrasound, CT, MRI etc. I think, through the changes in the
data in these reports, Chinese medicine doctors have more
consideration points for the use of herbs and therapy. It might
not be a bad thing for Chinese medicine. I have had several
times of emergency conditions before, I wanted to find a Chinese
medicine doctor, but where I can find one? For this, I have been
given steroid, including imported one. The doses used were so
high that the doctor dared not to use. It is the expert in
Beijing urged to use in double. But the side effects of western
medicine made me feel as got more kinds of diseases, terrible.
With the help of my brother’s wife, I take
a herb formula that I got from an old Chinese medicine doctor
who was ninety years of old and lived in another city. With it,
my disease is under control. Considering the fact that, the old
doctor has been pretty old, he kept his formula as a secret, I
would have nowhere to ask for help if he died, and there need
three days to send me the herbs through a fast UPS system, I
kept a little bit herbs each time he prescribed to me. When I
take the herb s, I do not use water but hold the herbs in the
mouth to chew, so to identify the ingredients of the herbal
formula. I indeed get known of the main ingredient. I bought the
herb that I guessed, and take it. The healing effect is also
good. I felt pretty happy. Last time I got an emergency again. I
tried the same herb I guessed, but it did not work. I have to
use steroid drugs again. The side effect made me suffered a lot.
Later the old doctor knew this and blamed me why not to see him.
My brother’s wife so told him that I kept some herb each time.
The old doctor laughed. He laughed at me for enjoying clever
myself. He said that the reason each time for my recurrence is
different. This time, my disease recurred with heart disease.
The herb cannot get help from the heart power, so it did not
work. He then prepared new formula and saved me again. This
time, I did not want to guess out what herb ingredient he used,
nor want to know his formula since I know it is no use to know
it. He treated me with the Chinese medicine reasoning, not the
formula. How can I master this? If the old doctor dies, I will
have to use western medicine until I die too.
The development of human reorganization,
all in all, is the course to add eyes, brains to human, e.g., a
course to add more sense organs. I said before, what is
philosophy? It is that a blind talk about color. Tens of
articles written by blinds are not worthwhile to let the blind
to open an eye. The instrument of western medicine makes our
eyes sharper. But this is not enough. One of my friends said,
why the creatures from the “Three-star hill” had a pole eye? It
is because the people at that time had recognized that the human
eye is a horizontal eye, which can only see the space but not
the time. So the creature in the “Three-star hill” used the pole
eye to tell us that we should use the historical eye to see the
things. This is the vertical eyes. The Chinese who chasing for
view with the vertical eyes are a valuable reference even for
the current science.
Chinese medicine is a time-space medicine,
especially the time medicine. The state of medicine is to turn a
naked eye into wisdom eye and Dharma eye. Einstein said the most
mysterious thing in the world is that it is recognizable. I
think, as the main body of the recognition, the human being is
the most super detecting instruments of the world. When we
create machine and electric instrument, don’t forget the human
that is the created and modified by nature for billions of years
already.
As a Chinese, I suggest living a whole and
complete process of life. I told my daughter, the life wisdom is
like the lotus in a pool. It doubles its size every day, and it
fills up the whole pool after 20 days. Indeed, when at the 27
days, the human wisdom is an only half pool. The human may get
the full wisdom at the last time of the life. So, I believe that
ancient people have wisdom. Time is not the platen stage
allowing people to show arbitrary. As a good wine or perfume
needs to store for a long time to allow each component to adjust
each other again and again, our human life runs along with time,
making “today” have a chemical reaction with the “yesterday”,
“the day before yesterday” one by one. Every time, such chemical
reaction makes the “yesterday”, “the day before yesterday”
change their color and nature.
From this point
of view, I oppose the stop the process of life at one's will. At
the same time, I recommend to those who want to stop life, their
comment to life is not the true definition. If one really has
the scientific exploration spirit, one should wait for the
understanding that the time gives. For the same reason, I oppose
separating history into different periods, since the history is
a continuous course. The significance of history will change
upon the end of “today”. You can even find that there is calling
from history to today. There has been some “hint”.
The “rising” of western medicine started
from previous “hiding”, so the “hiding” of Chinese medicine
suggests its “rising” in future. This is really that the time
turns (circumstances alter alternatively). Therefore, the real
Chinese medicine people do not hurry or urgent. They know what
they need to do.
One of my colleagues changed her job.
Before she left, she sent me a basin of climbing plant. It
crewed up to my green tree very quickly. It made the tree lose
its color near to withered. Just when I believed that the tree
failed in this competition, I found it started to turn its loss
to win. Finally, the green tree won. It made the climbing plant
withered with only a small branch.
The
basin-protecting grass in the flower basin had very tiny seeds,
as small as needle tip. It uses “explosion” to spread its seed.
I watched the ceiling with a crowd of its seeds and felt
strange: how strong effort and power it needs to make so small
seeds rising to the ceiling? If it is like the size as an apple,
would it be an atomic bomb? I grow “Goodluck” bamboo in a
barrel. Every time I only change half of the water in it. After
half a year, I found a lot of water snail! It should be known
that our water comes from underground, not from the river. The
ecosystem in a small office is enough to confuse me.
Having children at home, the parents have
to consider to have a vaccine injection to them. My nephew and
niece are living with us. Plus my daughter, they need the
vaccine injection this one or that one, again and again, quite
often. After injection, the children have some kind of reaction
more or less. Later one day, I said, you do not need to have the
vaccine injection. Think this way: if all of your classmates are
injected, no one will get the disease. Who will transfer the
disease to your guys? So, if indeed they all have had an
injection, you do not need to have the vaccine. However,
problems happened. One time, all children and students, from
those in kindergarten to high school, had been asked to have a
vaccine for epidemic meningitis. After injection, the children
got erupted side effects. The hospital was full of these
children. The whole city became scared. I felt scared too. I
asked my three children. They all had their own mind: none of
them have had the vaccine injection! I said: “Now, well, the
children in the whole city might transfer the disease to you
three. What should we do?” The train did no in function at that
time, so I had to send my nephew and my niece their home by car.
My daughter said she did not want to leave. She said: “I want to
live or die with the people in the hometown!” I locked my
daughter at home. I participated in a “working team”. We went to
the school helping the check of the disease condition in the
students. After two busy weeks, all are past ok.
My daughter’s
cousin got type B hepatitis after injection of the type B
hepatitis vaccine. The use of steroid drug caused overweight,
and many other diseases in the body. I have a friend. She did
not get married. All suspected she might have some disorder in
philosophy and psychology. I raised this question to her. She
was pretty frank. She said that, before her 20 years of old, she
was as the same as other girls interesting to the male. One day
in winter when she went to the countryside to chop fire-sticks,
she got confused in the road and got frozen. She was found and
later sent to a hospital. Doctors used a large dose of steroid.
Later, when she sees male’s courteous and greeting like to see a
show by a clown. She said, with such emotion and psychology to a
marriage, it would hurt others as well as herself. So, there is
no choice by keeping single.
My friend gave birth. After the baby was
birthed out, the doctor said the baby had little asthma. The
doctor put the baby on the scale; the body weight is ok enough.
A mixed vaccine was then injected into the baby. It was the baby
of others, not mine, so it is not good for me to stop the
vaccine. I would have liked to say if the vaccine could be
delayed for a while because the baby had little asthma. Upon
coming into the body, the body would have some reaction. Would
this increase the burden to the baby body? After injection, the
baby was put in a warm cabinet, gave some intravenous infusion
liquid and antibiotic, and infused with oxygen too. All of these
actions made me very nervous. So little body, just came into the
world, was forced to tolerate so many things. How could he
endure? I put my hands in the cabinet. The newborn baby held my
finger without losing it the whole night.
I asked the
doctor, I heard that, after a long time of oxygen infusion,
there might be permanent damage to the vision of the baby.
Should we consider it? The doctor said it is hard to think
things so far, it is needed to consider the current need. That
night, I had a pushing feeling to hold the baby into my chest.
In the morning, before I left, I asked the family member of my
friend to give the baby a finger to hold. They laughed at me. I
left. The baby died soon. The baby had only asthma. If the
result was still the death, after using so many therapies, why
we must use them? Why could we not stop doing before failing?
When my mother
was alive, she opposed an intravenous infusion to such a small
baby. My mother, who usually asked her patients do not eat cold
food or drink a cold beverage, said the infusion was like to
pour cold water to the baby. The baby would die if his Yang Qi
were unable to ascend up. When many babies, who were treated in
the hospital and the condition became worse and worse, came to
my mother, my mother would only stop the infusion, that resulted
in the babies’ condition better and better day by day. If a
doctor, who only acts according to science but not Yin-Yang,
will certainly pour cold water to the babies. Mother also
opposed to using the intravenous infusion to those of old
people, who showed a low level of Yang Qi in the body. She
believed that it would damage the little remaining Yang Qi in
the body furthermore.
Since we
understand a treatment as constant use of therapies, without
action is therefore regarded as no treatment. Many medical
conflicts sue against the doctor for not performing therapeutic
actions. Now patients may sue the doctor’s saving action is a
performing. So, I
think that western medicine does not necessarily think that it
is essential the so many therapeutic actions to the small baby
and old people. That they are performing is to avoid the blame
against them for do nothing.
Science is undoubtedly a short cut.
However, would it be a good thing for human always to go the
short cut? There has been a young boy who came to me. He asked
me that you are a lawyer, tell me in truth, how big cost is a
crime? For example, if I smuggle, how much the risk rate it
would be? I told him, the risk rate for one-time smuggling is
1%. He felt happy after heard my answer: then it is worthwhile
to smuggle. I said, however, once a person chooses to be
traitor, would he have braveness to be dignity and glorious hero
again? The risk to be a traitor is the hurt of people’s thinking
style and the damage of the person’s spirit. The risk rate to
choose the wrong road is 100%. Whenever there was a death case
(murder case) that was not detected out yet, I would comfort the
family of the affected family; the case will be detected
eventually. My experience is that the criminal who murdered
others would float out again, as a ghost pushed him. My daughter
said that I am cheating people with superstition. I said, no, I
am not. If a person went to a life road against human nature,
his emotion would change no matter he wants or not. It would be
tough for him to turn to the normal road again so that he would
do something again beyond his control. From this point of view,
that the Buddhist’s saying "put away the knife, and the butcher
becomes a Buddha immediately", means it is tough to turn from a
wrong road.
Science
technique allows human being “smuggle” rich from nature. It also
damages the braveness of human that accumulated through billions
of years in the natural living environment. It would be tough
for a human to get this braveness again. However, what road we
are walking now? We have not considered this question carefully
yet.
Now, it is
impossible for a human to find back our braveness to face nature
and live in a natural condition. It is a normal reaction for the
current human being to twist calf muscle when meeting a wolf. I
said to my daughter, in nature, if a rabbit meets wolf, it does
not scare to loss urine but face the wolf to struggle against
the wolf calmly. The result for the rabbit against the wolf does
not always end as the victory of the wolf. To give up right away
is not the rule for the animal when they face the strong
opponent. Nowadays, people have repeatedly promoted "wise"
rationality of surrendering to a strong opponent.
The reason that Chinese medicine does not
choose to give up for the reason that Chinese medicine theory
and thinking style respect individual human nature and
individual value. It believes that, due to the exclusiveness of
the time and space, every person has an exclusiveness that
others can not replace. In other words, the existing of a person
does not deny the existence of another one. Saying that the
current human is smart than ancient human and that current
scientific achievement can replace the full achievement of human
being in previous times, in fact, is expanding the current time
and space without limitation. The time and space, in which the
current human stay, is, of course, exclusive, no one can replace
it. It has its exclusive nature, but the gene of human being
does not mutate suddenly. Where is the evidence showing that the
current human is smart than old generations? From gene point of
view, the current human merely is the recurrence of an ancient
human being. What we have more is the historical experience.
However, our human being goes for these hundreds of years the
“blind bear picks up corn”. The corn in our hands is only one.
How can we believe that we are clever than ancient human and
rich than them?
I can think that I occupied more knowledge
than my grandmother, but I cannot think that I am smarter than
her. I know that, many questions that confusing many experts can
be pointed out directly by her. Along with her death, I know
that many practical skills disappeared forever. I cannot taste
the salty vegetables that can only be prepared and make out by
her. I believe that ancient human can beat and win the tiger and
wolf, though the current people deny this with the current
reality.
My daughter can
eat away melon kernel (to eat melon seeds but not shell). But
after she went to kindergarten, she ate the whole seeds with the
shell. She told me: “All my small friends in the kindergarten
all eat the same way” Now, when she read ancient books, she
sighed that ancient Chinese knew to eat the kernel of the melon
seeds, but current people learn from others to eat the whole
seeds.
I accompanied
my colleague to Beijing, who had had leukemia and had stem cell
transplantation for the treatment. We showed to other patients
the successful results, which brought them extreme inspiration
and courage to accept the stem cell transplantation.
I know,
however, not everyone would have the same good result with the
stem cell transplantation. When my colleague got the diagnosis
report, knowing that it is the worse type of leukemia, we have
no any lucky hope at all. She did only one chemotherapy before
came into the stem cell transplantation. Our donation and the
transplantation step the same time, for the whole treatment
process. Other patients, however, had chemotherapy repeatedly,
exhausted almost all their body energy before their
transplantation. How could the results be the same? So, the
doctor said that my colleague was the best candidate for the
transplantation.
I do not admit
that I am a conservative when I am now talking about Chinese
medicine. Whether I am a conservative or an extremist is not all
depended on my human nature, but on my social status too. If I
was born 100 years earlier, I would be most likely to cheer for
western medicine, as Mr. Hu Shi. When the things go to some
phase point, there must be someone standing out to shout. I term
this action as the self-adjusting ability of human being.
Whenever I have
to hand my self to my western medicine friends, I could not
blame western medicine if a medical accident happen. Just like
Mr. Liang Tichao did not. My western medicine doctor admired me
very much for my attitude not suspecting them. I know, either
Chinese medicine or western medicine, both are groping to walk.
No way to tell correct or wrong. No matter to treat a symptom or
the cause of the diseased, whichever is the urgent mostly should
be treated first. Chinese medicine also solves the symptoms. If
the boiling water in a pot is spilling over, it is also common
to remove the fire away from under the pot. That I chose to use
western medicine, I mean to ask them to remove the symptom. How
could I blame them not to treat the cause of my disease? Some
people laughed at Chinese medicine doctor who also goes to
western medicine hospital to see a doctor; they omit that they
cannot find a medical accident and conflict associated with the
Chinese medicine doctor.
When my mother
went to western medicine hospital to see a doctor, she was also
a good patient. During her three year’s of paralysis on the bed,
she used the therapies for both the symptoms and the cause of
her disease. My
mother subscribed journal in the combination of Chinese medicine
and western medicine. She had a friend in western medicine. She
consulted with them the therapeutic means, following them with
the western medical means for the treatment. Mother drunk the
herbs, but also had an intravenous infusion of “calcium
gluconate”. She discussed with me how to supply some iron
element. I said that the element iron could not be extracted out
by ordinary way of herbal cooking.
Continuously I am warm to the scientific
technique as my mother. My attitude is even more extreme than
western people. For example, I oppose the law that passed in
many countries to forbid the study to clone a human being. Can
anyone stop the development of science? To restrict the study in
the human clone will affect the whole development of life
science. Under the condition that the society in harmony, I hope
the science develops faster.
When I
described to the son of my friend the “mineral radio” that I set
when I was young, I said: “It is really a mineral!” My friend is
a teacher in literature. She corrected my language error: “You
said that it is a mineral radio, it would be an error of repeat
in grammar if you say the true mineral again” I said that I
wanted to emphasize that the science developed so fast.
Nowadays, the child is used to the integrated plate, how could
them image there is a big mineral stone on the radio? Seeing
that the current children, when they assemble a computer, only
need to insert the parts together like they play the building
block, I envy them very much. On that early year, after I
succeeded to assemble a five-tube and seven-tube radio set, I
wanted to assemble my TV set ambitiously. I brought a
“multiple-use meter” to see my physic teacher, asked him to
choose a monitor to me. My teacher jumped up and said the
manually twined deflection coil cannot be used at all. I said I
can make it as good as made by machine. The teacher said it is
impossible to mildly adjust the TV, without several months. I
said I have already made my mind to adjust it for one year… My
teacher saw that he could not stop me, so he escaped on the
halfway.
I think, the reason that science has such
good condition and reputation today, would not be because there
have been so many warm-blood youth sticks to the scientific
research in the earlier years? Through the introduction from my
mother and my grandmother, I know that the first group of
western medicine doctors in China was those who are excellent
people of good character and fine scholarship. The impact of
western medicine to Chinese medicine is not only the technique
but also those people full of youthful spirit and warm. It is
the enthusiasm of the young people who have over-corrected
things to form a history going swing.
According to Chinese medicine, the herb has
bias nature, so human being and the society. The material
signaling shown by “Five-yun-six-qi” shifted between the excess
and deficiency. If during the time of “May fourth”
[5],,
the social development of China needed to shift towards the
western culture, it is time now for the eastern culture shift
back, so to be able to develop further in a better way.
The bias of
science is reflected very typically now in one scientist. He
marks the western medicine and Chinese medicine. He marked the
western medicine 90 but the Chinese medicine as 10. This way of
marking things is very clear, it meeting the willingness of
current people to know the truth. When I, however, tried to
apply such marking method to expand to more other things or
aspects, to mark the cow knife and the chicken knife; the plane
and the train, the US and the China, the scientist and myself,
the clear boundary of the “mark” not only disappears, but also
incites my confusion in thinking and dissatisfied in emotion. If
I were the train being marked ten, should I ask the plane to
transport the coal and steel? Could I develop the feeling to
hate the train being no the wings, and envy the plane, and
develop the emotion and mode of losing interest to work and
slowing down the job passively? I would have had been a happy
train; now I had no active mind to work due to such a low mark.
Just because it
is believed that things can be strictly marked, one is one, two
would be two, do not admit there are uncertain factors, not give
space to human subjective ability, after having had such
“scientific attitude”, one would ask doctor he could live for
how long, after he got the diagnosis report for cancer, since we
believe the correct of science.
However, as it was found in quantum
mechanics, due to the presence of some uncertainty, it is
impossible to predict things completely. It means, science, as a
future-telling man, cannot predict thing correctly. This is as a
go match, that looks no hope at all, that sustains by a small
piece on the board; it is as the Red Army was forced into the
grass field, the Chinese revolution came into a count down for
death; as Chinese medicine was declared again and again to die,
it was refused out of the mainstream of the medical system.
Whenever we say the 1% of hope is just this little uncertainty.
This uncertainty is just the holding spot for using one pound of
force to lift stuff of thousands of pounds. To try 100% of
effort on the 1% hope, is the value of human activity and
initiative action. Once we can use this 1% possibility, it would
as the Red Army went out of the grass field, as the no-hope go
(chess) turned into victory, as the universe turned up and down
and down to up wholly. If we hold the “scientific attitude”,
give up the 1% hope to try, where would be the colorful life of
human being? Would such human life be the one we are chasing
for? Under the condition of uncertainty, how could our
confirmation be a scientific attitude?
Without the impact from western medicine,
we would not consider what is Chinese medicine or what is not
Chinese medicine. The re-evaluation to western medicine would
become possible until the science develops into some level.
Western medicine and Chinese medicine compare each other, try
each other the advantage and disadvantage. Either western
medicine or Chinese medicine can avoid its own “backward” or
“predestined fate”. The meaning of “predestined fate” in Chinese
must not always mean death, but a serious of disasters it must
face before, current and future before it becomes the most
potent medical system for the human being.
Although
Chinese medicine does not separate pediatric department,
gynecology, internal medicine or surgical department…I predict
that my daughter may develop into the area of women and
children. If a man got a sexually related disease, it is not
entirely possible for him to see a female doctor. My mother has
no many patients with male diseases. There is one young boy.
When he has had sex with his wife, he was scared by someone who
rushed into the room. It was his mother who brought him to my
mother for the treatment, but he always refused to lift his head
during the treatment. There were also some cases, in which it
was the wife who comes for a consulting, then brings her husband
to come. The youth in our compounds may come to ask my mother
something about sex, but there was very rare that an adult came
to mother consulting things about reproductive diseases.
Therefore, the patient's choice of doctor can also determine the
direction of the doctor's development.
The science in western medicine always and
continuously twists our realization of sex. Though western
medicine emphasizes the department separation, it does not
emphasize the sex of the doctor and the patient. In gynecology
and obstetrics, there are male doctors do an exam and help birth
and in male wards, the nurses are more female. It is neither
heard that it needs a male to insert a catheter for male
patients. Though there a difference in the male and female,
there no such restriction at all in science. In a hospital,
there is only male or female in physiology, but not in
psychology. There are differences between the male and female in
the outlook, but not in actual essence. In other words, no
matter the doctor sees a patient, or a patient sees a doctor,
both have no sense of sex difference. This is not hard for a
doctor, but may not really be so for a patient.
The extent without sex difference depends
on the profession too. It is not easy to be followed by a person
out of that profession. Even for a male doctor who performs a
surgical operation for a naked female, he may not be able to
describe the process of sexual intercourse. One time when we
brought a rape criminal to the court, the criminal hesitated and
not tell out the process of the rape. The judge said his
attitude was not good. From the beginning I felt strange too,
you did all the things, why you feel so hard to tell out?
However, when I had a look at the person in the court, I
realized the reason. Though this is a case associated with
private secrete, the court is not open to the public, the judge,
the public prosecutor, the secretary, even the council, all are
women. All women sat around a man and let the man describe the
process of his raping. No strange that he felt embarrassed. So,
I had to convince him, to regard this description as a patient
tells his disease to a doctor, to tell out his story without
emotional stress, so to get a better commend for his good
attitude toward admission of guilt
For about 40 years, the best doctor in the
gynecology and obstetrics in our city is male. I had more
contact with him. When my friends or relatives met some trouble
in women system, in birth-giving, abortion, insert birth control
ring, I would bring them to this doctor. His medical technique
is excellent. After his retirement, patients went to his home
for help, that made the gynecology in the hospital short of
patients. To solve this problem, when he was 70 years of old, a
new coming young president of the hospital invited him back to
work as a president of the gynecology and obstetrics department.
My nephew was
birth at his home. It was a difficult birth. The male doctor
wrote a slip of paper, asked me to the hospital to find his
female student to come for help. The female doctor asked two
male doctors coming together. I asked her quietly why she called
the male doctors. She said helping delivery is work needing a
labor work. It is hard for an ordinary female doctor. She has
been exhausted before to faint. After they came, they injected
oxytocin to the lady. The two male doctors pushed the fetus
downwards in turn until my nephew came out.
If I bring my
female friends to see a male doctor, and if they had emotional
embarrass, hesitated to take off clothes if the doctor needs to
have an inside exam, I would shout to them: “Take it off! The
Doctor only sees your disease, not your person!” When I have
medical trouble, I also come to the male doctor. He usually
answered my question while getting gloves on his hands to have
inner vagina exam to me. I would ask him what kind of problems
he wanted to check. After he told me, I would say: “Please wait
for a movement” Then I would go to a female doctor to have the
vagina exam, telling her what she needed to check. After then, I
went back to the male doctor with the results. The male doctor
never got angry for my reaction. He always tried to help me.
However, my friends blamed me dealing with them differently. I
really cannot tell why I myself cannot separate him as male and
as a doctor. It is hard for me to smear off the sex difference.
I have had asked the male doctor how he
became a doctor in the gynecology and obstetrics. He said he had
worked in a military troop as a healthcare nurse before. Later,
there was a chance to have continued education to be a doctor.
Others chased to choose some departments. He was too honest to
compete with others, so he was allocated to the gynecology and
obstetrics. Heard this, I sighed. If a doctor could forget the
sex difference, there would have had no little male doctor in
the gynecology and obstetrics.
Among the medical conflicts, some are
associated with the sexually harass. I do not think that all are
due to the over sensitivity of the patients who have
psychological disorders since I had the experience in which a
male doctor kept touching my stomach. So, I doubted before if it
is entirely possible to ask a person with sex to perform the
no-sex job, even if it is for the sake of science. Even if the
one can, would it affect his/her nature?
When I was a
matchmaker, I met someone who refused to date with people who
work in a hospital. They said the people working a hospital have
less shaming essence and less concern about sex difference. For
this, we may laugh at the foolish of the public, but science
makes some people who are engaged in science dissimilated. This
is an indisputable fact.
My grandmother
told me a joke before. One day in the early last century, my
grandmother visited her friend. Her husband was the early
western medical doctor in China. My grandmother knew the old
style of baby delivers. There was a man hurried to my
grandmother for help. But unfortunately, she was absent. The
western medical doctor said: “Let’s go, I can help you” The man
felt stunned: “Doctor, the person who needs baby deliver is a
female!” The doctor said: “Oh, the one who needs deliver is a
woman?” He put down the medical case and sat down again.
I met this
doctor when I was young. I called him Jin grandfather. He had a
very strong science nature. My grandmother said, there were more
Chinese medical doctors than the western medical doctors at that
time. He opened a western medicine clinic. To be able to stand
in the China lands, the doctor needed a much stronger technique
and very good medical moral. A girl was living close to him and
loved him very much. Day by day she stood under the window of
the clinic watching him. The result was that she became
disease-like. My Jin grandfather is western medicine. The
feeling to science as to religion made him have a strong mind,
but he could not, like mother did, to advice the girl’s mother
to find a boyfriend for the girl. This made the girl, who just
opened sex feeling but no way to release, went to Red zone to be
a prostitute. I believed my grandmother’s story entirely since
my Jin grandfather was more handsome than his brother – his
brother is the earliest film king in China – Mr. Jin Yan (金焰).
My Jin
grandfather’s father was the earliest western medicine in Korea
100 years ago. It is said that there is a bronze statue in the
current Seoul medical university garden. My Jin grandfather’s
mother described to my grandmother when her husband graduated
with Ph. Degree, he rode on a high horse, the government staffs
beat gongs to open the road for him, lift him on a bridge,
showing him to the public for three days. She was very proud of
that. From this story, I know how attention the Korea government
paid to western medicine. At the same time in China, the public
did not pay special attention to either western medicine or
Chinese medicine.
I have no doubt
that people who have religious feelings about science can make
themselves transcend gender. But is it a reality to ask a man
who regards the doctor as only a job to find a way of living, to
exceed the sex difference? If he can exceed the sex difference,
would it mean that he exceeds human nature too? For a person who
transcends humanity, do we blame him for being indifferent to
life?
When I was
scared when I was young, my mother would insert her fingers into
my hair fondling: “Fine, fine, no worry, no worry…” I usually
calmed down. This way has been passed from generation to
generation. I did so to my daughter and would do the same way to
my grandson. Such “calming” used for children are not believed
to be useful for adult, nor being a way of therapy.
A youth had
poor sleep at night. I asked his mother to “calm” him, since he
just participated in an operation of acting execution of the
death penalty to a criminal. I think that he was scared. For
this, the young people laughed at me no reasoning. First, he
refused to admit that he was scared. The evidence is his calm
and quiet on the spot. Second, even if he was scared, he was no
longer a child. How would calm by mother work? No matter how he
thought, his mother accepted my suggestion completely.
One friend,
more than 40 years of old, had a car accident. He acted very
effectively, calling the police, helping to save. He was
excellent doing these. Later he got sick. He had a poor
appetite, chronic fatigue, poor sleep… Nothing was found wrong
in the hospital. Nothing works either, medication injection,
taking medicine, etc. Seeing he was full of tiredness on his
face, his wife worried, believing that he got some severe
disease, but it has not been detected out yet. She brought him
to various hospitals, making him very nervous in emotion. One
day, his mother, who was 70 years of old and lived in the
countryside, came to visit him. His mother asked him after
seeing him: “You have a blue tint on your nose stem. What scared
you?” He and his wife felt hilarious. It should be normal for an
adult to meet and deal some uncommon things. With the support of
rationality, how could be scared? However, his mother insisted
that he got scared and needed to call back his spirit. So, in
the deep night, she went out to the field, calling his name as
she called him back to eat when he was young. She also fondled
his hair as for a child, singing a song of “calming spirit”.
Seeing his mother was so engrossed, he would like to act like a
child, allowing his mother to do what she wanted to do. When we
met later, he had returned to his previous way of very active
again. Friends asked how he was cured. After heard his story, we
all admired the mystery of his mother’s spiritual calming.
With the
protection of reasoning, uncommon events do not express out on
our body as a scaring. This, however, does not mean that our
emotion and spirit are not affected or impacted. I also was very
calm in the uncommon event, but later, those who showed scared,
lost control of the action, lost consciousness, usually returned
normal, I, however, felt tired more and more until my heart
disease recurred.
“Mother” bears meaning not only in
physiology but more in psychology. “Mother” can tear off the
rationality coat over our body, calm our heart directly.
Rationality can act as “father”, but not replace the “mother” No
matter how “father” “teach” us; our heart still needs the calm
from “mother” For this, the “calming” way for a child sometimes
works significant role to an adult too.
I saw that my
mother treated a patient with spirit diverted due to scare. My
mother used acupuncture and moxibustion very quickly and “calm”
the patient too. After the patient finally cried out tiredly, in
the chest of my mother, his emotion became calm gradually.
My mother usually used a small skill in the
treatment. When I was young, and when I had spare time, mother
would ask me to buy several pieces of bamboo, four cents in
thick. I cut it open, make them into small cups of one inch high
each. I boiled the bamboo cups in herbs. After mother inserted
the needle to the point, I would pick out the bamboo from the
pot, swing little bit off the water, then hold it onto the
needle. Mother also asked me to fold herb Aiye into shape as a
cigarette, store them in a box nicely. She said, if there are
patients with stomach pain, abdomen pain, bloating, hiccup, take
out one such herbal column, burn it, perform the Moxibustion
therapy on the acupuncture point of “Zusanli” and “Sanyinjiao”
and other points. The illness would be ok without taking any
herb therapy.
One year, my senior brother got acute
appendicitis. After heard that doctor said he needed a surgical
operation, he tolled off the bed, escaped from the hospital with
holding his abdomen. My mother was urgent, asked me to catch him
to use acupuncture to him. But he crawled up to the top of the
house. I could not catch him. At that time, there was no sugar
cake to be used to “cheat” him to drink herbs. The whole family
could only wait for him to fall from the house after having the
appendices broken. I discussed with my brother again and again.
He only accepts one therapy – Moxibustion, which can only be
performed by me. He eventually did not have surgical therapy. He
did not eat drugs or have acupuncture. It was hard to even for
me to believe that Moxibustion can be used to cure appendicitis.
The therapy used in Chinese medicine can be
named as small skill. A disease that can be cured, of course,
can not be regarded as severe disease. From this point, I do not
oppose saying that the disease that Chinese medicine treats are
small diseases. In psychology, we wish that the disease we got
is a severe disease, sometimes. One of my friends, whom I have
mentioned before, later told me that, the reason for him not
listened to me not to accept the surgical operation to cut one
side lung, is to show to others that his disease is severe, to
show that he did not pretend to be sick. A disease needing
open-chest surgery is, of course, a severe disease. But in more
times, we do not want us to get severe disease, for example, if
we get the diseases that need to replace the liver, kidney, or
change bone marrow, etc. If we really get such disease, the
first thing we may have to face is not the disease per se, but
the much harder thing - the human nature.
One of my friend who has had a severe
surgical operation asked me to write an article to admire his
wife, to express his thanks to her. I laugh them as to show.
Would it really need to do so between a couple? He said you do
not know the reason. I saw many patients who were thrown off by
another partner. In the ward, if the patient is accompanied by
the parents, the brother, and sister, but not all the partner,
it means that the patient is thrown off by the partner. The
attack from the being thrown is much heavy than the disease. I
wrote this admiration article, but I also felt some sadness. The
modern science technology in many aspects put human nature into
a terrible test that has never had before in human history.
When one of my
friends needed several tens of thousands dollar for surgical
operation, his family fall silent. I “catch” them one by one,
forced them to supply money. Failed to refuse my question, his
father said: “Could you ensure for us the surgery succeeds? If
not, would it mean that you force us to break the whole family
(in financial), with loss of both money and people? You donate
ten thousand first, then come to force us” I never transfer
these words to this of my friend. If the parent feeling to a
child cannot bear such medical test, how could we ask the
partner, the brother and sister do better way?
One day, I got a call from the hospital. It
said that one old hospitalized lady was left in the hospital by
her children since they were unable to pay the medical cost for
her. The hospital asked to handle this issue since I was stuff
who ensured the woman’s right. I tried a lot to bring all of the
old lady’s children together. By cheating and by convincing
them, asked them to bring money to the hospital. The old lady
did not feel happy or glad for my bring the money to her, but
refused to eat and finally died.
This makes me
think, if the “treatment” is regarded so much so that it cannot
be bear by loving feeling or family feelings, then the accept to
death might be induced by some loss of hope. Though it has
nothing to do with medicine, but it is needed to do some
adjustment. How can we adjust it?
A sick child
took medicinal for a long time. His mother saw that my
daughter's pulse assessment was pretty correct so that she asked
what else medicine he needed more. My daughter said, for so
small child, why he needed to eat so many medicinal? Do some
massage, use some heat application, the results are usually
pretty good enough. The body of the small child is very
sensitive. Improper use of a medicinal is easy to damage it
rather than to help it. So, it should be very careful to use
medicine to a child. My daughter did some massage to the child
when she was talking. Only for a while, the child felt very
comfortable. He told his mother that he liked such therapy very
much.
Due to the
coming of western medicine, the concept for a doctor changed.
Compared with the big surgical operation for transplantation of
heart, liver, kidney or other organs, Chinese medicine doctor
cannot be regarded as a real doctor. For this, I do not oppose
the comment that Chinese medicine is a supplementary medicine.
The achievement of Sun Wukong on the road to Indian is vast, but
would he be willing to carry the luggage on a carrying pole for
two days? Did he ask
to kick off Sha Heshang, because he himself goes in front of the
team to remove any obstacles for the team? I never thought that
the monk Tang is a lower-ability leader. His “kindness” is
really a smart eye of scientific value. He did not deny one
value with another value to allow finally there is only one
value left. He did not apply the principle of “high-ability
survives, and lower-ability are depleted out”. He did not let
Sun Wukong take over all the benefits. He refused and repelled
Sun Wukong several times away of the team, but never kicked
other members of the team out. He would rather risk being eaten
by monsters than allow the competition consciousness of Sun
Wukong against the heaven.
It is not the defect of Chinese medicine
for its no competition mind. It is neither the reason to delete
it from the medical system. I had worked in a women organization
for some time. Before I went to it, I was advised that it has
much trouble with many women in a group. They have conflict each
other very easily. The inner condition of the organization
proved this comment. After observation for some time, I found
that the problem is not on the sex, but the improper allocation
of staff. Since there was less chance for a woman to promote,
those who promoted were all as “Sun Wukong”. If the Monk Tang
brings three “Sun Wukong” to the west to get Buddhism
literature, what would happen?
Someone laughed at Chinese medicine and
suggested to have a competition with western medicine, to decide
which one should be kept to develop. They think that this is
very fare and pretty scientific way. I think that such science
is not as practical as the “kindness” of the Monk Tang. From
this point of view, I suggest having moral, to “combine” the
western medicine and Chinese medicine into the “serve the
people”. Due to the block between the professionals, people
would almost to launch a “Holy War” due to the difference in
thinking. Only when moral has a common value, it can conduct the
associated part each other. Therefore, moral is not a void or a
hollow thing. It is not produced to make people royalty. Its
value is no less than medicine.
I think that it is the basic attitude to
realize the different value of different things, to understand
that no anything has exclusiveness. Chinese medicine is
established on this attitude. In Chinese medicine theory,
nothing is absolute, Yin-Yang, Five-element, and many others.
Nothing is not in a course of development and movement.
I did not take medication when I get a
common cold. For this, I got criticized. I did not take
medication when I coughed. My friends said that it would cause
other diseases. As they said, I started to have swollen, sour
lower back… My friends said it was the symptoms for a kidney
infection. I however still did not take any medication. Several
days later, the swelling disappeared, so did other symptoms. On
the other side, my friend took medication, had an intravenous
infusion, had an increased amount of the medication after he had
a cough and had a bacteria culture. He told me, the development
of the disease must stop on its way. The result is, he did stop
the disease in the lung but not in the kidney. The lab test
report showed that he really got nephritis. Of course, it is not
a mild disease. It needed to be treated seriously. He felt
strange for this. For me, I got the symptoms for nephritis but
did not get the nephritis. For him, he tried every step to
prevent to be nephritis, but he got it. What’s the reason? I
said, when I cough, my common cold disappeared. The movement I
had swollen, my cough stop. When my swollen disappeared, all
other symptoms in my body disappeared. The reason is: when the
disease went a full round in my body, it was no longer a
disease. You did not allow it to go a full course, but stop it
in the phase of the kidney. Now, treat your nephritis with
patience. Seeing he was very depressed, I advised him to take it
easy, if he repeats the thing, would he have braveness as I did?
It is one of the reasons the “risk” manner of the Chinese
medicine that the current people feel hard to accept it. Though
there is a risk in western medicine too, people have the freedom
to choose it with risk in mind.
Chinese medicine not only does not look at
things in an absolute manner but also not to look itself in such
a way. Therefore, from history, Chinese medicine never stops to
check, review and criticize itself. This phenomenon was regarded
by someone to prove that Chinese medicine has no enough solid
base. It also makes some scholar confused.
One internet
friend wrote a letter and said: ginseng cannot be taken in a
large dose, but he dared to eat it as a turnip. However, he said
it depends on the way to eat it. It needs to eat a little bit by
little bit, to increase the endurance of the body, then it would
have no problem to risk life to eat a large dose once. I agree
with him completely. The tendency nature of the herbs and the
tendency of person is a relative concept. If in the Galaxy there
is another “earth”. It has everything as in our earth but
cabbage, and if they come to our earth as a guest, they may get
poison after eating our cabbage. If the ginseng was everywhere
on the earth, it was the main dish of our ancestors, they have
had tolerated all of the poisonings from the ginseng, then when
we eat it now, it would be as a turnip. On the contrary, if the
turnip is as rare as the ginseng from history, we may get poison
form it if we eat it now.
This relativity applies to western
medicine. It is proved by the fast change of the generations of
antibiotic. From this point of view, much so-called new
development or creation of western medicine is like to march on
the same spot to maintain the healing effect. Therefore, in our
Chinese medicine, when we start the medication, using herbs, the
time and the territory, all of such factors must be considered
together. Sometimes, I joked with my friend: you do not need to
take medicine. You only need to come to live in my home for
sometimes, eat our meals rather than your current ones, you
would be able to get better as taking medications. The couple
who get the same disease proved what I mean here.
The harmony of
the Chinese medicine makes it possible that, no matter how to
use its own spear to stick its own shield, it could explain
itself well. Those who feel confused are those who fail to
understand the nature of Chinese medicine. If we hold the “spear
and shield” of the Chinese medicine, but forget and throw its
“the way to of explanation”, and if we fix the Chinese medicine
on a given time and space but omit its history before and after
that time and space, then the spear of Chinese medicine will
break its own shield. This is just the typical way in current
time; people use it to criticize Chinese medicine.
To me, it does not mean that I must defend
Chinese medicine but that the way to criticize Chinese medicine
should be as for any element in the five elements system, in
which every element needs to be promoted but also to be
inhibited by other elements, so to make it in balance. The
spiritual nature of the “five elements” is the democracy. Such
democracy thinking can prevent the science not develop into a
monster.
I accompanied
my friend to see a Chinese medicine doctor. After she finished
the consultation, she wanted to compare with me. She held my
hands and told the Chinese medicine doctor: “Please see her too”
The doctor felt my pulse and said: “the spirit is held in, but
the corporeal soul is evaporated”. Heard this, I smiled but said
nothing. My friend felt scared. She wanted to ask the doctor
more. I pulled her out. She looked at me the whole body, with a
strange feeling on her face: “This doctor is correct. He indeed
said that your corporeal soul has escaped off”. I told her that
that doctor did not talk nonsense. I felt that the word “the
corporeal soul has escaped out” (魂收魄散)
described my condition precisely. My friend asked me: “What does
it mean?” said that I could not explain it clearly, but I now
felt that I have no feeling to time and space. I thought that
means the “escape of the corporeal soul” by that doctor.
My friend
cannot understand what’s feeling for the loss of time and space.
I tried to explain to her: have you ever had an experience in
which you had a sleep, after wake up, you cannot realize what’s
the time at that movement and did not know where you are? She
said she had it before. I said, such condition usually lasted
for only several seconds. If such condition continues for
several days or tens of days, would it be called the evaporation
out of the corporeal soul? She said: “Wouldn’t you now realize
where you are and if it is in the morning or at night?” I said I
know, but I feel not confirmed. That is why I always look at the
watch, the street plates around and need to check with my
friends and relatives to confirm. She startled and said: “Would
you see me not real?” I said: “I see you not only as with a
block as a mountain, but hear your voice as blocked with a film.
Even I see myself as of seeing another person.” My friend said:
“Ai, your condition is very severe, but I see you are pretty
normal” I said: “Of course I am ok. Didn’t you hear that doctor
said: my spirit is in the hold?” She asked how such a condition
comes. I said, if I know, I will not let it happen as such. She
said we should go to the doctor to find the reason. I said that
the doctor will say that it is due to physical exhausting that
exhaust the body energy and blood. The therapy would be supply
more blood and Qi. The western medicine would say that I have a
mental disease but not know the reason or mechanism for it, nor
have proper medications for it.
She felt
worried and felt it is scaring. With more think, the mental
disease is also scaring. It must be treated. She suggested me to
see Chinese medicine first. I did not hurry to see a doctor. Not
to speaking that disease has its own course of development, it
should be allowed to develop some steps further, if it is
possible. For a human, it does not mean that there is no need to
experience and to feel the disease status. Why someone felt mad
when faced death? Probably it is due to he never experience the
strange body feeling before death.
Why there are
so many people chosen suicide? Probably it is because they can
not accept the strange feeling of the body. We normally separate
the feeling as “normal” and abnormal”. The “normal” feeling is
not only our certificate to live, but also the weapon to
criticize the “abnormal”. So, it is more terrible and dangerous
to deny this emotional status than the “abnormal” feeling per
se. This makes people not only refuse to experience the abnormal
feeling, but also try to refuse it by giving up life.
From the plenty
of description of the spirit and corporeal soul in the Chinese
medicine literature, I think, the life environment of ancient
Chinese made them also have such “loss of spirit and disappear
of corporeal soul” experience. There should have much more
chance for them to have such experience. So, the ancient Chinese
could not only deal with such condition calmly but also found
out the methods to solve such a problem. The coming of
psychology makes us throw away the “valuable secret” that the
ancient ancestors left for us. The knowledge of psychology has
no help for us to understand the suicide people’s emotion, nor
help to prevent their suicide.
Currently, the depression is as cancer:
once found, it has already been in a later stage. The function
of the psychology makes us accept other’s suicide with our
peaceful mind. Would our cool emotion reflect some shortage in
our heart and emotion? For me to have such escape of corporeal
soul condition, aside from due to my over exhausting, I felt
that there are some other reasons, that I cannot find it from
rational level, and my consciousness cannot scan it out.
The “loss of
corporeal soul” created me a chance and tool to explore myself.
I want to take this chance to search every corner of my body and
spirit, to find the position of the “broken layer”. Human, why
it needs lonely? It needs to stay itself, to communicate and to
find the signal send out by the body. It is the need to
“explore”. For this, I know that someone builds up an abundant
spiritual life is not for being a sage, or a wise person, but
for self-adjustment. Therefore, a sage overcomes himself is not
to show an example for the public, but to get rid of his own
embarrasses. It is meaningless to deny the effort of a sage and
to approve his hypocritical by finding an error from his body. I
told my daughter, it is not a way to make people get advanced.
My friends felt very strange: “You are so
calm in front of stress. You could keep calm even the Mountain
Tai falls broken away. Even if we all get a mental disease, you
would not. How could you get such loss of corporeal soul?” I
said, too calm may not be a good thing either. Too solid is not
a good thing for a building, what about to a human being? The
result is broken if everything is too solid without a kind of
flexibility.
The willing of the people is to break, but
the “corporeal soul” does not. The loss of corporeal soul can be
said being a body symptom, but it might a reflection of my life
condition. This is just the reason that I do not want to solve
the symptom urgently. My friend said with a smile: if you are
mayor, would your loss of corporeal soul reflect the problem of
this city? I smiled too and said: probably. Would you do think
that the spiritual condition of Prime Minister Zhou reflected
the social condition at that time?
When loss the feeling of time and space, I
need a lonely feeling to connect with my own body, I also need
my relatives to adjust my position. One friend had superstition
to psychology doctor. She went to Beijing, spent eight thousand
dollars with a psychologist for “talking therapy”. When she came
back, she was very disappointed. She said she would have spent
such amount of money on “collective talk” to get a better
result. So I think, the lifestyle of western people to keep
private secret makes them depend on a psychologist. The
lifestyle of Chinese to communicate with others, the so-called
“bad habit”, makes us easy to learn from others: using others as
our mirror. These mirrors not only help us to wash face but also
pour light beams to the bottom of our heart.
At a party, my
colleagues and I had a drinking game: everyone invited you a cup
of wine (liquor) and tell out one defect of yours. If you deny
it, you need to drink a cup of penalty. Whether the defect
pointed out is correct or not, is decided by all others. I
thought, the inviting wine needed to be drunk, and the penalty
wine might not be drunk, since whoever has no such tolerance to
criticize? However, I saw that my colleagues, one by one, drunk
the penalty wine. The defects pointed out are precisely correct,
but none of them admit it. All of them could not prevent from
denying. When it was my turn when I heard my defects, I laughed,
I felt they are not correct at all. I thought, without my
denying, others would refuse these proposed defects and gave me
a fare adjustment. To my surprise, they all nod and agree. I
felt angry. I felt this is a plot. How could you all do this way
just for pushing me to drink more wine? So, I knocked the table
and complained… the results are: all criticized me until I was
speechless, convinced, and drunk the wine.
This is as that the person standing aside
has a more clear view. Others can usually see your defects that
you cannot see by yourself. Your friend who knows of you and who
understand you are more helpful than the professional knowledge
of a psychologist. Compared with the women I saw when I was
young, the current women have no little way of put on a show of
bad temperament. The scale of the exam, the recruit, and the
promotion all fixed the human being into a fixed manner and
standard behavior. The way of treating a headache if there is a
headache fixes all "bend" position in the body that has a chance
to bend. There is no “bending” action to divert the pushing
force from outside; the life would have only had to “break”. So,
the psychology that “solve” the “bend” would have to solve the
“broken”. For this, the psychology became more and more
abstruse.
I had a dream. I dreamed a man criticized
me. His conviction was so strong that I felt as I understood and
realized the things suddenly and very clearly. At the time when
I felt I was much clear for the point, admired to him very much,
I also felt I was nothing, felt self-inferior and depression.
After waking up, I still felt depressed. My daughter said: “I
never see a person who is so good at creating self-inferior. You
cannot realize that the man in the dream to criticize you is
yourself. It seems that you need personality assembling. Indeed,
the points used by the man in the dream are supplied by myself!
This made me very happy. However, how my own opinion became
other's in the dream? Moreover, I became being criticized? Would
it be, as my daughter said, to keep the long habit of being
self-inferior, I make the “original myself” into "others" to
admire?
I defend my self that it was the specific
emotion in a specific environment. For hundreds of years, the
main emotion in the Chinese is lack of confidence. In the
conflict condition between the eastern and the western culture,
the original self and the current self cannot recognize each
other. I am not the only one who has such emotion embarrasses.
If we need to assemble them, it needs all of us assembling. The
older I am, the more I understand what means the Mr. Q. I really
do not want to admit there is such an original self. It has to
be assembled. Especially in the current, it is too embarrassing.
Who does not want to live comfortably? What about as Faust to
give up himself to a devil? What about to be a Mr. Q, to cheat
himself and cheat others? It does not mean we did not do so
before. Chinese would feel a headache to see a devil too.
Chinese people
are not blank paper, so they are not pure in spirit. For
example, if foreigner opposes Chinese medicine, they may eat the
ginseng like a turnip. Such hypocritical can be seen in those
who are fully westernized. Since, if you are Chinese, you cannot
get rid of China through opposing China. My grandmother said,
Japanese invader never trust the Chinese traitor. It is not easy
to let Chinese as “good people”, since they cannot believe in
anything fully with heart. It is not easy either to let Chinese
as terribly bad people; their kindness would turn back again
when they are too bad to some extreme. During the time when the
Japanese invader controlled China, my grandmother hid five
escaped soldiers from puppet army. However, when the Japanese
gave up and escaped, she brought a basket of pancakes to chase
to send to them.
My friend said the Chinese heart is not on
the government but in the outside the government. So, to
criticize the government’s Confucianism does not shack off the
base of the Confucianism. People used to believe that it is
Goethe who created Faust. They believe that it is Goethe’s
freedom to create whichever creature. However, Mr. Jung said it
is the Faust who creates Goethe. It is due to the self of Faust,
that pushes Goethe to improve itself up until the Faust get good
fate. So, to create Faust is the “dedicated and decided fate” of
Goethe. Tagore said: “It is the world spirit to come in that
knock my heart window, or it is my spirit that wants to go out?”
The whole idea of heaven, earth and people is created by the
Chinese, and it is also the "correct reflection of objective
laws in the human mind." Though it
cannot be painted like a new picture, the spirit can respond to
the calling from the outside. During the thinking movement of
such echo reaction from inside and outside, it is impossible for
Chinese to neglect such willingness of the "original self" to
re-see the world. Such “designed fate” cannot be avoided by
selling the spirit to the devil or act as the Mr. Q. When we
suggest throw away the traditional culture, did we remember that
we are not only the sufferer of the culture, but also its
creator? So, if the culture needs to be killed off, it is not
enough to just “burn the books”, but also need to “kill the
scholars”.
I am not going
to defense and advocate Chinese medicine or Chinese culture. How
could I not know the advantage of western medicine and western
culture? I am a pragmatist. If western medicine and the western
culture can be used directly and if it works, why we try so
hard, bearing the self-inferior feeling, to try hard to find the
best way by ourselves? The hundred of the year of history to
learn from the western makes us lose the original aim of
learning. If the outside failed to wake up the inside, the
Chinese would keep in “sleep”. Mr. Q is the Chinese, who lost
self, separated personality, with spirit nowhere to touch, and
walking in a dream.
It is right to
say that Mr. Q has not been awakened. Without calling back his
spirit, how could he wake up? Many people doubt that the Chinese
culture suffered from heart failure, doubt its value, suggest
change a heart. The power of the Chinese heart indeed is not as
strong and western culture heart. Chinese culture is short of
the separation power, religion power, tragedy motion and hero
spirit of the western culture, all of which are needed to create
great “potential” movement. The self-consistency of the Chinese
culture causes the “inertness” of the Chinese in spirit.
My daughter’s
art teacher felt some pity for her not go to the road of art. I
also feel strange, how she resisted against the dream to be a
star? She told me, she loves art. But if she did not meet the
Chinese medicine, she must have been to the art. She said: “Art
needs suffering to ferment, and with life to sacrifice. It can
be approved by the difficult life of the artists, short life of
rock musician. There is a side effect of art on the human being
too. It is the Chinese medicine that allows me to stand out of
its side effect to enjoy the art.” Considering that some people
are trying to find the reason for the backward of Chinese art, I
found the answer from my daughter. My daughter and I measure the
heart's standards are not only according to its power. Athletics
have a hidden problem in their hearts, and the life span of man
is shorter than a woman. To nourish heart is important to the
heart. I think that not great of
Chinese medicine is not its defect like we should not
regard the eyes of a blind is defect because his hearing ability
is excellent. From time to time, my friends may accuse me too
weak. They may abuse me being Mr. Q. I admit: “I am that ugly
Chinese”.
Applying
“Stimulating method” by swearing at somebody usually does not
work well for those of people whose thinking is in a
self-consistent, since the “Fire” excited is depleted off by
“Soil”, counteracted by “Water” and exhausted by “Metal” in the
flow of the five elements. It is hard to form angry Fire to push
the person to act. Therefore, the Chinese are relatively less
aggressive, less action and less completive. Such national
nature is under criticizing now. The reason that the Chinese
medicine is associated with the Chinese culture is that Chinese
medicine includes the sky, the land, and some more concepts into
the medicine for the human. A young goy said, when he was
learning an ancient zither, why there were so many stories and
talking about playing the instrument?
I said if you had had contact with the Chinese culture,
you would not feel it hard to learn the zither.
Chinese culture
is a series of systems. No matter which door you open, you would
come into the same room. Einstein failed to open and connect all
rooms of the different departments of western culture. For
Chinese characters, without creating any new word, the
characters available are enough to express the meaning of a new
concept. During construction of a new theory, if there are any
missing parts, then along with the development of this
department, the creation of any new element may break the
current relationship between concept, so causing new allocation
or classification. Such broken and re-organization might be
called as development or progression, it can also be called as
the concept re-new, or correction. For Chinese medicine,
however, it is not allowed.
Why my mother
gave me a lot of classical books/literature in Chinese medicine?
Since if not master the Chinese medicine from the whole view,
but only from a local part to learn the Chinese medicine, I
would most possibly renew my concept again and again. How would
the patients not be treated by me with tomorrow’s old concepts?
If this correction or renew of the concept is completed, would
the patients not be treated turn and toss? If the correction is
false, would the therapy use today not be pseudo-science
tomorrow? If Chinese medicine does so, it would need to create a
set of “science’ theory to support its way. The Chinese medicine
cannot keep the same step of the time, can not keep the “trend
of the times” created by the hero western medicine. The “trend
of the times” has changed nature, including the human being, the
part of nature.
The human being faced by current medicine
is no longer “natural human being”. The road on which disease
comes is a twisted and twisted mountain road. This has not been
recognized by western medicine yet. So, in the book of the
current western medicine, it is written: “the reason for the
disease is not clear. The mechanism for it is not clear yet” I
think, the medical research needs not the samples that have not
been contaminated. For the current “task”, it is needed to solve
it out of the current “time”.
If the concept
of health of Chinese medicine has never appeared in history,
would it be suggested by western medicine one day? When western
medicine proposed the “Chinese medicine” theory as a new theory,
would people feel hard to understand? Someone may oppose that,
how could western medicine suggest a “Chinese medicine” theory?
The Chinese medicine and western medicine are two different
medical systems, no compatible each other, so no possibility to
connect. For this comment, I do not agree. Who said that a new
theory must be compatible with the existing one? Classical
mechanics, the general relativity and the quantum mechanics, are
they compatible? No limiting zone for science. Not compatible is
not only allowed in the science, but it is also the expression
of the expansion force of the science.
It is described that the science is always
developing according to one logic, based on one theory, so to
blame Chinese medicine being not logic. It is described as the
science would have the “unified field theory” a quite long time
ago, and as all theories are included in one unified field
theory based on a cause-result mechanism, so the Chinese
medicine can be excluded off the field. Otherwise, what’s the
scientific reason to ask Chinese medicine to be compatible with
western medicine? The occurrence of quantum mechanics does not
deny or replace the classic mechanics. Rather, they work in a
different area. People do not deny the usefulness of the classic
mechanics in the production of a car for it is not applicable in
the production of a nuclear bomb. Since the “unified field
theory” has not been developed out, every part holds truth, who
indeed has the right to delete and cancel the Chinese medicine?
Chinese medicine now gets a new life power.
If the presence and the development of Chinese medicine before
is the historical need, now, its life power comes from the space
that is left along by the development of western medicine. Even
if the Chinese medicine does not come to fill this space, some
other similar medical system will be developed to fill it. This
is the way by which the science develops. Even apparently not
compatible things are not really and not compatible. The
compatible of the thinking has its physiology basis. In this
question, we can follow the natural law. The personality of my
mother and my father is very different. For example in the idea
for wealth and money, they are not compatible. My father is
stingy but my mother is generous. As their child, what I would
get their inherit? There would have only three possibilities:
first, as my father, extremely stingy; second, as my mother,
very generous; third, compatible the personality of my mother
and father, not so stingy or generous. The only impossible
result is: stingy but also generous, since it is illogical.
However, the
illogical thing happens. I am very stingy but also very
generous. My colleague cried out in alarm to my subconscious
behavior: “Why you add water into ink?” My leader also felt very
angry with me: “We have nice paper. Why you always use the used
paper and write a report on the paper back to me?” My friends
said: “Why whenever we suggest throwing away a dish that had
fall into corrupt, you would eat it all?” I cannot answer these
questions.
On the other
hand, my generousness exceeds my mother a lot. I not only give
out all that I have, but I could also borrow money by the name
of others to sign on the borrowing receipt. So, some offices
would like to send the relief money to me, depend on me to
allocate it out.
Psychology doctor may think that this is my
conflict personality. To me, it is pretty normal actually, since
if I am not stingy, the father part in my body will feel
discomfort, which needs me to care every mild thing, not waste
anything, big or small. In the same way, if I do not spend money
to help others, if I can help them with money, the mother part
in my body would feel discomfort. Therefore for me to live
comfortably, being able to eat and to sleep well, I must be both
stingy and generous. No any part can be neglected.
So, the chain
of the gene does not link as our understanding. The apparent
conflict personality is unified in my body perfectly. The gene
combined in my body comes from my direct ancestor of thousands
of generations. From gene point of view, I am them, and they are
me. But I do not own these ancestors exclusively. From my blood
system reverse up not far, I would catch cross with the ancestor
of other people. My grandmother’s mother might be your
grandmother’s mother-in-law. Vertically, from many and many of
your previous ancestors, you can find all the gene currently in
your body. In other words, they are the generations of your
life. Horizontally, the gene of current people came from your
ancestors. So, you can also find all of your genes from current
people. We can say that our current people share the live
generations by generations. We so exist currently and
historically. If we really inherited in such a way, then, what
thinking manner is really not compatible? Of course, the human
being does not become a flock of sheep without personality due
to the compatible gene mixing.
On the
contrary, once the individual thinking style is formed, it
expresses very strong independent and self-protection
realization. Without very strong feeling power it would not
open. Compatibility against willingness would cost the damage of
the body health.
It can be said, it is due to the feeling of
the human being that protected the independence of thinking. So,
we can understand why a human has rationality but also keeps
feelings. The two aspects have been bind together. If the
conflict in thinking cannot be solved logically, if it cannot be
solved, as the Buddhism suggested to “leave it going naturally”,
it needs to be solved with breaking through and overcoming
manner. But, what’s the breaking through and overcoming manner?
After my marriage, I am not compatible with my father’s family
in many thinking. That I tried my best costs my health in body
and in the heart. After my daughter’s birth, I found
surprisingly: my daughter’s thinking manner, the value desire,
the behavior in speaking and action, all are like copied from
her father’s family. I am amazed: my abdomen was borrowed to
give a birth of other family’s baby! But the God designed that I
love my daughter without any condition.
Daughter is a
gobbledegook (heaven book). I watched her and felt strange. I
cannot understand her behavior. Then I re-paid attention to her
father, tried to carefully understand his thinking, feeling,
personality, and nature. Faced to his surprise, I answered, you
are a dictionary. I accompanied her grandfather and grandmother
to chat, tried, from their point of views, to look at this
world. I told my daughter, I am checking a dictionary. Of
course, I have also tried to understand as far as the history of
my husband’s family tree. This is to check an origin of
phraseology. It is through these checking, I can then understand
my daughter.
Sometimes, I joked with my daughter. If she
is the product of one-night love, it would be worse, since I
would never be able to understand her, since I have no
dictionary to help me to read her, the heaven book. From this
point of view, I oppose one-night love. It is just due to my
daughter, I cannot deny the family from which she comes.
Therefore, for the thinking manner that I originally not agree,
what I need is not to deny, to oppose, to avoid, or to refuse,
but to try compatible with it. There is no problem of
against-willing. When my daughter opened the thinking barrier of
two families, I sighed: “Human really needs sexual
multiplication!”
Love, this word
is not very theory, not at all truth, not at all logic and
cannot bring it to the open discussion. But, it allows me to
achieve the means of thinking breakthrough and transcendence.
That human is an animal with feelings, with thinking, is due to
the combination of these two. Would it be due to the current
people is short of feeling power so that the current people is
hard to break the jail frame of the thinking? When the emotion
of love becomes somewhat illusory, the power of thought is also
weakened.
Someone laughed
at me, that I protect for Chinese medicine is for my feeling to
my mother and my daughter, that I stick to Chinese culture, and
that it is due to national feeling. For this, I have no
objections, since I am not living myself this one generation,
but many generations of myself. I cannot strip history, culture,
and our entire nation from my life. My rational openness,
compatibility, and vitality are all inseparable from emotions as
pioneers and driving forces. I cannot leave my flesh and blood
to love the truth. Is this difficult to understand?
When I was
young, we always ate old, saved surplus grain. The government
saved the newly harvested grain to eat next year, fearing that
there might be a short-of-grain disaster if there is no harvest
next year. At that
time, China was around by other counties against China, nowhere
to find grain support. The saved grain goes with more or less
moldy. There were two years in which we always ate the moldy
grain. It was more severe with moldy in corn. It became red,
tasted spicy, hard to eat. However, every family eats the same.
Previous years, there was a saying that the moldy corn contains
a fungus called aflatoxin, which is a strong cancer-inducting
material. Even heat would not be able to kill it. Once find it
in grain, the grain should be destroyed. After fear, I started
to recall the neighbors at that time, who died of cancer. I
tried to recall again and again but can not recall any. So I
doubt that this aflatoxin might not be so terrible. Seeing that
people throw away the grain that contains little bit moldy, I
felt pity.
Chinese is the nation that suffered hungry
before. Chinese have been so hungry so that even at this time,
you can see fermented tofu, soy juice, sour vegetable, smoke
meat, moldy vegetables, wind-dried intestine, and preserved eggs
on the dining table of the Chinese family. Indeed, they are all
degenerated food. When I was young, I followed my grandmother to
prepare soy sauce. We put tofu on shelves to dry. After several
months, took it down to open it, to wash… In the soy sauce,
there was not only moldy but also maggot shell. So I have had
time to refuse to eat soy sauce. But my neighbors all came to
ask a taste of the new sauce, that they admired a lot. I
thought, the eating of the degenerated food, it has no
alternative at the beginning, and a habit later. No matter how
nice it tasted, the degenerated food is not at all as good for
health as fresh food. I really doubt if the degenerated food
still contains nutrition.
Along with the
reform in China, the concept of food changed. People chase for
taste not only good but also fresh. They eat less degenerated
food. After 30 years, those Chinese who do not eat degenerated
food have higher and higher, even doubled, an incidence of
cancer. Today, I saw TV news that the incidence of lung cancer
increased by 465%. All agree that it is due to the contamination
of the environment. In this way, would the cancer-inducing power
of the environment is stronger than the aflatoxin? The report
also said the cardiovascular disease had become the number one
reason for the death of Chinese. There are 180 million Chinese
with hypertension. I thought it must not be due to the eating of
aflatoxin. High-quality food makes people with higher blood
pressure; the degenerated food has however less power to
increase people’s blood pressure. The food with high nutrition
contains high heat, along with less body movement, the high
nutrition food brings to the people not the healthy, but “Fire”.
If the “Fire” accumulated for a long time, there would have
trouble.
One of my friends was very nervous about
this. She said: “My son got a sore throat again!” I said: “What
about it happens again?” She said: “It would cause nephritis”.
She said precisely correct. Her son got the disease as she
predicted. The son has an allergy to penicillin. She brought him
to the provincial hospital, had penicillin a movement with
anti-allergic infusion. After two weeks, the doctors said it has
to stop, suggesting them back home to have a break. My friend
said: “But there is still blood in urine?” The doctor said,
there would be blood even if it is cured from now for the
following half year. The doctor then prescribed medications to
them to go home. A lot of medications, all are Chinese medicine
but prescribed by a western medicine doctor, to clear Fire and
detoxify. My friend strongly believed that the reason was the
inflammation in the throat, so that keeps asking her son to take
the Chinese medicinal. But the blood in the urine only increased
not decreased. She was nervous as if she herself got
obsessive-compulsive syndrome. She let the repeated lab test
every two days and looked at the urine bottle of her son every
morning. Later, even she herself can tell out the amount of
protein and red blood cells in the urine through looking at the
urine.
I know the body constitution of his son.
There is not the Fire in the body at all. She should not
continue the cleaning Fire therapy. I suggested her to bring her
son to a Chinese medicine doctor. But my daughter’s Great master
went out for traveling, and could not find him. So she found
another two Chinese medicine doctors. These two doctors were
also recommending the clearing Fire. When we consulted with
another Chinese medicine doctor in another city, he agreed with
me. So she brought her son there. After back, I had a look at
the medicinal. All are Cold herbs again. I said, how this doctor
did not agree with me either? The friend said the doctor
believed it was too much Fire in the body. It had to be
cleansed. So many doctors, used both western medicine and
Chinese herbs, all used Chill herbs. My friend also believed
that her son has strong Fire. She started the Cold herb again.
But the lab test made her like ants on a hot pot.
My daughter’s
Great master came back. My friend came to him in a hurry. She
went back to me: “Dr. Hao also used Cold herbs!” After opening
the herb package, I cannot prevent from laugh: “They are Cold
herbs? No any Cold herb. There is also red ginseng. This is a
Warm therapy” My friend said: “I told him that my son had Fire,
which always caused a sore throat and nephritis. The doctor
said, well, well, clearing Fire, clearing Fire” I said, he saw
fifty to sixty patients a day. Get tired to death. How could he
have time to convince you? He followed you in the mouth, but the
treatment is still according to what he thought to be. After
twenty days taking the herbs, everything is fine.
My friend felt
strange: “The doctor in the provincial hospital said there would
have the blood in the urine for a half year, how it disappears
now?” I said, if the disease is cured, why it should still have
blood? My friend now cares much about the diet of the whole
family, not only the nutrition but also the Cold and Hot nature
of the foods. Whenever I went to prison, I paid attention to the
diet of the prisoners. Their diet menu is of scientific value.
It pays attention to the fined and original grain, the meat, and
the vegetable. If such a diet menu is adapted to the public, the
incidence for the cardiovascular diseases must reduce
dramatically. The prisoners have physical exercise every day,
have some other physical movement, the amount of their physical
movement is also pretty proper. They practice meditation, learn
to sew and knit, also learn Confucianism. I joked with them
sometimes, the scientific lifestyle now is in prison. I worry,
if the prisoners are really changed into an honest person, would
they look at us as we are rude savages? If we pay attention to
the lifestyle, the cardiovascular disease should not be the
number one killer to human.
My colleague’s
mother died of brain bleeding. She was very saddened and cried:
“My mother had no good fortune. She liked TV very much. I had
just installed a net TV for her for three days before she died.
" Like Mrs. Xiang Ling (祥林嫂),
she repeated this every day. After one month, I told her: “If
you have had not installed that net TV for her, to make her sit
there without moving for three days, she would not have died.”
She was stunned. After a while, she said: “I am the one who hurt
my mother! I should not have had her have this happiness!”
If according to
the previous lifestyle, there would have no question that her
mother may live for additional tens of years. However, sitting
continuously for three days caused her having bleeding in the
brain to die. For those who have continuous physical activity,
the body Qi and blood has been designed and adapted according to
the need of the physical activity. Without movement for three
days, the body energy could not be released out. The blood
pressure therefore increased. For an old person, with hard in
blood vessels, it cannot be avoided to have health trouble.
Several days ago, we
went to a mountain. A young boy of twenty years of old climbed
for only several minutes before a stop. He said: “I cannot climb
anymore. I feel hot. The heat in the body appears hard to
evaporate out. I felt as to
explode.” All laughed at him. Someone encouraged him to
continue. I did not push him to try again. I know that he eats a
lot usually, has enough heat in the body. The heat has been
overwhelming in the body. With a little bit of physical
movement, the heat would be much higher. If it is not removed
out of the body in time, he may also have trouble.
Science defense person has severely said,
Chinese medicine has no qualification to ask tolerance of
science. It is like the lecture room of a university can be
given to a witch to use? How a witch has the quality to ask
equality with science? One of the most critical tasks of science
is to struggle against pseudo-science such as Chinese medicine.
To me, not allowing Chinese medicine into the science hall as
not allowing Mr. Yuan Longping being the fellow of Science
Institute of China. It does not relate to whether Chinese
medicine is a medicine or not; not whether Mr. Yuan Longping is
a scientist or not, it is a question that science is showing
what itself is.
Think about it:
in the beginning, Chinese medicine started and developed without
any help from science. Yuan Longping's hybrid rice is breaking
through science. If the science cannot tolerate small stream, it
means it has no desire to be a sea. Then it does not matter if
Chinese medicine mixes or not mixes with such a low-level
knowledge system. No worth to respect such a science. In the
current time, people worry to kill mosquito since killing may
damage the environment and ecological balance. How Chinese
medicine becomes an absolute harmful thing, which needs the
science to bend its body and rush out to kill the Chinese
medicine? Someone also said that the science does not come from
the eastern, so they commented again and again that Chinese
people and western are not in the same level, so they summarize
that the Chinese nation is a low-level nation. For this, it is
no longer a science question.
To me, if you want to find a reason
supporting that Chinese should be deleted out of the earth, you
first of all need to prove that Chinese is a gorilla. However,
the wisdom of Chinese in mathematics is most excellent in the
world. It means that human wisdom does not always need to be
maintained through science. Between based on human, or based on
science, no matter how great the science, it should base on the
human. The human wisdom per se is science. We are not trying to
study the rationality of human thinking, but trying to change
human thinking. It tosses the world up and down.
One day when my
daughter was in kindergarten, her teacher talked to me very
formally, that my daughter had some problems in her wisdom. I
felt pretty surprised. How could I not find this problem by
myself? The teacher said your daughter could not understand
addition. Back at home, I picked out a box of a match to my
daughter. She really could not add it! This scared me. To make
me quiet, I brought my daughter out to see the moon. When came
back, I changed the way to test her. Now I felt easy. She indeed
did not know the addition, but she knew subtraction. Ancient
people might not know how much apples they picked, but they knew
if the apple was stolen. If the teacher taught her the
subtraction first, she would not have been believed she had
trouble in wisdom.
When my daughter went to elementary school,
the teacher told again, she does not know multiplication. I told
her, to teach my daughter division first. We feel that the
current teaching sequence is very rational, one by one, very
logic. But in fact, it may not be so. The human thinking always
goes back to its own way from time to time, so it could meet
conflict with science sequence from time to time. The child of
my neighbor went into the school but was forced to quit. The
teacher said kindly that the child wisdom developed slow,
suggesting to come again next year. The child was refused out of
the school. The neighbor sent his child to me and said: “Only
you said that the child is not stupid. Look, the school refused,
how can say he is not stupid?” I asked the child to come to my
home, helping me to do housework, telling him to pass me some
amount of bowl, or chopsticks, etc. No any problem. However,
once we come to homework, everything became mass. Later, I
understand, the child had a good memory. Whenever the way of
teacher’s teaching does not match his own thinking way, he would
try to remember everything in the classroom mechanically. The
fingers that come to him now all change into numbers. This,
according to his own logic, is pretty normal, but to others, it
appears not only a commonly seen chaotic.
After finding the reason, I helped him to
make things in order. I asked his mother to send him back to
school. The teacher no longer said he is clumsy. It would be
ideal that child can learn according to their own nature. But
that the education is called education is that it is to set a
unified model. The science thinking is so deep in the mind of
teacher that the content of the teacher is to set fix model for
the students for their thinking.
The first day
my daughter came back from school, she told me that her teacher
said: “You are all small tree. You need to be fixed, to chop,
otherwise, you will grow twist”. Not many children are naturally
meet the science thinking need, so the teachers first of all
need to do is to first deny the thinking way of the children
themselves, then replaced with scientific thinking. The children
are fixed straight. Not only their own thinking becomes
“straight”, but they also not allow others to “slanting”. When I
was a teacher in a middle school, the students all pointed out
to me: “Teacher, your way of teaching is not correct. The class
should not be like such”. I surprised: “You are students, how do
you know how to teach?”
Therefore, it is normal that Chinese
medicine is attacked and suppressed. Our education denies
ourselves first, then deny others. People think that it would be
correct if doing things according to science. They would have
right to “fix” others, even to attack and to shout at others
with complete confidence. In this way, apart from scientific
thinking, where would be individual and free thinking? Teaching
should be brainwashing, but to induce thinking. When I teach <<
Lung Yu >> (论语), the way I used is to refer to the way of Confucian,
to induce the thinking of my students, inducing their interest
to think more, far and higher. If the human nature would have
had endured “fix” by others without producing any physical and
emotional trouble, then it does not matter which way is used in
the education.
The child of my
friend went to elementary school and suffered from frequent
urine syndrome. The child needed to go to washroom several times
during one class, which made the teacher felt pestered, questing
the parents to solve the problem. She brought the child to
several hospitals but fail. I said it might be due to the too
nervous of the child. We need to help him to relax. But how to
make him relax? My friend could not find a way. I told her, the
source of the nervous is in the teacher. That the teacher stares
at the child as an eagle stares at a chicken, would stress the
child to be so nervous to go to the washroom several times.
But a teacher cares tens of children at the same time, it
is not practiced to ask her being soft in eyes and kind to
always show a smile. Indeed she is very tired.
When my daughter went to elementary school,
on the windowsill, there were a lot of flowers. On the teacher’s
desk, there also always had the most beautiful flower, that is
sent by my daughter. The teacher enjoyed these flowers, and
sometimes she might even smell them too. I told my friend, the
teacher needs to care. So, the teachers can escape from the
tiredness and heavy burden of the work. For example, send her
some gift, and send her in time greetings, etc. That parent
becomes a friend of the teacher can soft the eye of the teacher.
My friend said, would this be a way to suck up to the teacher
and to indulge the child? I said it is the human care for the
teacher and your child.
The whole
society continued to put a press on your child. The person who
can protect him is only you. You can not only stand on the side
of the teacher, but need to bring the teacher to your side. My
friend followed what I recommended. Her child’s problem was
solved since whenever the teacher passed from his site, would
touch his head subconsciously.
Those who learned science for tens of years
usually cannot learn Chinese medicine. They either say that
Chinese medicine is a pseudoscience or say that it is tough to
learn. Some university students, masters, even doctor degree
students usually ask my daughter’s Great master: “How to learn
Chinese medicine?” My daughter felt strange: “Asking by them, it
appears that Chinese medicine is so profound. Chinese medicine
is something that a child can learn. Like the go (match), even a
child can try. The picture of << Nei Jing picture >> (内经图) is so scintillating: on the position of
the left and the right kidney, standing a boy and a girl drawing
water using waterwheel. How vivid it is!”
My daughter said that, the reason
she did not feel hard to learn the Chinese medicine, not because
she has a special learning method or what genius nature, but
because she has no block in thinking. This is well because I did
not “teach” her when she was young.
Pulse feeling now becomes a mysterious
thing. My daughter feels a pulse, wherever she was, it was
regarded as a mystery. Whenever she goes out to other company
for something, there would be someone asking her to feel their
pulse. Soon a troop of people is set in a line waiting for her
to feel the pulse. When I was young, people have no idea of
physical exam and feel the pulse feeling is an ordinary thing.
Without a discomfort, people would not go to a doctor for an
exam or ask for pulse feeling. So there was no such massive
event as my daughter feeling pulse for so many people. Now,
people see the pulse feeling as the Chinese way of an annual
physical exam. For the ways of an annual physical exam, people
do not feel bothering how many it is. Current people know much
about the annual physical exam. The Chinese pulse diagnosis does
not need any blood sample, or biopsy, or others. Chinese
naturally accept it. This makes my daughter’s pulse feeling
usually for the whole department, the whole office or even the
whole company as a collective, one after another, all peoples'
pulses are felt.
When my
daughter spoke out their symptom, one after another, the people
around her felt stunned. Such collective pulse feeling makes my
daughter have some experience that even my mother had not
before. My daughter said, she found that some company staffs
have a similar trend in their pulses. There is a
company-dependent phenomenon. She thinks this is associated with
the management style of the company.
I felt strange.
How can it be? She analyzed that, if most of the stuff in a
company showed a Liver stagnation pulse in common, it suggests
that that company is managed very clear in level, in degree. The
management is strict and the working pressure is huge. In the
treatment, the stuff in the whole company can be treated the
same time with the same way from beginning. Heard this, I could
not prevent from laugh. I said, according to you, from the
management of a company can find the health condition of the
whole stuff, and from the health condition of one stuff, can
realize the management style of that company? My daughter said,
the organization efficient and the stuff health are associated.
Usually, the last one who came out for the pulse feeling is the
“first leader” of that company.
My daughter
said the pulse of the “first leader” of the company is usually
not the same as the other staff. His or her pulse is usually a
strong condition in Qi. The Qi Excess reflects in the work
strong momentum and strength. But, too much and too strong
overwhelming would cause the damage of the heart and blood
circulation, increase in blood pressure, so not good for health
either. I said, according to this, to take herbs as a collective
is neither the way to treat the root (cause). Is it needed to
adjust the organization manner? She said: yes. To use the herbs
to support the management style is anyway not a long time
solution. Management with the care of human need is the best way
of medicine. I advised her not talking about the company’s
management. Do not put into other company’s organization and
management. The job of a doctor is to solve the disease. Only
talk things related with the disease, not go beyond the
medicine. Otherwise, people would say that you practice Chinese
medicine as a witch to tell people’s future, leaving reasons for
others to attack Chinese medicine.
My daughter
spoke slowly: the difference between Chinese medicine and
western medicine is that Chinese medicine pays much attention to
the people’s emotion, emphasizes the influence of personality
and living environment to the health. Would the charming of the
future-telling not be the prediction and explanation ability?
The prediction and explanation of Chinese medicine is the
derivation based on current life through a logic evaluation.
Though Chinese medicine cannot show you the lab report, its
prediction and canalization can be proved by following fact. It
is not improper to point out the relationship between the
environment and health.
I said, Traditional Chinese medicine did
not comment on the management of the unit. I never heard from my
mother about the management problem of a company. At that year,
when my mother spoke out the lifestyle of a patient, it made
people feel mystery. Now, if Chinese medicine points out the
management situation of a company, would it make people feel
more mysterious and hard to believe? My daughter laughed and
said, the reason that Chinese medicine did not comment on the
management of a company is due to the previous people were not
at the current time to come as a collective, as a group, it
makes the Chinese medicine hard to make a summary. Second, in
tradition, there was only one management style in Chinese
society. There was no way for Chinese medicine to make a
comparison. Now, the situation changed. There is the public
(government), company, a private company, and foreign company.
If there is no difference for the management styles among these
different companies, how we would feel out the difference in the
pulses among the staff in different companies?
Chinese
medicine can find new conditions every time and change its own
development according to the changed time. Would this not be a
development with time? Indeed, the development of era proposed a
lot of new observation and new experience to the Chinese
medicine. My friend prepared compote. She put the mango and
melon all in one dish. We use a prod to stick it into the mouth
to eat. I said you choose one kind of fruit to eat, don’t est
them together. She asked my reason. I said I have no scientific
evidence but feel that as a human being, our first generation
went this way. My friend laughed. She ate along with talk:
delicious thing should be eaten together. Also, these fruits are
no toxic thing, no harm food. They would not cause trouble for
our body.
Since I can not convince her, I can only
observe aside. After a while, she started to cry for stomach
pain, asking for medicine. I did not hurry to find medicinal for
her but asked her feeling and symptoms carefully, then told my
daughter through phone all of this valuable information, since I
know that there is no any record in ancient medical literature.
In a previous age, there would be only the king who had such a
chance to try what happens if the various foods are eaten all
together. I do not know how many times the king might get pain
in his stomach. However, even for the king, he might have no
chance to eat the melon and the mongo together. How could I not
pay attention to its result?
Recently, the
government set out the rule asking to supply nutrition value in
the food products. It is ordered to list the nutrition compounds
and the usefulness in nutrition. Some people ridiculed the
Chinese doctor for this, how can the country not replace the
food nutrition label with the cold and hot label? Or is the
theory of Chinese medicine unscientific, and it can not be
indicated to the public?
Of this, I would not feel it is reasonable.
I do not know how much help such nutrition label would be to
ordinary people in shopping. Even for a graduate from a medical
university, it may have no strong help either. Also, it does not
mean that the nutrition does not change at all during cooking.
Chinese medicine cares the way of cooking very much. Even if
food of Cold nature, it might be changed into a Hot food after
cooking. Chinese do not eat western food. After cooking, would
the nutrition list be re-listed? China has many “degenerated
food”, do they have a nutrition label?
If the nutrition concept works, would we
delete such “degenerated food” off? Chinese food per se does not
suit such nutrition label system. So, to make the Chinese food
suit to the science, would Chinese change to eat western food?
Nowadays, these people who oppose Chinese medicine think that
the development of science is forming the final combat to
Chinese medicine. They feel very happy about it. But what I see
is the new life of Chinese medicine in the current age. The
application of the nutrition label implies that the science has
already linked the food with the health, though it is a shallow
level if it is considered only from the nutrition point of view,
but it is meaningful. On this way of thinking, the consideration
of Chinese medicine is much rich and open than western medicine,
and even more perspective. At the current time, the things that
Chinese medicine can do are a lot. If you have a willingness,
you might be able, “when the willows are in dark, then the
flowers might be in blooming”, to open a new chapter for science
by this “heretical sect” of Chinese medicine.
Recently I paid much attention to the
internet about the information on the earthquake. I saw a lot of
reports and comments. This time, the National Earthquake Bureau
was blamed very much. They felt very aggrieved the same as a
doctor faces the collective attack by patient family. The
prediction of an earthquake is the world challenge. People
should not blame the scientist. But the scientists also feel
very angry. They are not angry at the public blame, but to some
earthquake experts who said the earthquake could be predicted.
It is commonly known that, for the earthquake, to say it can not
be predicted, it is a scientist; to say it can be predicted, it
is a fraud.
In the meeting in May 19 on the Fragrance
Hill, some experts proposed: “The whole thinking of Chinese is
useful for the prediction of huge earthquake”. Some others
suggest that the earthquake prediction cannot depend only on the
professional team and instrument. We should start “Public
measure and public prevention” policy, apply some “public
methods” to collect thousands and hundreds of information to
make the prediction. These scientists who suggested to use such
“no scientific evidence” and use “specious” means to predict an
earthquake, were said to be a group of “earthquake experts with
Chinese medicine thinking”, and were called the same frauds as
Chinese medicine. In the team of Chinese medicine, there
surprisingly has a group of earthquake experts.
Though I agree
that the earthquake cannot be predicted, it does not mean that I
do not want to predict the earthquake. Whenever the earthquake
cannot be predicted, there would be the “fraud” continuing to
try. Between the “fraud” and scientist, “fraud” is usually more
with fighting spirit, more warm to search truth and more care
the reality.
Science makes us more rationality, but for
the sudden loss of many vivid lives, the rationality cannot stop
our tears. I disagree to say that the earthquake experts are of
Chinese medicine way of thinking. The earth sample is only one.
Even collect thousands of information, it is still the western
medicine way of research, not at all bias from science. It does
not need to exclude the science.
I myself
experienced one failure example of “Public measure and public
prediction” to predict the earthquake. My home located on the
belt of the Pacific earthquake. The land shakes from time to
time. The previous municipal mayor did not want to depend on the
science only for the prediction. He wanted to combine the expert
prediction and public prediction. He visited the experts,
installed monitoring instruments, set up observation stations;
send observation stuff in the wild animal farms, chicken farms,
fish pools, and several of mines, water wells, and springs. The
public is also informed to report any abnormal signs to the
experts. Several phone sets on his desk linked directly to
several observation stations. There are an alarm in the east and
the west end of the city with special staff to care. To make the
public getting familiar with the alarm, it has been practiced
twice. Whenever there are a serious of abnormal signs, he would
live in the office, day and night on duty.
One day, the
situation was not favorable. The Government officer lived in his
office for several days. On one night, the phones on his desk
run one and another. It was reported: the raccoon dog refused to
sleep; fish jumped off water; air bubble raised from the water
wells and became not clear. There were also reports that the
chicken and dog at home were irritable; the rats moved home… So,
the face of the officer changed to pale. His sweat fell from his
face. Finally, he waved his big hand: “Pull the alarm!” Just
this one order, the whole city broke apart. The miners went to
the above ground; the university students jumped from the
building; the pregnant women jumped off the bed, run faster than
a doctor; I brought my daughter to run out the house… However,
nothing happened. The next morning, the president of the
province called and shouted at the municipal president. The
public also laughed at him in the whole city. The municipal
president brought with a bag and went to the provincial city to
criticize himself, in a dejected motion.
Later, there were no people trying to
predict the earthquake. The earthquake cannot be predicted. The
earthquake Bureau that cannot predict an earthquake is still
earthquake Bureau. However, the way of the combination of the
experts and public is argued to be deleted and was called fraud.
From this event, it is not by chance event that Chinese medicine
is attacked. It is pretty an example. For many years, the
science is trying to keep its purity, performs a high-pressure
policy as “would rather have science grass, not pseudoscience
sapling”.
However, I do
not feel that the president was wrong in starting the alarm.
After the alarm, I went to the suburb. There were wads of black
fog in the field here and there;
gunpowder smelled in the air; the moon appeared as a pale
paper; several bright silver lines floating in front of the moon
up and down… the earthquake bureau measured there would have an
earthquake that night, thought the degree of the earthquake is
not high. I thought, the magma underground continuously floats,
tosses and turns, either slowly raise the ground, or break the
lands suddenly. As with the brain bleeding, no one knows from
where it would come up.
That night, the
earth did not quake, but that the brain blood vessel does not
break doesn’t mean the blood pressure was not increased to high.
These mysterious nature events make me think, the old saying
about many spiritual events from old generations might not be
superstition, but the earth light, earth sounds, and earth Qi is
moving. These things would be admitted when they come with the
earthquake, not during ordinary days. That president “cheated”
us bore no scientific evidence but should not say that it is
without scientific value.
In TV, I saw the army soldiers tried very
hard and saved a life, but the life died very soon. I hurried to
ask my daughter: “Though it is termed the pressing syndrome, can
we give the wounded person some herbal soup as the Hui Yang Jiu
Ni Tang? Do you prepare something for such a situation in the
future?” My daughter was also watching the TV. She said: “The
life is like a flame. Upon the critical time of the life, it is
urgent to save the flame, not to press the fire died with many
wood sticks. It is needed to supply the wood stick little by
little. This needs to adjust the concept of how to save a life”
In this huge event, western medicine
contributed a lot. Chinese medicine also send out teams for the
bone wound. But in the saving life, I hope they combined to
increase the survival rate.
I saw that the teachers in the disaster
area gave hungry students little cake to eat. It is called to
“bring Yang Qi”. Asking students to call each other, remind the
mind. All of these are in accordance with Chinese medicine and
also very effective. It makes me admire them. Though it was
somehow careless for our president starting the alarm at middle
night, I thought would it be proper only to sound a yellow
alarm? Would an earthquake pre-alarming cause scare? Could human
sleep without any worry? Can Real life exclude the worrying mind
away? If we have pre-alarm in ordinary days, it is better
education to human, than the effect from the negative political
study and moral education. In this way, people would have more
practice, and the house would be built more solid. All in all,
all are a benefit without any harm.
It is time that
we really need to put the science in a correct position in our
life.
Some people
lift the science up to the level of God for Chinese. They ask
people to respect it, to correct self unclear, an expenditure
with disaster and to endure the disaster without any doubt… But
Chinese do not accept any God. That the Christianity was not
largely spread in China, and science was not respected largely
in China, are not due to the poor science nature of Chinese, but
to the fact that Chinese would not set a God for themselves.
The God is too super from ordinary life. It
has too many conflicts with a human being.
It is not that
Chinese want to go against the science, but that the Chinese
culture always wants to bring the God down to the earth to eat
the same as the human, to be more close to the human. So,
Chinese would combine the science and folk methods and try to
have public measure and public prevention to predict the
earthquake. They would combine western medicine with Chinese
medicine. If they get sick, they will try various kinds of
medical system, western medicine, Chinese medicine, and the
witch. For this reason, there are “fraud” in China, again and
again, one after another. This is the true nature of the
Chinese.
One earthquake
quaked out a group of “fraud” with “Chinese medicine thinking”.
It makes the team of Chinese medicine “Bad elements” having more
members. I think, if there is any disaster in China in the
future, the team of Chinese medicine will grow larger.
I strolled with
my friend on the sandy beach beside a lake. I picked off a piece
of clay, a piece of bone. I told her, they were things six
thousands of years ago. She would not believe. I said, it can be
tested and proved by the measurement of the earth magnetic or
carbon radiation, and so on. She believes these measurements.
However, would people realize that these measurements are
similar to the diagnosis of Chinese medicine? No matter with the
measurement of the earth magnetic, the carbon radiation, earth
layer precipitated magnetic, or heat emission, year circles in a
tree, all are similar to the Chinese medicine: all need to set
up a sample, and the age of first group sample is known. First,
measure the average value from many of the samples with known
age, then get many of the average value from many other groups
of samples with known age, finally, using these average values
to draw a standard curve as the experiment curve, or the year
curve. This is the scale to measure the age of stuff.
If the comments
against Chinese medicine is rationing, these ways of scientific
research should be deleted and stop, since these methods are not
only similar to the diagnosis ways of the Chinese medicine but
also have the same problem as the Chinese medicine – the data
are not precise. If the data of the sample is not precise, could
a precise measurement be performed?
Those who oppose Chinese medicine think it
cannot, since it is not logical. However, there is almost no
precise sample in the world. Many random events could make every
sample hardly tolerate the assessment, analysis, or check,
resulting in a common phenomenon in many scientific research
departments, that the more chasing for a precise, the more not
precise. The requirement for an explicit accurate is hardly met
even in the science domain. It seems reasoning to ask for a
precise sample, but not realistic. The reality is “obscure”, but
the reference and adjustment of the data among variable scales
and many methods could allow the precise float out from the
obscure. Such a way of mastering the precise from the obscure
helps science come out embarrassing.
Therefore, the
presence of various measurement methods is to refer and adjust
each other. We need many methods to achieve from a blurred or a
faint outline to precise. It almost means a suicide of science
to keep only one so-called the best and the most scientific way,
but throw away and ban any others.
Based on large
samples of human body structure and functional changes in the
four seasons, the Chinese medicine formed the “four season,
eight steps, twenty-four sub-steps, the seventy-two
conditions”, such diagnosis scale. In such samples, there are
this or that errors. These samples can even be criticized and
rejected, but continuously checking new samples and adjusting
the new data after that, including the use of data from western
medicine, the error from each old data can be compensated, so
makes the Chinese find the precise from the blurred, to ensure
the precision of its diagnosis.
One person who
lived in the US and who opposed Chinese medicine criticized me
that I am not a Chinese medicine doctor but talked about Chinese
medicine is “the evidence of low society: no fine and clear
differentiation”. He said that, that the Chinese medicine doctor
can communicate with the patient is due to “Chinese medicine
belongs to the low level of knowledge of society” and “the
knowledge of a doctor and that of the patient is close”. He
commented: “In higher and advanced society, the difference in
knowledge level between the doctor and patient is huge, and it
is as huge as hard to image it”, and “the knowledge of western
medicine renews itself every seven years”, “the knowledge
learned seven years ago is insufficient to pass the exam today”,
and “the patient would never be able to discuss medical
professional questions”.
He made an
example: “In such condition, the relationship between the doctor
and patient is like that between a judge and a thief. In front
of a judge, the thief would always be trembling, waiting for the
convict by the judge”. He also said: “I use such comparison is
to tell Mrs. Ai Ning: it is completely wrong, many of the
successful cases by Chinese medicine that you summarized in low
society”.
I admit that
the examples I proposed can all be criticized and be denied. I
did not prepare to insist on an individual case. I am, anytime,
ready to give up my stronghold in front of criticizes. However,
even if I give up all of my strongholds, I may still stand on my
position.
The phenomenon
of not failure of Chinese makes some people very angry. You
would not be shameless when you defeated but not admitted it? To
me, however, it is only a continuous correction and adjustment
course, no failure to admit. Upon the impact from outside,
a self-adjustment and correction is to keep alive.
How could such a process be linked to death?
Western medicine is as the grass on the
ground. It dies every seven years. I suggest setting a degree
level, each of which is seven years, inside the western
medicine. Otherwise, it might not be fair.
It is not easy
to learn western medicine. Even if I understand all about my
body, after seven years, I will become knowing nothing about my
body. If I could live to 70, though my body remains one, the
western medical knowledge would have had to be invalid for ten
times. If an alien has a chance to read my medical reports from
a doctor, would he consider me ten species?
Can we expand the separation into high
(valid) and low (invalid) level western medicine out western
medicine, for it is hard to learn? If Chinese medicine is tree
stem, can we ask it to change stem every seven years? So far as
I know, in the US, the law is also hard to learn. Being a judge
is not as easier as a doctor. But in front of a judge, a
criminal is not always “trembling”, since to judge an accused
person is not by a judge, but by a jury composed of ordinary
people who do not know the law. The real reason that the US does
not apply the entire law or allow a high-level judge to convict,
but allow a group of ordinary people who do not know the law, is
to prevent the separation of society into high or low. Such a
way of a verdict by “low realization” is to tell us: even the
highest level of law needs to be applied according to the
understanding by ordinary people.
After all, the theory of Western medicine
is not empirical. Multiple methods are not only needed for
evaluating ages of stuff, to refer each other, to adjust the
data, to make the blurred into precise, but also needed for
prevention of science from bureaucrat and from the formation of
the social-estate system. The way to apply only one method will
help the science go to high level, so high so that it makes the
presence of Chinese medicine “guilty”. If what the science needs
is only the experiment and observation to prove it, those that
cannot approve it would be denied, would the science become real
and veritable God?
I am not
producing a bomb to write an article, as it is once produced, it
will be shot to target. My aim to write, first, is not for
battle; second, is not for disseminating truth; and third, not
ask readers to read me. Only after stimulating the reader’s own
longtime seen, heard, felt, thought, could reader feel happy
after reading. Once the mind of the reader has been stimulated,
the reader might not agree with me for my thinking or idea. He
may even criticize me. I however know, the truth is a living
thing. It does not exist in the course of talking, discussion,
or reasoning, but in the movement of spiritual connection and
communication between the author and the reader. Only when what
I listed, showed, talked and commented is associated with
whatever that has been in the heart and mind of the reader, can
my words get kind of true nature. My way of “to throw out a
minnow to catch a whale” to complete the connection with the
reader and the sequence of numerous connections can offset the
errors of individuality.
When Chinese medicine can still correct by
itself continuously, it would not fall failure in all position
after the loss of one stronghold. It is lucky that in the
combination of western medicine and Chinese medicine, there are
quite a few doctors who are combining, referring, adjusting
them, so to increase the level of diagnosis and treatment. My
nephew said, when he practiced surgery, he saw that the
president of the surgical department used herbs for patients
with intestinal obstruction. He let the patient drink half of
the herb tea and use another half to give an enema. So, the
herbs work from both upper and lower part of the body. It works
in most cases. Only if it does not work, will a surgical
operation be applied.
[1]
Qing Zhu’s entry and exit figure is the geometric proof
of the mathematician Liu Hui’s use of the relationship
between numbers and shapes in the late Eastern Han
Dynasty. The method is rich in oriental wisdom,
distinctive and easy to understand.
[2] Angry youth, literally meaning
angry young men, a Chinese slang term for young
nationalists.
[4] On November 21, 2007, a pregnant
woman hospitalized in
Beijing
Chaoyang
Hospital. She needs surgical
operation. The doctor needed her husband to sign on the
information of the pre-surgery sheet. He refused.
Without the sign by family member(s), the doctor dared
not to perform the surgical operation. They dared not to
take the responsibility for anything happened during and
after the surgical operation (the same as doctors in the
western countries). This delay caused the death of the
pregnant woman.
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