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 问中医几度秋凉()

TCM, its past, present and future(3)

Author: Ai Ning (China)

 录入者:医者佛心

作者:艾宁 

 

Chapter 64: Meaning of a dream

 

Yesterday, when I and my friend walked in the street, we met a doctor who came back from Beijing visiting his family. My friend consulted with the doctor about his disease. The doctor is a western medicine doctor. He performs surgical operation quite often. After asked some lab test results, the doctor told my friend to care about his liver and gallbladder and told him the relationship between the kidney and the liver and the gallbladder. My friend said his gallbladder has been removed. No problem needed to worry. The doctor pulled down his face and said: “What I mean the relationship between organs is not from western medicine point of view.” I laughed beside. I thought, if a doctor comes from a western world to China for practice, he must feel confused, in China, the line that separate the western medicine and Chinese medicine is not very clear. Also, the way and the manner of Chinese in the treatment would also confuse the doctor. 

 

I met a friend whom I did not see for several months. I asked where he has been. He said he went to doctor. He got leukemia. I looked at him with surprise. He looked the same as before. It is hard to see him a patient with leukemia. He said he went and lived in the hematology institute Tianjing (China). Doctors said he needed at least four chemotherapy periods to make the disease stable. During the first chemotherapy, he continued to collect information, analyzed the data comprehensively, then believed that one period of chemotherapy is enough. So he escaped from the institute without telling the doctors. He did not even tell his family. He went to the Northeast of China, found a Chinese medicine doctor, and started an herbal therapy until the disease was entirely under control. He said with very happy that he did not spend any money but got the disease under control. Seeing that he treated leukemia as a common disease, I have to admire him having a strong mind.

 

Can't help thinking, if he is western people, where could he run? It is very interesting the things in China. I know of an old doctor in Chinese medicine. He died the year before last year. He was originally a doctor in western medicine, but he later also learned Chinese medicine. I saw by myself that he cured cancer for my friend’s father. He used herbal paste in front and on the back of the chest, as well as let the patient drink herbal tea. I questioned why he charged so much since there are no such expensive herbs in the world. He told me, his herbal formula was left from another old doctor in Chinese medicine. The formula is not special, but the herbs were real ones that he got many years ago. After using, there would have no more available. He said: “I have only such amount of herb. With the use, it will be less and less. After it is used up, I cannot treat cancer any longer. I have to depend on income from these herbs for my old age”.

 

From this, I thought, that the reason that my mother excellent healing effect was also largely due to the high-quality herbs she used. She kept to collect and store the herbs. I question if she can still have similar good results if she worked in a big hospital. My mother had given me a piece of “Loutai Gao”(鹿胎膏). The deer placenta came from a deer that was hunt by a hunter. He brought it to my mother to prepare it into a herb paste. He later left a piece of the paste to my mother as a reward. My mother used it for the treatment of infertility for women. The results were excellent. Mother told me that it could not eat too much. I can only eat a small piece like the size of a soya bean. Sometimes, when I ate only such amount, I could feet a strong feeling from it. Many years later, when I want to prepare this herb for my daughter, I found that it is impossible to find real “Lutai Gao”. Though I went to the deer farm to purchase, I could not feel a clear effect even if I eat a bigger piece of it. Then I realized how good my mother’s herbs. In this time, I understand why Chinese medicine falls. If my mother could live to today, her healing effect might not be as good as that early years, since she would have no proper herbs to use. It is impossible that the current doctor goes to mountains to collect herbs as my mother or to collect herbs from folk. When I was young, I help my mother to put some herbs into wine, or fold some herbs with plastic paper and sealed with wax… That my mother was so confident when she worked in the clinic might be due to the herbs she had in her herbal cabinet.

 

My daughter’s Great master worked in Chinese medicine hospital and directed the herbal preparation by himself. Every dose of herbs to patients needed to be checked by him. What he checked was the quality of the herbs. He said, he does not chase for the quality of the herbs, but real herbs, not poisons or fake medicine. Also, it is pretty common that staff in the drugstore made mistakes. He had to prevent it. I suggested my daughter later work in town clinic. I told her that she might be able to get some valuable herbs such as “Bezoar”, or “Goubao ”.

 

To recall the things with my mother is not just to remember the old things with her. Any today in history is the history of today. Many ways used by mother that she could not explain clearly by herself, show meaningful today. The reason that I tried to talk about Chinese medicine with the description is that I want to be as objective as possible.

 

What is real in the world? It is not my dissertation, my comment or my conclusion. I only want to express the things as much as possible with the original way and leave it for the readers to analyze and to make a conclusion. Also, the reason why I descriptively talk about Chinese medicine is that I have a passion for the image. I also think that the information of the image is holographic.

 

I noticed that my mother paid much attention to the image in a patient’s dream when she was in clinic work. When a patient told “many dreams”, “scared dream”, she would ask the exact content of the dream. This is because the weak signal of disease is commonly showing to the person through the dream. Why the brain has the ability to perform logic reasoning and at the same time choose to express representative image in the human dream” For example, you may accept a job that you evaluated good for your future, but in your dream, you may dream you drive a plane with confused hands and feet, without a clear mind to drive. This dream expressed out your inner emotional status completely.

 

When my daughter was three or four years of old, I did not know if it would good to have her little bit obey or a little bit more independent. I then had a dream. I dreamed my daughter crawled into a tiger cage of a zoo. I dreamed her stroking the sleeping tiger like stroking a cat. I dared not yell, pressed down the voice to call her, she ignored it.… This dream vividly showed my confusion in educating my daughter.

 

When she was in teenage, she expressed out some characteristic of modern youth. I met confusion again. But this time, the meaning of the image in the dream remained unknown for me for a long time. I dreamed I had a big white silver earring in my right ear. It makes me bothered since I need to go to work every day. I tried to take it off but failed. I wanted to cover it, failed again. Later, I have to go out with it pending with confidence, pretending “I am beauty, I like it.” This dream made me feel baffling. My daughter heard this dream. She told me with tapping on my shoulder: “Mother, do I make you really so worry?” I realized it suddenly, understand its meaning.

 

Theory can only give us reasoning, but the image could send us all information including feelings. The brain is like a high-sensitivity instrument that responds to many unknown movements in the human body. It does not report to us by a dissertation all of this information is scanned. The brain scans the human body, not using an argument to report us, or even avoiding the rationality we store in consciousness and expressing it in an image. What is the meaning of this?

 

Chapter 65: Find the reason of disease by yourself

 

In previous years, I saw that my mother was not so serious when seeing a patient. If the neighbor, close or far away, came for consulting, she even did not feel their pulse, asked me to fold herbs for them. It left me very deep impression. It makes me feel that the practice in Chinese medicine is very simple. Now I understand, it does not mean that the Chinese medicine is simple, but that she knew those neighbors very well. This is just the advantage of the family doctor system practiced in the western world. 

 

After annual physical exam for this year, one colleague runs into my office, crying she got a heart disease, lifting CEG report in her hands. I was very nervous when I heard her crying. I was not nervous about her heart disease, but that she would make a big fuss in the treatment. Her body was under a weak and fragile balance. Any treatment could break down this balance, making her sick. The CEG showed blood insufficiency. But she did not have any loss of blood, how it became not enough so suddenly? If such imbalance of Qi and Blood were not due to the lack of blood, it would then be due to the relatively more of Qi. This made me thought about the culture and gymnastic activity in our company recently. It is somehow too hard for her, who almost never had physical exercise. But I could not tell out this reason; otherwise, she would refuse exercise forever. I needed to find other reasons. I asked: “Did you eat Chinese date recently?” She said: “Yes. Half pound every day. I have already had one big box. Is that due to the too much date eating?” I told her to stop to eat the date, care for rest and repeat the CEG after one week. Another colleague came to me with a lab test report. He said his blood cholesterol level increased. I asked him what he ate recently. He said he ate many tinned fish-seeds. I said you have already had your gallbladder removed. How can you bear such much fish-seeds? Stop to have it. Wait for one week and recheck the cholesterol. Later, the reports for both them were normal.

 

Nowadays, we are used to regarding the disease as a disaster coming outside. We think that it is the doctors’ job to find the reason, rather than ours. In fact, we can find the reasons for many diseases by ourselves by such tracing the reason to its roots.

 

The child of one of my friend studied in another city. One day, the school called and said the child got paralysis. The hospital there could not treat it. The school was sending the child, by ambulance to a hospital in the provincial capital. The couple of my friend was scared to stun. They hurried to that provincial hospital too. They called me on their way about this. Considering that they had no any relatives there, they had no clear mind, and I also feared to delay the treatment for the child, I went to them with the next train.

 

Used all high technology detections, various lab test, nothing was found wrong. The teacher said the child caught this paralysis, after exposure under the rain, during the military training course for all newly enrolled students. The child went to bed then could not move at all. I saw that there was no any red or swelling in the child body, I asked if he had a strong body attack with other students. He thought for a while, then answered: yes. He was running and collided with another one who ran from in front of him. That child fell down. All other students went to help that one. He did not fall down but collided against a tree. He felt numb in the whole body at that time. I found the doctors and told them this story. They came asked the child again, then they invited a female doctor, had the child had acupuncture treatment for twenty times. After more than 20 days, the child was discharged from the hospital.

 

My daughter said: in the internal department of western medicine, the doctor who has had training in Chinese medicine has an advantage than those who have only western medicine training. In the early years, I denied my mother’s lifestyle. I thought that she was not in the mainstream of society. She had no social reputation. She was pure, young, not know society, lack of social experience… However, after I went through most of my life, I basically deny my own social value.

 

Recent days, one of my friends brought her son, who just graduated from university and started a job. My friend wanted me to give a "political education" and tell him the unspoken rules of society.... When my daughter was young, whenever I asked her to do something, she would ask me why. Every time I told her, it is not that I want her to do so, but society wants every one of its members to do so. We all are trying to adapt the society. We think it is normal to do so even we need to pay many costs. It seems that without doing so, we cannot live or cannot be a member of society. However for me, I hold much such social experience in my mind, when I turn back to have a look, I need to ask, are all these social experience real learning?  

 

If there is no comparison with my mother, I would not at all doubt my experience in living and in common conversions. Several days ago, in a professional conference, all of us felt that such social experience are precious. However my mother lived her whole life, without any social experience, not knowing any social hiding rule, even had no attention for self-protection. She lived in calm and peace. Even in the darkest time of “Cultural Revolution”, when my father was picked up, beaten, and tortured, at least for the reason that his family occurrence belongs to farm landlord, she opened private clinic but had no any trouble. Is it extraordinary?   Is the social experience precious, and useful? Now, I thought, mother’s life was also socialized, and it was really socialized. She practiced medicine but never hang advertising board. She depends on her good skill, good reputation and the praise from patients.

 

People at every social level, in every age, came to her. She was almost their family doctor. Her clinic was similar to the current “community clinic”. How can we say that her relationship with others was not a social relationship? The society that was constructed with such social relationship endured the attack of the “Cultural Revolution”, whereas in our current society, what we have is a more cold relationship.

 

Compared with my mother, how many values of my social experience and how much necessary it is? That I support my daughter to learn Chinese medicine, is also for the reason that, I do not want her like me, learned a lot of social experience, spend a lot of intelligent minds, but only get a living in society. Human life does not need all of these. However, when I was young, I learned all of these as learn a class, and believed that it is true things. My mother only paid attention to her Chinese medicine. She could live well. She did not know any reasoning or rationing for business, not that personal relationships… She was not cheated, or scared, no any conflict in medicine. Her social relationship was stable, solid, true, natural and safe. Her root was in the ordinary people. Therefore, she never felt the society as complex, as dangerous. She did not feel the bitter of people’s heart. This made her pure and simple. No matter how my father explained to my mother that society was how complex, the heart of people was how hard to feel, my mother appeared no feeling and any action to protect herself. I felt, however, my father was right. I intended to protect myself, and kept such learning forever. Now, when I turn back to have a look, I found that if the social relationship was not established on human being basis, nor a natural basis, we would not be able to feel safe, no matter how we try to protect.

 

My mother help others with her ability, she was also helped by others for all of her life. Her relationship with others was not established on the basis of money. For people who afford the treatment, they would pay for it. For people who cannot afford, or for people who were old, or for a child who came by himself, there was no money charged. If she heard that someone was sick, she would send me to have a look. She not only went to the home but also send some fruits to the patients. I said my mother had three Great masters.  She told me the first and the third Great masters do not care money. The second somehow preferred money and had money too. But his son died of a pot smoker. My mother did not leave money to us. Her dress or food was not better than others. It was common that some people send her gift. At that time, the most common gift were fruits, cake, or tinned food, and so on. However, she never allowed my brothers and me to touch it. I remembered one time, my mother did not allow my senior brother to eat a cake. For this, my grandmother cared for her grandson, blamed my mother, and brought her grandson on the street to buy a sesame seed cake for him. I always send such things, for the name of my mother, to old people in various homes. Before I grow up into an adult, I never ate a whole apple. We always shared an apple. A quarter of apple would be eaten by me with front teeth scratching for a long time. The taste was so delicious.  

 

Chapter 66: No wonder in Chinese medicine

 

Because when I was young, I had to carry water on shoulders, carry firewood on back. Longtime overweight labor work made my spine into a curve shape. Under X-ray film, it looks like an “S” shape. I ridiculed at it, and said, curve tree is also a tree. Curve tree can live too. If it is corrected straight, it would be damaged to die. A little bit more than ten years ago, when I walk, I was collided by a very strong man. I stuck to the wall, hard to move at all. I stood for a long while to start move again and strolled home. From that time, the left side of my body is not smooth. Especially for the left arm, it was numb and weak. Later it lost feeling to pain or temperature. I believed it was due to that collision, that made something wrong to my curved spine that had an original problem already. Since I saw that the result for the treatment of cervical spondylosis is not satisfied, in addition to the fact that I was very busy at that years, the problem was delayed for six to seven years. One time in a hospital, I had my blood taken. The nurse is a new one. She tried for three times but failed. So she felt a kind of worry. I advised her not to feel worried but repeat it slowly. I said that my arm did not feel any pain actually, so she did not need to feel worried. One doctor who past us criticized me: “You are really ridiculous. She has already worried for no success. If you dig at her in this way, it is better to criticize her directly.” I cried you mistaken me. I said my arm indeed had no feeling at all. It was as a wood almost… The doctor felt strange. He asked me what was wrong with it. I said it was cervical spondylosis. He said it is a joke. You patient can name new terms by yourself. How could cervical spondylosis have such symptom? He checked me all over and believed that I got a tumor in the brain, asked me to have CT scan. The cost for CT at that time was very high, so I refused. I opposed him: “If the tumor is in the brain, how it stops growth for six to seven years?” He felt my words reasonable, so he said: well, you do not need to check furthermore here. I am the top expert here. You need to seek a higher level expert. He wrote a name for me, asked me to see another doctor in another city and bring the result back him. 

 

After half a year, I had a chance to find this expert, during my business trip. His diagnosis is: hollow in the spine. My friend who came with me asked him, is this problem treatable? The expert said it is heard that it can be treated. Heard this, I knew there was no hope. My friend again asked, what would happen after continuous development? The expert said, of course, paralysis. My friend wanted to ask something again, I pulled her out the hospital. I said, what do you want to ask? Did you not find that it was a disease hardly treated? From that time, I prepared to live in a paralysis condition. Upon the winter the year before last year, the skin in my left arm started to have an ulcer, muscle shrink, necrosis in nails, then the fingers hardly to move, to bend or to stretch. My friends felt very pity: Unfortunately, your beautiful hand. Now you cannot attend the competition for “Beauty Fingers”. My daughter performed acupuncture to me. She told me that the profession in the nervous department of her university said, such condition would be only maintained not to further development, but not cured. I knew from my heart. It can only be maintained, not improved. Seeing that my beauty fingers became a claw as an animal, I pretended a brave spirit to accept the scientific truth.

 

One day, one of my friends got sick. I brought her to see my daughter’s Great master. He saw my fingers, asked what’s wrong, and insisted on having treatment by him. He soon started prescription. I smiled: “Well, my case is also a kind of difficult case. You can do an experiment on me, to explore how to solve this problem.” My daughter’s Great master felt unhappy right away: “Why you said I am doing an experiment on you? Chinese medicine never believes the disease is not curable or hard to treat. Whichever way it needs for the treatment, just use that way. If the treatment matches the disease condition, no disease is not reversible”.

 

Though I did not wish to cure my problem, consider the need to delay the development of the disease, I agreed to drink his herbal tea. He asked me to prepare the herbs into a powder. I felt it is bothering to eat the powder. So I make them into pills with honey. I ate two pills every day. I thought, so severe disease, how such two pills could work? I kept taking the pill for almost one year. The shrink of the arm muscle was stopped. The lost muscle came back mostly. My fingers can stretch, close. Now I can practice sound finger as used in the Spanish dance.

 

Some people said that to be able to cure the hard and complicated disease is the last excuse for Chinese medicine. I thought those of diseases that are believed hard to cure by western medicine becomes curable in Chinese medicine. Can this not make people feel that Chinese medicine is magical? For this, my daughter said, there is initially no mystery. One hundred years ago, no matter what disease that was cured by Chinese medicine, we feel it is normal and natural. Only compared with western medicine, Chinese medicine appears mysterious from time to time. 

 

Currently, the diseases that are termed hard to cure by western medicine has been described in the early Chinese medical literature. In the treatment, there are also rules and formulas to follow. How should it be hard? I laughed: in this way, the mystery of Chinese medicine is given by western medicine? Daughter said "yes". Without comparison, neither side is mysterious. After her explanation, I accepted the fact with easy that my “claw” turns back to “beauty fingers” again.

 

My daughter’s Great master studies the bible level literature in Chinese medicine every day. In his eyes, my condition belongs to “Pianku ”, not care about the term “spine hollow syndrome”, he used herbs to nourish my blood and Qi, dredge meridians, not thinking about whatever disease in the spine. Though my arm is controlled by the spine, I cannot prevent, when I moved my arm smoothly and freely, from thinking that the leader is of course to lead the follower. If the follower arm moves actively, would also create active stimulation to the spine?

 

My daughter’s Great master is very dignity. It makes him slightly away from the mainstream of thinking, so to be able to keep some nature characteristic in Chinese medicine. Though he also used western medicine terms to explain disease for patients, it is to arm himself, for the sake to have proper communication with a patient. In his bone, he is still a Chinese medicine doctor.  

 

Chapter 67: Woman and witch

 

For any question, if it is so difficult to argue, if it is returned into its existence, it would not be so hard to find its reasoning to exist. The nature of Chinese medicine, its co-operation between patient and doctor, its prediction, simplicity, natural, cheap, used by ordinary people, charity, equality, etc., all not entirely determined by the medical nature of the Chinese medicine, but by the survival rule formed by traditional Chinese medicine on the road of survival and development for thousands of years.; it has never been supported by the government. The presence of Chinese medicine, of course, will have its real reason to exist. Such reality reason does not disappear even to today.

 

The independence of Chinese medicine can supply many valuable references for the development of the current medical system. Chinese medicine continued to correct its relationship with the reality, seeking the best combination with the reality, so to gain its life. Through the expressing of the Chinese medicine in the three generations of my family, it is clear the reason for the fall backward of the Chinese medicine, and for the difference between Chinese medicine and western medicine. Human life is not only the life of one person but also a continuous life of generations, such as my mother, mine and my daughter’s. 

 

When we put the life of one person into the continuous lives of generations, many personal characteristics and many occasional factors start to show a common characteristic and necessary. Even many minor cases could imply to current people valuable information. If we do not close our eyes, do not only stick to the science technology, the knowledge and wisdom obtained by careful observation of life may not be less than the science.

 

I have a friend who denies the wisdom of a woman. I asked him smiling: did you think that the wisdom of human being comes only from the gene of the father, not from the mother either? The gene of a mother is only a hollow shell? He asked: the man depends on the society and science to develop wisdom, what woman depends? I said: woman depends on observation and feeling. In history, women with wisdom were usually regarded as a witch. When I see this word “” in Chinese, I felt kind and warm and felt it bears philosophy meaning. This Chinese character looks similar to the human brain, with left and right half of brain. One side represents the inner human, and another side represents the outside human… When my mother was alive, she taught me Qigong. When I have trouble in the body, she would ask me to “hold a movement of Qi”. I had asthma when I was young. Since I felt hard to breath, I had to practice the Qigong breath. Later, when I got trauma and hollow spine syndrome with severe pain, I also used Qigong to release the pain. Later I also find that the Qigong has a function of release emotion. Whenever I met some emotional conflict which appears hard to solve, I would sit for a while with a mouth of Qi in the mouth. Then, I felt the Qigong could open a meeting room in my heart, allowing every part to sit down for a meeting.

 

Then you would find that the components of self were very complicated. My daughter asked me how complicated it is. I made an example to her. When she was young, one time she was very naughty, which made me very angry. I pulled her to me and wanted to beat her. But my arm suddenly felt a spasm in the air, couldn’t fall. My daughter, who was initially scared, could not prevent from laugh by seeing this. Later I explained to her, my grandmother was very cruel. She beat child very heavy. My mother was kind. She did not beat a child. When I saw my daughter naughty, the gene in my body that came from my grandmother orders me to lift arm to beat, but the gene from my mother asked me not to do so. In my heart, since I did not beat the child, I felt angry against my mother’s part. So and so, the conflict in my heart made me beaten my self on my head.

 

To release my inner conflict, I had to sit, holding a mouth of air in the mouth, opening an emotional room, allowing my grandmother and my mother have dialogue. As the way usually mother advised my grandmother with soft matter, in my heart, the part of my mother would advise my grandmother stop angry. If I do not create a chance for them to have a democracy meeting, though they have died for many years, their conflict continued in my body. If I omit their conflict, they would use my body as war field. In a war, besides both sides in the war, the most damage might be for the field, not to speak of the situation that they both have become part of my body? How severe my loss would be?

 

If our understanding of life is simple, the spacecraft we launched to the Mars will return without any finding. If our understanding to life is deeper and deeper, we would need to launch spacecraft to the Mars again and again.

 

That Chinese medicine is not the mainstream of medicine system, is also the reason to deny it by some people. Such denying something with its result is too simple. 

 

Chinese people think everything has its most proper time. If this time is not good for one thing, it would be good for another thing. If it is not good time for another thing, it would be good for this thing. The time and space co-exist. Every time there is a time disease. The disease is expressed as the mainstream. For example, we all feel unhappy to the current mainstream education system, but is there any no-main stream education system? Who can start a second education system? Even a small “Mother class” cannot be endured by the mainstream education system. I have had tried to change the way of teaching in class. But the student stood up and told me, teacher, the class should not be touched as such. Who can stop their children to go to school, like Mrs. Zheng Yuanjie (郑渊洁) against << Education Law >>? My daughter tapped my shoulder and said: a young person needs to be as a container, to store knowledge and fertilizing thinks; when they become old, they start to secrete thinks, “when the libido is full, it would spill out by itself”.  it is needed to make a tube for them to export thinks.

 

From my mother to my daughter, Chinese medicine went a big detour back in my family. Sometimes, my daughter criticized me that this detour is too big. If my mother’s experience can be passed to me, my daughter would be able to stand on other’s shoulder (to be excellent Chinese medicine doctor). But Chinese medicine was razed to the ground in my time. I feel very guilty in my heart.

 

As Chinese, I feel guilty to my old generations. To correct my mistake, I can only try my best to describe out my memory to Chinese medicine in my young age, to make it as a reference to my daughter. If it can inspire others, would my guilty feeling less?

 

Chapter 68: “Earth-born Aliens”

 

When my mother was seeing a patient, if my father was also at present, he might make some naughty sometimes. He would encourage patients to accept the new scientific technique treatment in western medicine. He got some terramycin tablets. He told me not to drink Guizhi Tang, but take the tablet. One time, there came a patient with a dark color face. My mother felt strange for the dark color on his face and she was unable to find the reason. My father saw it. He chatted with the patient, asking his job, etc. Then he brought a basin of water and a piece of soap. He asked this man wash his face. After twice washing, his face was much bright. The reason for his dark face was that his work was to burn coal tar. Every time, he washed his face not completely. For a long time, the face looked dark. For this thing, my father felt pleased with himself, laughed a lot at Chinese medicine and boasted his judgment.

 

Now, the way of some people against Chinese medicine. To me, it looks like the way of my father before. However, my mother advised me to drink some Guizhi Tang anyway. Mother asked me to have an observation: the use of western medicine usually suppressed the Yangqi in the body. She feared that my surface disease would change into inside problem after taking the western medicine.

 

I feel that the value of Chinese medicine is to supply a view to look at western medicine. The contribution of Chinese culture to the world culture is the same way.

 

Does western medicine or western culture need another view to look at it? Why when talking about the western and eastern culture, there is only either admire or belittle? If I say that my motion to study Chinese medicine is to explore and study the jade of western science, is it ok? If I say that I polish a Chinese diamond bit, is to carve the western chinaware, is it ok? If there was no a mother of Chinese medicine, but only a father of chasing for science, I may not, for the whole of my life, get a view to assessing the current science.

 

How could we say that to assess the science is understood to throw away the science? The western science and Chinese medicine in my family is my father and my mother. It is very difficult for me to separate the scientific spirit from my father, neither to separate the traditional culture with my mother. No one can make a decision to chose one and threw another, nor push them divorce.

 

If I lose my parents’ culture, I still have another choice, that is my grandmother’s folk philosophy. My grandmother believed that marriage was bigger than one man and one woman. Though the worldview of my father and my mother is different, under that domination of my grandmother, they got married anyway and had four children. That professor (Mr. Zhang Gongyao), who asked to sign to delete Chinese medicine, why not first break the marriage with his Chinese medicine wife? Therefore, as correct as my grandmother said, nothing is more important than to live.

 

The competition between Chinese medicine and western medicine, and that between the Chinese culture and the western culture, all ask the occurrence of a bigger culture that can unite the two. That I talk about Chinese medicine through talking about my mother and my daughter, is for the reason that I believe the feeling is the root. Feeling and the reasoning is the root each other. None can stand alone. If there is only feeling, there would be no way to describe. If there is only reasoning but no feeling, it would be as an alien. It would also be hard to talk with an alien, since the nature of language and the culture is to “quote out of context”, leaving a lot of space.

 

When we teach child essay, the simple way is to make a short or omitted description for the things that are well known by people in current time. However, this does not work for aliens. They are outside the human world, not experience any time of human life generation. Therefore, they have no perception to many human “theory”, cannot understand things that are well known by the current human being on the earth. So, the metal plate we send to the universe, to them, is a picture, not words. Scientist Hua Luogen (华罗庚) suggested sending the ancient Chinese picture “Blue-Red come in and out”(青朱出入图)[1] to them. I recommend to send them the Yin-Yang and Ba-Gua. Why would human civilization be summarized in this plate as an image or imagination? On the earth, in current times, we produced some “earth aliens”. They hold the reasoning like aliens. They do not adjust their time-space position, not to build time-space “Einstein—Rosen bridge”, not to study those things that are well known by many other human beings. They cannot understand a traditional culture, feel hard to understand many current things. They sit down there waiting to adjust things. They hold a one-inch long logic, to adjust this is not correct, and that is not correct either.

 

Contrary to the children’ one-inch logic, the logic of these “earth aliens” is away from the reality of the earth. Looking from the Chinese medicine, they got the disease of time-space disorder. Only aliens can ask a human being to split the feeling and the reasoning. In the current situation of rational paranoia, returning to emotions, in order to re-select rationality with emotion as the root, this is the way for Chinese to return to the source.

 

Recurrence is not only the way of some fish and birds. It is needed for human in spirit to return to its root, so to start new spring and branch. Chinese care about the importance of time and space relationship. It is not only the need in the Chinese medicine for disease treatment but also in the Chinese prediction. If we learned the change of the time and space, it would not be so hard to understand the thinking of the ancient Chinese. If there is no understanding of the knowledge in different time and different environment, how could we have a thoroughly master of human knowledge?

 

To kill the other culture by the name of science is to make the science wear a lousy reputation. It is not the correct way to love science. The current logic in criticizing is separate people into right or wrong, wisdom or foolish, good or bad, dignity or lowly. It is actually to exclude the others and make comments. Therefore, we can see in the scholar discussion there is full of laugh at, blame, rant, and rave. From the beginning, I thought it is an education level of a person. Later, I realized that it is the question of logic. The big mistake of this logic is that it does not respect people, denies the value of human life and the significance of life. How could a theory that is correct combat the human being? 

 

When I was 12 years of old, I followed my father to the countryside to live. My father advocated the use of scientific way of farming, by using high-quality seeds and fertilizer and by using agricultural mechanization. I saw by my self the process my father guided them to learn. In fact, these young persons in the countryside were very smart. The role of my father is to inspire them. My father, who kept laughing at Chinese medicine, when he inspired the interest of these young persons in the medicine, what he used is a model of an ear, and the herbal books he stole from my mother! Started from the ear acupuncture and herbal therapy, he encouraged two girls as the “barefoot doctor” in the village, to use the simplest way to treat the simple disease first. At this time, why my father did not encourage the use of western medicine? The reason is no money! His seeder machine was made of wood! Father asked some land from the team leader. He asked the “barefoot doctor” planted some herbs. I helped them to collect some herbs.

 

My father described to me the future society of human. He said there would have the development of the material and the spirit two aspects. The development of material is very fast, but the spiritual aspect is very slow. For example, he predicted, the Chinese character will not only be simplified, but also be Pingyin-formed, then into a world language – the whole world speak the same language. At that time, there would be some people who dedicate themselves to the creation of the world language.

 

Father said, the world language is neither the perfect one. The best one would be mathematics. In the future society, everyone is a mathematician. Why his prediction does not work? It is an interesting thing.

 

Chapter 69: Witch

 

When we talk about Chinese medicine, the opponents mentioned it with witch and fortune-teller. If this is correct logic, when we mention a leader, we should regard him a corrupt official. When we mention a judge, we comment him might be a corrupt officer too. This is another logic to create “angry youth”[2]. However, even for the future-teller, there are different styles: the “scholar style” and the “itinerant”. They are not the same. The scholar style was created and studied by those of ancient Chinese who were most clever; the “itinerant” style continued to use the study results into the practice. They worked together and helped each other in the development. 

 

If we look the “scholar” style future-teller, its nature is actually philosophy. I not only not look down the witch in the ancient times, but also keep study attitude to the Chinese culture of ghost and supernatural beings. Even for the witch in the current time, I do not simply deny them. Many years ago, one of my friends told me, the wife of one of her friend was a witch. She cared about some “pseudo-disease” for people, from time to time. One day after a classmate meeting, her husband drunk a lot. A friend sent him home. His wife can not only tell out the number of the man and woman in the party but also the number of the wine bottles they drunk. The friend said it was extraordinary, that the wife was an ordinary house woman. When she talked, however, her realization to the things was very high level and spoke on the spot. When my friend talked this to me, we were walking along the street. She pointed out one house on the side of the road and said she was to visit a friend in that house, and wanted me to accompany.

 

After we came in, we saw several people were already there. My friend pointed to one of the women and introduced that she was that witch. Now I understood that she brought me here to have an assessment on this witch. My friend introduced me to the witch: “This is my friend, would you please see what matter is with her now?” The witch said: “I do not need to see for her. She knows what’s matter she has”. I smiled: “I am not a witch, how do I know?” The witch said: “You did not find that, when you gave people a suggestion or gave them an idea, it worked well?” I justified that it was the result of my study and learning, no relationship with witch. The witch told my friend: “Her mother was also a doctor”. My friend looked at me surprisingly: “Your mother is also a witch?” Before I said anything, the witch said: “Her mother graduated from standard school.” I said: “Since she graduated from school, her medical work would have nothing related with a witch”. The witch said: “Well, if there was no relationship, how her healing result was so good, without any medical accident?” Heard this, I opposed: “If it is a witch see patient, it is enough to have people as you, why she need to study hard for so many years?” The witch said: “Many people are studying hard too, but not everyone can master the skill, neither everyone can exercise the job as working for a bounden duty.” I smiled: “If you change the spiritual nature of human being into an image as a super-nature, I would not oppose you. But the question that I want to ask you is: if you have no technique but only the good heart to help people, how you can serve your bounden duty?” The witch pointed to all the persons in the room: “Indeed I have nothing, but when I help people, is it that I have nothing?” I asked: “Wouldn't you think that you are cheating?” She said: “I do not feel that I am cheating you. Do you feel that I am cheating you?” I smiled. I did not feel she was cheating me, but felt that I met wisdom woman, listening to whom is worthwhile than reading ten years of books.

 

My friend said: “What you are talking about? I almost cannot understand. Please talk about some real things”. She asked the witch: “Tell me, do you think that my friend may find a new husband or new partner?” The witch said: “Would not”. My friend asked: “Why?” The witch said: “Because there is a male snake in her body occupying her, not allow any other man close to her.” My friend and I laughed. Though I laughed what she said pretty ridiculous, but she could make a very clear image summary of complex psychological factors. This is very interesting. In fact, that my friend could not understand the words that came from an ordinary woman, is due to the limitation of the current thinking model. Now I remembered the program host, Mr. Zhang Yue, of Chinese television station << Half Sky >>. She was surprised to the countryside farm woman in Shaanxi province, Mrs. Liu Xiao (刘小), who has no any block to communicate with her. This is the same situation as this friend. We always believe that knowledge can only come from the book, school, teacher, do not know the human is a learning animal. It can learn from inside too. The wisdom as the plants on the land, it can grow naturally in the natural environment. Nothing strange. The current learning model and manner makes us used to look the ordinary people from a high position down.

 

Compared with today, the early development of human being is commonly and naturally believed low, primitive, passive, simple. Where would have godhood with them? We now try to clear any remaining primitive things from our body. We are with a human face but snake tail. We cannot only want to keep the face but not the tail. I do not know our history of the human face with a snake tail. We cannot only keep the head but not the tail.

 

One of my friends vividly described our current development is a man with paralysis lower body drives an electric car. Our current presence status is as an adult. We can only say his reality of development, but not the possibility of development when he was a baby. We, adult, lost how many possibilities for development? But we proudly look the child there naïve and innocent. I not only believe that the “Human maker” was not lazy, but also that the evolution goes completely without leaving not-finished residue. Those we omitted the feeling level things, so-called low level of us and those we are trying to get rid of might be the most important things. The decision through the natural ability, rather than through reasoning, might be the best and wisdom one. Some things that were denied by science, thrown away by reasoning, contain surprising wisdom. They imply again and again much bigger logic than the science that we have already had in hand. 

 

Chapter 70: Ant-ball in flood

 

One time, I was in a flood. I struggled for two hours without any hope to touch land. I had to consider my body power, ready to accept to die to the bottom of the river. Then, I saw a very huge dark red ball running in front of me – it is a ball of many ants. They hold each other into a ball. To avoid drowning for those ants that touched the water, the ant ball rolled continuously, from inside to the outside, clock-wised… I was stunned. The age of the ant is not long. Not to speak of an individual, even for ten or hundreds of the ant generations might not be able to meet such massive flood. Where they got this knowledge to survive? If I pick up one ant from this ant ball, ask it how it knows? You can say that they did so is due to instinct, and by chance. But the way they used to protect the species is not science? The wisdom is so much great over the ants, that they handle themselves to the fate by instinct, which appeared to be the most wisdom way. Therefore, to give oneself to fate sometimes might not be a passive action. When I was in the flood, realized that there was a logic that is bigger than individual and than the science, I felt more energy that made me survived.

 

I talked so much, someone might say that I still did not talk out what is Chinese medicine. I know that the amount of knowledge in Chinese medicine cannot be compared with western medicine. Every term, my daughter brought back the western medicine textbooks, every of which looked thick like a brick. Indeed, there were not so many books in Chinese medicine. I said before, the storage space and the searching power in a human brain is not better than the “Deep Blue” computer. Once the searching ability of a doctor’s brain is not enough, there might be a medical accident.

 

I studied a medical accident case very carefully. This was a very good doctor. However, due to the lack of knowledge and the limitation of his searching ability, he has a mistake in assessment, causing a medical accident. In the meeting of the medical assessment committee, he was questioned, blamed, even laughed at. I thought, these experts had a higher title than him, older than him, more experience than him. They are a group. What they did is the “clever after happened”. How they had no understanding of a doctor working in a community hospital?

 

In a big hospital, there always are many doctors consulting for one patient, not including a large amount of detection or test machines and the operation stuff for these machines yet. Does this not mean that the western medical knowledge cannot be remembered all by the brain of one person? Therefore, why western medical doctors tend to be in a group, why they tend to work in a big hospital, why they depend on high technology technique, why people tend to go to a big hospital for healthcare, are all not clear? People want to go to Beijing so to feel they did all they can do. What kind of medical facility can get becomes the standard to separate the social levels. It is indeed the technique logic determines the thinking logic of people.

 

The study period for a medical university is five years, longer than an ordinary university. Along with the development of the medicine, and when the medical knowledge double, how can we learn the western medicine? We know that in western countries, the medical student needs to learn ten years before they can see a patient independently. Would it be prolonged to twenty years or thirty years? Will it happen that the student graduates at 50 years of old, then six to seven doctors see a patient? Alternatively, develop a robot that can work as a doctor for the diagnosis and treatment?

 

I admit that the knowledge in western medicine is very “solid”. As a comparison, the knowledge and technique in Chinese medicine is less. The learning in Chinese medicine is kind of “not solid”, “not concrete”. After I lived for the fifty years, I realized the usefulness of the “not solid”. When I was young, I tried to learn the technique, tried to occupy the knowledge. When I become older, I, however, try to pay less attention to the technique and knowledge. My profession is a lawyer, but now I try not to use law, e.g., not to use my professional knowledge to solve a problem. I try to make my inner “void”. I let the things that I faced into my inner side as a whole, not being separated into pieces.

 

The ancient Chinese compared the “void” status as a lake of water. After a could or bird flies over, there would be its shadow on the surface of the water. It is used to explain that, with coming of things, there is feeling in the heart; after away of the things, there is nothing left in the heart. Therefore, Chinese medicine is the “void” without anything in it. My mother’s third Great master paid much attention to the “void” status in heart and Chinese medicine. One day, when he explained the “void” to my mother, my father was the presence. Later when my father mentioned this to me, he said, indeed, there is nothing in the Chinese medicine. The “void” is to scare people. It is to sweet-talk, to do things according to the current condition, and to do things without principle… I agreed with my father.

 

Now I know, it is not hard to learn technique and to learn knowledge. It is however tough for current people to master this “void”. Our heart has been filled up in solid. It makes our original sense, the hearing, the smelling, the feeling, etc. all regressed.

 

One time, I accompanied two colleagues to find another colleague. I saw him coming, so I was very happy. These two colleagues laughed at me too short-sighted that I can regard a stranger as a colleague. After that man coming close, I have a look, it is indeed not my colleague. However, I do not admit failure. Since I was short-sighted, I recognize people not by face but by body shape. The body shape of this man appeared similar to my that colleague. So I reached that man, asked him if he knows my colleague. The man said: “He is my older brother.”

 

The year before last year, my uncle came to see me. We did not see each other for 25 years. I brought my nephew to meet him in the railway station. I told my nephew about the characteristics of my uncle. I told him, even if the chance that I recognized him is fifty percent, the chance that he recognized me is also fifty percent. Altogether, it would be hundred percent. However, my uncle passed us, did not recognize me, neither did I recognize him. But after out of the station, my uncle recognized my daughter. This made me very strange. My daughter looks like her aunt, but I look like my grandmother. How my uncle recognized my daughter? My uncle saw my daughter and said: “How only you come to see me?” My daughter answered: “They are inside the station.” Then she called me: “Your uncle is here.”

 

 

Chapter 71: Type A person

 

Recently, one of my friends told her sorry thing to me, that has been a burden on her mind for 20 years, and that she and her son both got type B hepatitis. She sent this to me by text through a cellular phone. I did not answer it. She asked if I am upset, not give her a pardon? I returned her message: would the hepatitis influence friendship? If by chance my child got it, would she never tell me? Her son usually ate and lived in my home when he was young. He was almost as a child of my home. She said she felt weighty burden since when another of my friends, who also had hepatitis, ate at my home, I gave her separated bowls and tablespoons, etc. When I invited friends at home, I usually prepared server-self dinner. So, she did not mention at her disease and pretended as same as I. She excused that, according to her experience, the type B hepatitis does not transfer to others through sharing common tools for a meal. Her evidence is that her husband and the husband of my other friend were not transferred to this hepatitis. I was very upset about her excuse.

 

Her way made me feel sorry to my daughter, so I told her and repeated what my friend excused. My daughter, however, was pretty generous and accepted her excuse. She asked me: “Do you know why the two husbands were not transferred?” I don’t know why her husband, who ate and slept together with his wife with type B hepatitis for twenty years but were not transferred. My daughter reminded me: “Think about the personality of your friends and their husbands?”

 

Those two of my friends are both type A personality. They insist, careful, asking exact, quick action, chase for perfect. If one of them wants me to buy something from the market, I have to change my personality into the type A temporally. I need to have a look of the whole market first, then chose the one that is perfect in shape, color, package and so on. When the seller measures the weight, I need to push out my head to see if the measurement is correct. If I buy the same thing for my self, I will not pay too much mind do this way. One New Year’s Eve, the son of one of them came to my home for help. He violated the discipline of computer bar and feared penalty by his parents. I padded my chest that it would not. In the New Year’s Eve, even the cruelest landlord before, would treat the slave kindly. However, the second day, the child showed me his wound that was beaten by his parents. It made me very angry and had a quarrel with them. I did not see any parents not so lenient. But their husbands were very kind, lenient, no resentment. My daughter said those of my friends were very easy to get upset and not consent, how could their livers be good? On the other side, their husbands are not as their wife. If they had liver disease, with no more than one month, the disease would be improved well. Her explanation made me laugh. In this case, people deserved their own disease.

 

Due to the nature of our work, people in our company, especially those who are the leaders, mostly type A persons. I know the work of us needs such type A person. My slogan is: “Dote on them. Let them A being more A!” So, on my computer, there are several sample formats of self-criticism. Once there is any conflict between a colleague and the leader, I would first of all consciliate, then write a self-criticism for the sake of my colleague, hand it to the leader. Think about it: the type A person asks more in the job. They bear heavy emotional stress on their liver. If they got angry with others, they would be hurt much more. How dangerous it would be to their body!

 

Therefore, such a simple sheet of self-criticism is the herbal formula for the liver Fire. The work needs all to do. But there is always someone who worked more critical, more careful, and more strict, so spend more of their bodies. The only several times of over regular performance of mine were done by the push of the persons with the type A personality. It is hard to keep the moving speed together them, so it is needed to prepare several sheets of self-criticism.

 

One day, I made a series of humor film with the computer. All felt funny and humor after looking, but the leader felt very angry. I hurried to write a self-criticism and handed over to him. If this self-criticism was read out, it would be heard as a comic dialogue. But he did not laugh but read it carefully. He felt that my self-criticism was very critical and serious. He had hepatitis too.

 

Type A person works under high pressure. They would not feel it after a long time. In a summer vacation, my daughter came to my company to see me. One of my male colleagues asked her to feel his pulse. My daughter said his pulse suggested damage of his body Energy (Yuan Qi). She insisted on asking the reason. My colleague said he did not have any surgical operation or tuberculosis. He just has had an annual body exam, and nothing was found especially wrong. He had distance running every day, perform up-down lifting, and felt nothing wrong. Upon saying, he showed us his strong muscle. However, my daughter still closed her eyebrows, thinking the reason. I advised her, there might be someone who has a strong body but weak pulse. My daughter said urgently, it is impossible. If we cannot find the reason, it is as we did not find the mine hidden in the body. It would be very dangerous. It is this kind of person who is easy to get a sudden death. Heard of this, I started to care too. I reminded my colleague: did you feel tired after searching an escaping criminal? My colleague said he had been out for 120 days to find that escaping criminal. He could not eat or sleep reasonably. The brain nerve was strictly tight. He indeed was exhausted. But it is his job. All are doing the same way. My daughter said, such way of working hurt people very much. It is the reason for over-working death. Daughter said it would be better after finding the reason. She suggested my colleague careful for rest, do not do extreme physical movement…

 

Recently, a Spanish football player died of sudden heart disease. He was only 22 years of old. How strong his body was! Where comes his heart disease? I thought it is due to the damage to the sport.

 

Chapter 72: Woman’s generations

 

My daughter’s father was drunk every day for some time. One of his friends was good at drinking, and he wanted to let him also drunken and drunken every day. I felt it was not a good thing for him. So I invited this friend to a party and advised him to stop to inspire my husband. The guy, however, did not listen to me but declared no one could stop his “killing” action. No way, so I let my husband wear “Shengong Yuanqi Dai”, perform physical therapy, eating herbal diet, and other various health maintenance means. In this way, my husband increased his tolerance to the wine. He not only no longer fall into drunken but also be able to make that guy drunken. The guy did not give up. He tried much more hard to make my husband drunken. Finally, one day the guy drunk and fell on the stairs, broke the glass and went downstairs. Though saved very hard in the hospital, he became a vegetative state. 

 

After the accident, I regretted very much and blamed myself. It was my little medical knowledge that hurt him. How can we use medical knowledge carelessly? Due to self-blame, I went to the hospital to see him often. He lied there like a baby. His wife asked me what to do? I said, try to restart his wisdom. On the street, I bought a lot of various toys for him. But he only liked one: cloth doll. This makes me very strange. A man, after the loss of social consciousness, what he loved is a doll. It is not correct if we say that he has no social consciousness, since his wife said, when he plays the doll, he would feel shame if there are any people around. The roommates in his ward, all were damaged in the brain, hard to express meaning clearly. If he wanted to mention the western, the expression out would however the eastern. He was outraged for people not understand him. One day, he broke things when I came.  All other people have hidden aside to see him expressing his emotion. After watched him for a while, I gave him a pen and paper. He drew a cup. All of us felt relax: oh, he wanted to drink water. Later when I went to visit him, he showed me what he drew. He drew a lot. He drew better and better. He was no longer angry. It appears that the concept in the human brain is not stable storage. Its access is easy to get trouble. So, many cliff paintings are more like a picture, less with words. Maya people indeed left words, but no one can tell out its meaning. When we use our knowledge, when we explore our hidden inner ability, we could not realize the risking component in it; not realize that when one factor varies, many other factors would be varied at the same time; not realized that this whole variation may not always in harmony, in a friendly and healthy way. This idea applies to not only the social but also the body. However, the nature of our humanity is to act though we know it should not and can not. Science is such a thing. It is the development of the ability of the human being, but also the tragic drama of human being.

 

The Yin-Yang and Five-element is a model. The progressive decline of Chinese medicine is due to the disconnect of this model with reality. It is not so much the model cannot keep the time, as the human being is away from nature. It is the protective role of the science that makes the human being no longer keep the same step as nature. Alternatively, we can say that changing nature with the science makes the human have no nature to keep step with. I am not worried or feel pity to lose the Yin-Yang and Five-element, but worry that the natural power may later rebound back, to break our protecting shell, draw us back into nature again? At that time, would we not bring a gold bowl but beg for food? I know that the Yin-Yang and Five-element model might not perfect, but it, however, holds one side of the sky. The society develops as an individual department in front but constructed with many kinds of cultures. Break the Chinese culture, this holding pole to the sky; there might be a collapse of the sky on that side.

 

Is it ok if we do not repair that sky? When I went out for a traveling with my daughter, she thought it would be enough to bring enough money. I would bring enough money but also a big cake. My action of bring a big cake would be laughed by young people, the cake might have to be throw away for moldy. But once the human being is still on the way, my job is to bring a big cake with me. 

 

The year before last year, I followed a group out for traveling. My colleague advised me: “This time, you do not need to care for anything, but your own fun.” I promised. However, when I saw the team leader put all of the bank cards, personal certificate cards, so many important things, into a single small bag, I could not prevent to ask him: “Let me bring the bank cards?” The leader asked why. I said, there might be depletion of magnetic from the cards if you put all together. So, he gave the bank cards to me.

 

Three days later, his bag was stolen. Since the bank cards were with me, our overall traveling was not really affected. I told my daughter, China is a multiple disaster country, who can ensure that your generation would not catch a war or natural disaster? Without electric, a huge hospital would be a ruin. I never said that the western medicine is not good, never said that we should not develop big hospital, never said no need to bring enough money on traveling, I only wanted myself be a person who can supply some supplement to the whole process. I would not feel easy if I do not leave a big cake, my daughter, to the human being. Not afraid of 10,000, I am afraid that in case. A woman in menopause period is such worry. My daughter criticized me from her young. It appeared that she would not grow up without denying me. I would like to be denied by my daughter.

 

From my daughter, I also realized that history is not for being enshrined, that God is not for being respected, and that its vivid life lies in the use of constant negation and affirmation. Deny or confirm both have no significance. The significance is the growth of human being. Chinese medicine is under deny and confirm too. It means that we are growing. The reason why I lived to be fifty years old still feels alive and interesting because I can always taste the magic of life.

 

I lived a childhood with the accompany of my mother. After the birth of my daughter, I accompanied her. I lived again a childhood viewed from a mother’s point. Then I found, though I believed I have already known things, I actually did not know the thing in my early years. My mother, whom I have believed not knowing things from my point, appeared not really so. Then I realized that our childhood is not only one time. When I accompany my grandson for his childhood, would I live another my childhood again, to bring back the nice time as my grandmother accompanied me? History, why it is again and again hammered and pondered?

 

Primitive, why it makes people hard to throw away? Why human want to go back to the root? It is because the human does not grow up once, but repeatedly. So, returning does not mean to go back an old road, but a new road. It is to pick up a life that belongs to me. It is to make me toward perfect again and again. In accompanying my daughter, the shape of my mother grew taller and taller, and with dignity and divinity. For this, I understand why Chinese ask to behave like a human (not an animal), why Chinese respect ancient generations very much. My daughter said: “Mother, after you die, if I want to argue with, who can replace you?” I felt happy in the heart. From the constant deny by my daughter to me, I was pushed to a position in which no one can replace me. After I die, would my shape be some divinity in my daughter’s heart?

 

 

Chapter 73: Old ladies

 

One day I met my previous neighbor. I asked about his grandfather’s mother. He said she died. It was in spring. She lived for 98 years. I corrected him, it was not 98, but 103 years of old. Chinese does not want to be the full hundred. The person who said he/she is 98 or 99 years of old most probably has already over 100 years of old. This old lady went to visit my neighbor family ten years ago. She came to visit us one day in the morning. She looked like only 70 years of old. She told me she was old, had one tooth fell. The memory was reduced too. If she went to the street to buy three things, she would then return with only two.

 

I told her, I was only 40 but lost two teeth already. If I go to the street to buy one thing, I can even forget that one. I was surprised when she told me that she was 93 years of old and she still cooks for the whole family. On May first this year, we went to the suburbs to have a volunteer working. I met the grandmother of my colleague. She was also 93 years of old. She lived herself, burning fire, cook, washing clothes. She had many sons and grandsons, but no one could successfully invite her to live with them. Seeing that I picked up a camera to take a photo, she hurried to make a pose, smiled facing the camera.

 

From the long-lived people, I learned a lot. Those people got old does not necessarily cause bothering to others. Old people over 90 can take care of his/herself, but also serve the whole family. How nice a picture of the family? Many of our current people, when just over some age, want to be cared for by others, asking son or daughter come to visit them, asking for material and also feelings. Would it not create a burden to the next generation? Whenever I saw the public-benefit advertising on TV, I told my daughter, I am strong enough. She does not need to come to visit me, but instead, I would help her any time.

 

There was a very selfish and cruel colleague. He has no strong feeling to his parents, wife or son. But, when he got the call informing him that his grandmother was severely sick, he took out all the money he saved, hurried to the hometown. His grandmother was 96 years of old. The doctor said there was no value for the treatment. This colleague asked the doctor if there is any medication that can be used? The doctor said there was one drug that had not been used. The drug imported from Germany. But this drug might not work either. He asked if there would be any adverse effect from this drug. The answer was no. The colleague said, then, if there is no side effect, use it now! He brought out the money to buy that imported drug for his grandmother… The grandmother who was in a coma for several days opened eyes, smiled when she saw him: “My senior grandson comes! Didn’t you have a sleep? Look, you appear very tired. Come and lie down beside me and have a sleep… Close your eyes.” She groped a quilt to cover over him. This colleague said it was the happiest time in his life when he lied down beside his grandmother holding her hands.

 

His mother, however, complained pain in front of him, asked for some money for a pain killer, but he refused. It made me surprised that a lady nearly hundred was the feeling target of this colleague. I asked my daughter if I am old, no any use, would my value reduce to zero? She tapped on my shoulder: “Not really. You still have unlimited loyalty to me..” Oh, I understand, this is my value as a dog. Daughter said: “Mother, when you become old and sit down the bed. You smile to me with mouth without teeth, upon seeing my come home from work. You see, would you not be better than any pet?” What she said pointed to me a future: being a pet.

 

I think, if I really have no good-for-anything, to live seventy or eighty years of old, as a waste as cat or dog to eat leisure food, should I at least have a value of a pet? This makes me pay attention to the behavior of the pets, the warm of the dog, the soft of the cat, the cute and lovely of the bird… all are what I need to learn. In the consideration to be what kind of old people, I would not find any other better role than a pet. There is an old lady in the street selling pouch made by herself. The pouch is not so cute, but in which there is fragrant grass she planted. My daughter said that is the fragrant pouch. She kept such fragrant pouch beside her pillow whole of the year.

 

There was an old man begging money. Heard his reason for begging, his fast thinking and reasoning convinced me. I gave him some money and pointed to him a restaurant selling dumpling. I also told him which kind of dumpling is delicious.

 

I also have an elderly friend. She lived to 96 years of age. When she was 84 years of old, she ran, by her self, to the building field where his son was building a house. She, unfortunately, fell from a stare that has no fence yet at that time. She broke her three ribs. I thought she must be damaged. I bought some gift and ran to the hospital to see her. Seeing her terrible condition, I felt very sad and hardly found any words to comfort her. She, however, told me: first, she was 84 years of old. Even if she died, it was not early death. Second, one of the three broken ribs was healed now. With one more rib healed, she would be able to work again. Indeed, no more than another several day, the old lady tried to get up to cook for the family. I admire her simple but strong thinking.

 

On noon later, she told me she got sick. I cannot see what’s wrong with her. She showed me. She drank a mouth of water, the water falling from the corner of her mouth. She could not close the mouth. She got a stroke! I hurried out to call her son’s wife. The wife came and wanted to bring the old lady to the hospital. She held the door frame and resisted not to go. The wife told me that her son went out for business travel. How to explain what happened to the old lady? So the wife called the lady’s one daughter.  The daughter came and brought the old lady to her home. Upon going in the car, the wife handed a herb pill called Zaizao pill (再造丸) to the old lady. One week later, the old lady walked back by herself. Her disease was recovered. She told me she did not go to the hospital. She only ate those pills.

 

I observed these long-living people. They had no particular way for health maintenance. My mother’s uncle lived nearly hundred years of old. My grandmother blamed his lifestyle. My grandmother said he ate almost anything, what dead cat, dead dog, dead chicken, or diseased pig. He brought all of such things home to eat. A grandfather of my neighbor lived to 90 years of old about. He liked to fishing but could not get fish. Every time, what he got is a soft-shelled turtle. My grandmother joked with him for this quite often. When I was young, I bent my knee beside him, watching how he killed these turtles, but I had no patience to wait to see the turtle pushing out their heads. When he drunk the turtle soup, no one asked to share with him, but laughed at him. Now I regret not asking the soup to drink at that time.

 

Chapter 74: Peanut

 

Psoriasis that is also called “Cow skin ringworm”, has bothered me for many years. I have tried many kinds of medications. They were either no effects or only worked for a short time. I have also tried to see some experts. I went to their clinic room, sat there listening. I left soon since I do not agree with what they were talking. I felt it was a joke. My mother was good at the treatment of such disease, but I, however, got this kind of disease. The formula that my mother used was not recorded or left to me. I, therefore, have to live with this disease. Later, I heard by chance from one of my friends who was a doctor in a mental disease that psoriasis could be termed the second mental disease in human. This makes me pay attention to the physical-emotional characteristics of such disease.

 

I know that people with blood type A are prevalent among patients with psoriasis. I am not the type A, how could I get this kind of physical-emotional disease? An expert said it is a genetic inherit disease. There is no rule about its incidence. I thought, if it is due to genetic disorder, how could emotion affect the expression of the gene? Also, my emotion is pretty stable, how could I stimulate the gene angry?

 

Careful observation makes me find that my disease indeed changed along with the change in my work and lifestyle. When I worked as a male role, and when I work, live and think as a social style, I get to admire from people, I felt happy, but the disease was worse at this time. And when I live naturally in a sensual way, following nature, no one admires me or confirms my job, the disease was however relatively less severe. What does it mean? Does that mean that our society needs and the physiologic needs are inconsistence? After a long time careful consideration I changed my work and lifestyle, stop the career that is very promising in other’s eyes. Pretty soon, my psoriasis disappeared. Since then, there have been several signs of recurrence, and I have only controlled the recurrence by adjusting my life.

 

To be honest, I am sad, even painful, for loss of my social values. My disease, however, gets cured in my pain. So I realized that happiness is not the only standard to mark emotional health. One of my friends felt very sad to die for her break of marriage. All ask me to comfort her. I said I don’t do so. I know that, sometimes, sadness is more following the emotional logic than happy. The surface harmony and happy marriage made her twists, suffered from many kinds of diseases. Her crying turned the longtime twisted logic back to normal. It is not a bad thing. Why should we come to comfort her? I termed my ringworm as “small window of emotion”. If it happens, I would sit down, search the deep emotional roots. Among these roots, some are very deep. I cannot realize it without the happening of a disease. 

 

In daily life, how a person realize that the work and lifestyle that bring to you the honesty, dignity, the money, and the social status, might in fact not suit you? Someone consulted with me where my disease was cured. I said it was cured by myself. I can control it to cure or to happen again. They felt it impossible, thought that I was joking. From this, I think that the average life span of a male is shorter than female. Would that be due to the socialized lifestyle that hurt the body? Does the man really a social animal? A female can escape from the society, where the male goes? Is the happy in the success the same as the happy for life? What kind of society human really need?

 

Women come into society in a large quantity. They accept the reasoning of the society. Perceptional knowledge is no longer the half of the whole reasoning entity. One of my friends said the human knowledge is as a tree. The perception part of women is as the root parts in the soil. The rationality of men is the above ground part. The rationality of man should be the result they “read” the women’s perception. When the women are no longer perceptual, the human knowledge tree is pulled from the root. The men’s rationality knowledge becomes the wood without roots. The human knowledge becomes a vine, not tree. Vine may crumb very high and very long, but it would take the climbing as a reality rather than itself being a reality.

 

Now, I can still find the reason for my disease by searching the deep emotional reasons for it. What about in future? Would science help us to search the deep reasons in the emotional world? Many chronic diseases, as the stubborn ringworm (psoriasis), are emotional diseases. For them, science is trying hard to solve. Many people criticize that Chinese medicine is to “guess disease”.  Evaluation on the course in which I tried to find the reason for the disease also shows kind of individual, occasional, and guessing characteristic. Finding any evidence using science is hard. 

 

When I was young, I also refused things that were guessed, due to the influence of my father. So, I refused to guess riddle, to play poker, or to buy lottery. I felt that a riddle as “Net house, red coat, white fatty inside” is an extremely boring game. Why should we describe the peanut with such twisted manner? Why are Chinese so glad to guess the riddles? I never got any award by guessing “lamp riddle” or “word riddle”. I felt it is not necessary to spend mind on such things.

 

Later, however, I gradually noticed, there are such “riddles” all over the Chinese history, philosophy, medicine, and literature. The novel << Red Chamber Dream >> is the biggest riddle. It attracted many people to guess again and again from history. The “Dao”, “Yin-Yang”, “Five-elements” and many others that we think not worthwhile to spend mind, all show us the “net house, red coat…”, attracting us to search the corresponding historical real “peanut”.

 

The riddle-making person who is most close to us is the author Lu Xun[3]. But our ability to guess him is sharply declining. Someone said, the reason for him to made riddle is because it was time the Guoming Party dominated in China, which created “White terror” in China, not allowing any criticism. Why did our old generations, however, make riddle in Chinese culture? I think it might because our ancient Chinese also felt a kind of destroying power in the Culture.

 

“Peanut”, can this word allow implying what it is? When Chinese create word or phase, they chased for implying it meaning. This implication does not only mean “similar” to the shape of the stuff but also allowing you image out its meaning. Besides, from one word, you should also be able to have connected, linked, related, or clustered shapes and meanings of other things. For example, the word “south”. In Chinese, the south could mean “noon” in time; mean “fire” in temperature; mean “heart” in the body organs; mean “summer” in season… you can continue to guess out, again and again, no end. So, the word “south” is no longer a single word. “Net house, red coat…” could get rid of the “shape” of the “peanut”, but its “meaning”. When the word “peanut” can not imply us its original meaning, we can find the peanut in our space, through guessing “Net house, red coat…” We can re-find, re-establish our culture in this way.

 

Chapter 75: Coat

 

I saw many herbs in a Veterinary Hospital. I felt strange. The vet there told me, he was the medical consultant for several farms. The farms gave him a technique share, to inspire him the most active in work. In this way, his job changed from earning money by treating the disease to earning share income. His emphasis on the work also changed from the treatment to prevention. So, besides the vaccine, the herbs became his first choice for prevention, since he needs to care the financial cost. I asked, though the human and animals are all animals, there is much difference between the chicken and the human. How could you use the herbs? The vet said, why not? The mechanism is the same as a human. In the autumn, the weather becomes cold, the lung of the chicken would also feel discomfort. Add some herbs in the feeding to the chicken; the chicken would not catch a severe disease. In spring, add some bitter vegetables in the feeding, it would also prevent the spring infectious disease. If we wait until the chicken really catches a disease, even if it not dies, it would affect the production of eggs. So we will lose in financial, right? For western medicine, besides the vaccine, whatever it has for prevention? Also, western drugs are too expensive. 

 

Heard this, I could not prevent from laughing. I think it is of course not proper to regard the human society as the chicken farm, but if the officers who plan and dominate the healthcare reform can refer to the chicken farm model, the existing value of the Chinese medicine would indeed show out. So, to me, the conflict between western medicine and Chinese medicine is not so much as scholar aspect, as the backward of the financial situation.

 

The reason why mothers are committed to preventing diseases and treating minor illnesses inside and outside the courtyard is that once a small disease occurs, it is not that Chinese medicine cannot cure it, but in the case of economic difficulties, people often give up treatment. Only 12 dollars, that girl who was the same age as me, and who suffered from aplastic anemia, died because her mother did not buy the herbs for her. It only costs her mother 12 dollars! My mother fell tear when the girl died. Mother said the herb was expensive for the ingredient “antelope horn”. However, it could not be omitted. Mother blamed herself deeply for not used even cheaper way to save the life of the girl.

 

From the beginning, the Chinese have no condition to develop with high costs and high risks. If Dr. Hua Tuo did not want to treat the severe disease, he would not have died. For the combination of western medicine and Chinese medicine, to me, we should not chase for the combination in technique, but in the dislocation of the healthcare facility in society first. Of course, this depends on the government direction of the officers and the economic experts. On the road of the human development, ancient people said: “Those who follow nature would survive; those who act against nature would die”. We, however, said, “Change the nature”. We did not die, and nature was neither changed. But it is clear that the cost is too high to act against nature. Why can we not have a good relationship with nature? The sky (everything in the sky), the earth (everything on the earth), and the human, their relationship set up the rule for the human philosophy and emotion. It is Chinese medicine, which recognizes this relationship and transfers it into medicine. Of course, I think that Chinese medicine can also transfer it into a political-economic study.

 

Chinese medicine is created by Chinese collectively. When mother was feeling pulse for a patient, all the people in the room were watching and listening. The patients were the chief examiner, who held the active power. The doctor was the consulter. If patients can not accept the doctor, the doctor would not be able to practice medicine. When my mother was young, her medical skill, of course, was not good. During the course as a consulter for patients, the nice co-relationship with patients made her improve her clinic skill further. Therefore, Chinese medicine is a people’s medicine. It is a kind of human medicine. Nowadays, we deny this collective wisdom too carelessly.

 

The existence of a human being is not only the consciousness, the only “layer”, but there are also much more under this layer too, e.g., many precipitations. The consciousness is the face of a human being; the precipitations is the body of the human. The face is modern, but the body requires close to the world. In the current time of human being, the face and the body of the human has separated away. It is due to the “Decapitation” of modern science activity that chasing for the face but not the body. The result is a mutual call from the body and the face - anxiety.

 

Compared with western medicine, the “technique” in Chinese medicine is relatively “void” or “empty” or “not solid, not concrete”. However, the learning contents in Chinese medicine beyond the “technique” are much more than in western medicine. To master the relationship between the universe, the earth factors, and the human being is the pre-condition to learn and master the Chinese medicine.

 

The void of Chinese medicine is just its container role. We use the container to hold and keep private things. The regulation in the hospital refuses private things. Since my mother had too many private things, she is not assistance with the hospital. Compared with western medicine, Chinese medicine appears very simple, without many technique contents. This is as the comparison between the Chinese coat the Western-style clothes. My hobby is to make clothes. I told my friends, I can do any kinds of dressing but not the Western-style clothes. My friends laugh: that means you have no enough skill, otherwise why you cannot make Western-style clothes? I said, almost every process in making the Western-style clothes needs the help and facility by science technique. The Western-style clothes is not made by hands, but high temperature heated and high power pressed in a machine that costs tens of thousands or even hundreds of thousands of dollars. How can I do it with my hands?

 

When I was young, a gentle and refined patient came to my home. If he moved a little bit, the edge of his clothes as fly up, layer by layer. If he kept not to move, the edge of his clothes also moved a little bit like a small wave. The whole man as walked out from a poem, very scholarly and refined. I went around him several rounds to search why he appeared so gentle. After a serious reasoning study, I believed that his charm came from his Chinese style of pair of casual clothes. Grow up in tenement courtyard, as known reasoning, I never compete with others for eating or wear. This time, I asked very formally from my mother, I want similar clothes. My mother was very serious too. Very quickly, A blue coat made of plain cloth was put on me.

 

Though I had it on my body, I did not show any poem. My classmates said that I looked as a grey rat. I neither knew why I looked not nice or refined with this coat on the body, that appeared made very carefully and refined. After many years, I understand, my coat was made using Western-style clothes of technique. It was platen, suit to the body, without a fold. On the body, there is no flying style as Chinese coat, neither the tall or straight of the Western-style clothes. The coat of that patient was made by his mother by hands, using platen cutting, linked sleeve, with the collar towards more behind. In adding the collar, it should not fix on with equal distance but fix several spots first further, so, the dressing sticking up in front, but also raising on the behind. The dressing was not under balance, but also finding balance by itself. It moved even if the body did not move, showing a result of skirt fashion. Therefore, when we see the year 2001, the APEC conference in China, we see the “Chinese Coat” wear by the leaders of each country, showed as same stiff and inflexible as my coat that year. I was eager to tell these leaders, it was not the way to wear the “Chinese Coat” as they did. A sleeve of western style would make the loss of the taste of the Chinese dressing. But including the designer of the dressing, would any people feel any defect for these “Chinese Coat” the leaders wear?

 

 

Chapter 76: Prisoner

 

I have a friend. When he heard that he got liver cancer, he asked his wife to call me. I brought a bound of flowers to visit him. He asked me two questions. First, was there any necessity for him to struggle against the disease? See that he lost his body weight as a speed of three kg every day, his cutting-down slim body, and the bloodstain in front of his chest after his vomiting blood, I steeled my heart and told him, no need to struggle. He heard my answer, asked his family member to release the turtle to the river. He said, since it cannot save me, there is no need to kill it. The second question is, “Why good man lives not long?” I felt hard to answer, so I asked him back: “Is this world really so nice?” He died at that night.

 

This friend of mine is a very spiritual man. One day when we mentioned dance, I said everyman who danced with me turned dance into the teaching me dance. But I finally did not learn how to dance. Heard this, he smiled. He invited me to dance. That time, I was the queen in the dance, like I wear the “red shoes”. Dance became my genius show. After that, I however still do not know how to dance. When later on, the gentleman taught me again for dance, my attitude is no longer honest, but believe that they are the ones who do not know the dance, but not me.

 

The question he raised before death is not meaningless. I cannot say that there is no relationship between the good or bad of the person and his life span. I did not really answer his question, letting him died with sad. In fact, I admit the fact that a good man does not necessarily live longer. I know it is a social question. There is a criminal. When asked why he committed the crime, he said, when he knows he got cancer, there were no more days to live, he wanted to commit a crime to be “happy” once. After referring to his hospital case, indeed he got cancer. According to the diagnosis of a doctor, he would not be able to live longer to the adjustment day. For this, the forensic medical expert brought him to the hospital to check again. The result showed no cancer cells. The criminal was very angry, requesting the doctor to explain. The doctor has to say that it was a misdiagnosis. The criminal did not get happy since he had no cancer. He blamed the doctor for he had to stay in jail. I think the chance of misdiagnosis by the hospital is not high. Most possibly, it is the “happiness” of the criminal that dissolved the tumor. Being a good man, he got cancer; being criminal, cancer cured his disease. Would this be the more evidence that a good man does not live long? Being a good man, suffered from suppressing, which hurts his health. This means that the principle of “Stronger one eats weaker one” works. The question my friend raised before his death reflected his confusion as a human. When we admire the stronger, struggling, how could a person like my friend did not feeling suppress? He could make a woman who does not know dance danced as a dancing queen. It means he endeavored to allow others to express their ability rather than his. How lovely and valuable personal quality of him? He, however, paid for his life.

 

Among the people with the same age, I participated in much more kind of job than others. Whenever there was a competition for a job position in our company, needing the end one dismissed, I cannot endure the eyesight of my colleagues. I would tell them: “I oppose the competition, argue that the person who has a higher ability to leave. I can find a new job, so I leave. “I would not feel any happiness in the victory of the job competition.

 

Several days ago, I read an article. It opposed against birth control policy. The article said, there is a large population of Chinese, but do we have too many children? But what we reduced in the population will be the children. After reading this article, we felt embarrassed, felt as we, those of old people, occupied the space for children. Now it seems that the action of my mother’s Great master is pretty conscious. Nothing hard to understand him now (He refused to live longer). It might be that good man should not live longer.

 

However, that doing bad thing might make people happy is not in conformity with the life logic, since it is not the way the society established. I do not regard the moral with different eye or principle. I told my daughter, moral is not a good or beautiful thing. Nothing in it is real, true, or hypocritical. A group of robber want to live more than three days; they need the same moral as us. Being a person who does not follow moral could feel happiness and live longer, but have a cost of others health and live. The damaged is not only good people but also the whole society. We should also consider this significant medicinal cost.

 

The award mechanism of human society is far and far away from human nature. When the human nature asked to return, people usually went to the road of crime. For example, Theft and corruption, like primitive people picking fruit, may let people feel more fun than they work to earn money. There was an embezzling officer, he was not short of money at home, but he continued to embezzle. After into the jail, I thought he would collapse in spirit. One time, I organized a law education in the jail, Someone suggested that he be present and talk about his criminal psychology. I said he would not do such thing that loses his face. I didn't expect him to agree very much.

 

In the jail, I saw him as same active as before. He calculated to me that he earned more mark, reduced more penalty than others. The award mechanism in the jail made him find the direct happiness as embezzling. However, in society, it is tough for us to get the primitive happiness as “picking fruit” and “hunting” from our work. We usually suffer from the social pressure that suppresses human nature. How our body would not catch a problem in such a life? On the other side, if we let the good man behave like a bad man against social moral, it would also make him pay the cost of body health. You see, if we do not make the human life regulation in assistance with the personal body-heart logic, it would be very difficult to let a good man lives long.

 

My daughter told me, Buddhist monks also get sick. She felt the pulse for some monks. The pulses were weak. She said it indicated that being a monk was against nature. A human being needs normal diet, needs to eat some meat. I said when did Chairman Mao ask eating of Hongshao pork? It was usually after a victory or after finish an article writing. The current monks are hard to escape from society. Many monks use a computer, visit the internet, even buy stocks. Any such action would exhaust their heart energy and spiritual energy. If they insist on vegetarian food, how would their body not become weak? Therefore, it is not that the lifestyle of the monks is against nature, but that the modern life of the monks is away from the original road. If we stand on the current time point to assess the life of monks correct or not, the monks need to eat meat and should get married too. In this way, the monk is no longer a monk.

 

We really need to stand on another time-space point to assess the current time-space and make some necessary adjustment to it. In other words, we should not look at things in history and the world always with the current point of view. We need to look at the current things from the historical point of view too. As in this point, we not only need to understand the “today’s history”, but also “today in history”. This is the value of history in today.

 

Chapter 77: Liquor

 

If there were no liquor, I am sure, the number of people who get sick and who had to stay in jail would have reduced to half. There is no nutritional value for the liquor or cigarette, but the social costs of drinking liquor and smoking are huge.

 

It was reported that the death number of people died of smoking or of smoking-related disease will exceed that of those die from AIDS, tuberculosis, hard birth delivery, car accident, suicide, and murder. In China, the number of the population who smoke exceeds 3 billion. In the whole world, among every ten cigarettes smoked, there are three of them smoked in China. 67 man over 100 Chinese male smoke. Smoking costs about 42.9 billion dollars for health loss in China.

 

More than 500 million Chinese drink liquor. The car accident due to alcohol-drinking is 80% of all reasons for car accidents. Liquor-dependent has been listed as a big category. Patients belong to this group is about 10% of all hospitalized patients. Alcoholics have become the “number one public harm”. My father did not drink or smoke. He said the person controlled by addiction is easy to lose self-dignity. For those who take narcotics, he believes that they are not human.

 

Watching foreigner film, one police leader, a hero, was injected drug by the Mafia. He then became a pitiful creature crawling on the ground begging. So, the hero motion cannot beat a syringe of a narcotic, half bottle of alcohol. From this point, the human is a material creature. It is true that matter is first nature.

 

What’s the most painful in jail? It is smoke addiction. When I brought criminal in court, I usually prepared some cigarettes. One day, I brought one criminal in court, who has another partner in the same case. The first one smoked off his share of cigarette, asked me for the cigarette for his partner. He said the partner did not smoke. I gave him. When I brought the second guy, he asked cigarette with strong hope. When he got known that his first partner had occupied his share, he fell a tear a lot.  He cried very wronged for unjust treatment and decided to expose other crime by that partner. He said: “He was so rude to grab my cigarette!” One cigarette could break the “friendship” between them.

 

There was one murderer who hates alcohol. He said to me: “It is the alcohol that destroyed me. I am not going to drink the last cup of liquor that supposed to drink before killing me.” When opening the court, he was brought from a small cabinet of the jail. I asked what wrong he committed for the jail regulation. He said he drunk liquor. Someone brought into the jail a plastic bag of liquor. The “criminal leader” gave him an award to allow him to drink little. He refused. The “leader” insulted him: “I see you a death-criminal, no many days for you to live, so I allowed you to drink it. You, however, do not understand my good heart. What is the use for your regret now? There is no chance for you to change to a good man now…” He felt his yelling was reasonable, so he drunk some. The smell of the alcohol was found by the discipline, who requested him to stay in the small cabinet for a penalty. He asked me: “You see, how hurt was I by alcohol?” It is the alcohol that hurt people, but it is the people who are punished. The alcohol has no penalty at all.

 

When I was young, I wanted to be a Government officer like Mr. Lin Zexu to forbid opium or alcohol. But when Gorbachev forbade alcohol in Russia, I laughed. Gorbachev is a straight mind person. His way of thinking is admired by the western. How can such a simple thing, as a General secretary of a big country, he failed to fulfill it? When I was young, I chased for a strong mind, I wanted my self a man made of special material, though I was not a communist party member. My father did not drink or smoke, but he takes snacks. I, however, do not take a snack. My grandmother said those who like snacks is easy to be wheedled. My mother said, however: “Like snacks means health”. I tried myself to resist my mother’s “wheedle”, lived as a puritan. The direct result of such living style is that my feeling is more and more sensitive. I clearly feel that from my bone, I am an addictive people. I have a feeling to like the smoke and alcohol, though I did not make it as my goal. I drunk coffee, tea, one after another, and become addictive to them. They made me have poor sleep so that I have to ban them. During quitting of the coffee and tea, I realized that they are also toxic.

 

Dr. Li Shizheng wrote in his book << Ben Cao Gang Mu >>: people addictive to the tea, chewing the tea in the mouth from time to time. After a long time, it damages Yinqi and Blood. Their faces are pale, yellow and withered. They got sick, but they continued without regression. It is well known the harm of coffee. It was said that the early death of Mr. Balzac was due to the coffee. I have also tried to give up the pepper. My daughter said that people with a weak heart should not eat pepper as me to chew pepper in the mouth piece by piece. After I got a recurrence of the heart disease, I had to stop the pepper.

 

During the painful course for various giving up, I understand the meaning of spirit empty. It is not something wrong in the worldview, not needing the thinking to fill, but need material to fill it up. So, I chew betel palm. I chew something as “Shanzha pill”, “Guipi pill”, “Yimu pill ”these left by others. I comfort myself as this is more dignity than picking a cigarette-end. My daughter said, why this way? You had better drink some Chinese herbal tea. I went to a doctor, asking for herbs. Actually what I wanted is the grass root and tree barks!

 

Now, I realized, were the goals of all the gentlemen with addictive not the “grass root and plant rinds”? If allowing me to live in nature, I may find some grass to eat by myself. I may be second “Shennon”. It is said by all that it is not hard to give up the drugs in philosophy but hard in emotion. I cannot prevent from asking: why there is an addition in emotion? Would this addition is not a calling from far away sky? Cigarette, coffee, tea, pepper, opium poppy, hemp, all are the “grass” in the land. “Grass” addition has been sediment in the human gene. If this addition is gene-related, congenital, is part of our body, how giving-up action against these smoke and alcohol would succeed?

 

Scientists explained the mechanism of addictive reaction from the chemistry. I admit that this world is a chemical one. The human is chemical, the hundreds of “grass” are also chemical. Even the whole of human life can also be regarded as a chemical reaction course. The “addiction” asks the reaction of the human in and out of the body.

 

“The addiction” needs to be met from time to time, but given up from time to time too. The consideration of restriction in Chinese medicine is to ask a balance in the chemical reaction. Purification technique and synthetic drugs make the filling up as the dominating power in the chemical reaction, makes it impossible to give up the addiction. When using western medicine to solve the addition, it comes quite often that the addiction disappears, but the people disappear too (died). Alternatively, the medicine used for giving up drugs became a new addictive reason.

 

Currently, for quitting the drug, the Chinese medicine works, like it works in the treatment of cancer, not directly kill the cancer cells, or to quit the drug. What it does, is to save the human life, is to support the defense ability of the body, is to re-balance the disordered Qi and Blood in every part of the body. The medication used in Chinese medicine is the “Grassroots and plant rinds”, is the course of the “addiction”. It is to open the window in the body, through which the body chemical exchanges and reacts with the chemical in nature, to make the human and nature in harmony in the chemical reaction. From this point of view, it is really worthwhile to study the Chinese herbs – such multiple natural “original elements”.

 

Chapter 78: Mr. Hawking

 

The human life is so fragile. It can disappear in a flash; it is also very strong, which is hard to explain by modern science. I know one person, who lied on the bed from his 18 years of old to now he is 40 years of old. He suffered the whole body paralysis from rheumatism. like Mr. Stephen William Hawking, he also had only three fingers that can move. Mr. Hawking can sit on the wheelchair, but he cannot even sit up. Mr. Hawking was sentenced by the doctor, when he was 22 years of old, being able to live for two years, but he has lived to his 65 years birthday. Mr. Hawking enrolled in traveling in space in the year 2009, to finish his childhood dream. The doctors said, if he comes to space, he must die in the spacecraft. I agree with the doctors. If he could live back, it would turn off the physiology.

 

My that friend who fallen from stairs died after lying on the bed for less than one year. The doctor explained, if one lied down on the bed for more than one week, the muscle would reduce by 20%. The human function is the more use, the better. If the muscle is not under use, it will shrink in mass. Lying on the bed makes it possible that the activity of breath, the stomach and intestine movement; the blood circulation becomes stagnated; immune system ability reduced; the degeneration of various organs and tissues starts; the secondary damage of the organs is hardly avoided.

 

All in all, it means that every road leads to death. This friend died of lung infection. Since paralysis is hard to live from the physiology point of view, how my friend with paralysis can live for 40 years? There is evidence that he may live longer than some healthy people. Why people like Mr. Hawking, who was sentenced by western medicine to death, can last his life for so long as it is hard to believe? Is it really as western medicine said, their body defense system is so fragile? If it is so, how could them live so long? If their defense system function is not low, what’s the reason and how to explain previously western medicine said? The physiology theory cannot explain why a person can live a long time without being able to move.

 

That the relationship between the health and long life span, that between the life and movement, is hardly completely explained by current science. This inspires me to image the human life that is in the evolution end. What is the shape of life? What shape it can be? To Mr. Hawking, we may explain that he got the best health service in the world – several nurses worked for him day and night. But the person I know of, lost mother when he was young, lost a father when he was in middle life. He had no scholar degree, not job; has very little life and healthcare conditions. He commonly has no people around him to care for him. He had to endure thirsty and hungry, endure the bowel movement, and other inconvenience… I saw him always lied there by himself alone with one body position, using a cotton gloves putting under his body. His thigh looked as same big as an ordinary people, but if you look at it carefully, you would find that the muscle has already shrunk, the size is due to the puffy bone. Such quality of bone would break with a slight bend. He had several ulcers in his body, with bone out. He had no medicine, so he used several pieces of paper to cover it. It however cured by itself.

 

His life inspired us, shaken others, and implied to us something. I joked with him, God only created his head, not the body. Mr. Hawking who lived with only one brain almost turns the whole world. This friend, his spiritual power is also very strong. I remembered an ancient article I learned in my middle school textbook << Various Memory in Jail >>. It said that the environment in jail was terrible. It always had an infectious disease. Every day, there are a few prisoners die. However, it is strange that the prison who was sentenced heavy penalty almost had no disease. Even if they got sick, they would get better pretty soon. The writer said this is because the severe prisoner had overwhelming Qi. At that time, I thought, it appeared that the overwhelming Qi in the body could increase the function of body immune system.

 

No matter it is Mr. Hawking or this one I know, both are not weak in their Qi though their body is weak. If we do not say that their Qi is strong to pushing to the universe, it is strong to the sky. When the father of this one I know was alive, he hold his both hands to said to the sky: my God, it is lucky you let him lied down, otherwise, he may pouch broken the sky!

 

From the body of people like Mr. Hawking, we know that the big ambition of a male might have some kind of spiritual character. It is said, the home of Mr. Hawking is with many pictures of Marylin Monroe; his second wife is one of his beauty nurses. This man I know also made several girls falling in love with him. The wife he chose makes many healthy men envy.

 

Book, is the representative of spiritual power. We observed that no man who lost “body” did not use a book to complete his self. Mr. Hawking is so; the Ostrowski, the author of book << How the steel was tempered >> was so; this man I knew also wrote a book of 2000000 words. Mr. Ostrowski realized the relationship between the treatment and saving a life after nine severe surgical operations. He told the doctor who was going to perform the tenth operation for him, he said: I have already donated some of my blood to the science. The remaining part, I prefer to keep it for myself to do something else. Then he started to write a book.

 

The goal of western medicine is on the “disease”, while that of Chinese medicine is in the “life”. If the patient still has his “life”, there is a chance to continue to treat; if there is no “life”, who can help? To combat the “disease” without caring about the patient “life” is opposed by Chinese medicine. From this point of view, I opposed the “treatment”. “Doctor can treat the disease but cannot save the life” means the disease can be treated but the life cannot be treated, but be protected, to be saved. For some diseases, it is hard to cure. It can cause paralysis to the patient, but not cause death to him. If it is tried to treat, it might cause the death to him very soon. I think if Mr. Ostrowski were not performed that nine times of surgical operations that damaged his Yuan Qi (body life power), based on his strong spiritual power, he might not die at 32 years of old. Science should be not only able to explain some common phenomenon, but also some special phenomena.

 

The theory in Chinese medicine about life, the Qi and Blood, and the spirit might be able to explain my question about the living of Mr. Hawking.

 

The concept of spirit in Chinese medicine refers to the libido blood and “Shen”. Chinese medicine believes, without material part of a human, it is impossible to grow a Shen. With the human body but no the Shen, the body is not alive. In the relationship between the material and the spirit, Chinese medicine regards the material as the priority (the first pre-condition). Chinese medicine however also believes that the Shen is the master of the body. It is the Shen that governs the body everything. From this point of view, Chinese medicine emphasizes the important role of the Shen. The Shen bases on the blood, and the blood is the storage base or the Yang Qi. The go up and down of Yang Qi in the body is the life of the body. And "life" is the most essential feature of human beings. The paralysis person has life and disease. His “Shen” still works as governor of the body material part. The Shen still uses his blood. It is still supplying strong material support to Mr. Hawking’s mind. People in the whole world already feel the strong power of the spirit of Mr. Hawking.

 

The one I know is like Mr. Hawking. His most big movement is the storm in his brain. I admired his sensitive in thinking and his fast in reaction. From the life point of view, the lives of Mr. Hawking and others are not only strong but also healthy, so the outside disease-causing factors can not work on their body. Mr. Hawking had three children with his paralysis body. His interesting to a woman never lost. Is this the function of the blood? The one I knew, is red in the face, loud in voice, bright in eye slight. He got a child when he got married at his 38 years of old.

 

 

Chapter 79: My uncle: doctor but not a doctor

 

Modern society provides reality and possibilities for the diversity of doctors, and doctors no longer have a unified model. Even if in ancient China, Chinese medical doctor had two models: earning doctor and teaching doctor. My uncle is not a teaching doctor, nor an earning doctor. I called him a “working doctor”. When my grandmother died, he was only three years of old. Using his word, it was my mother, who took over the responsibility of nourishing to him. When my mother was young, she went everywhere, north or south. She always brought her this young brother. Naturally, he was brought into the door of Chinese medicine. He was sent to Chinese medicine school to study. After graduate, he was allocated to a hospital as a doctor. He married with an acupuncturist there.

 

As a doctor, he was well. He worked carefully, responsibly. He was good in the professional test, clinic research, even for his English level. He worked and eventually to a president position of that hospital. My mother and her brother, the brother and sister, one was good at the clinic, and another was good in an organization job. Would both be a good doctor? My mother believed that her brother does not know how to treat patients. She said, for a patient whom a doctor can make a diagnosis of “Shi Zhen”  easily, he however prescribed supplementary herbs.

 

For this, I have asked my uncle. He said: “How could I not recognize the Excess and Deficiency condition? Your mother is too stupid, too foolish. She cannot understand the feeling of patients. The herb I prescribed is only a herb that supporting the male function.” I said, wouldn’t your way be harmful to the patient? He said, many people would not realize what is correct and what is wrong, until they would get a lesson. If the body of these patients will come into the problem soon or later, do you think it would be better to let the problem come soon or later? If the problem comes earlier, there may have a chance to help them, and if it comes late, it would be difficult. How could you say that I am hurting them? Though what he said is kind of heresy or fallacy, I could not find any word to oppose him.

 

Indeed, the older a Chinese medicine doctor is, the higher his reputation is in the clinic. My uncle so should be a very busy man. He, however, plays chess, goes fishing, visits the internet, lives an easy life. He does not do any clinic work. Only his wife, who is an acupuncturist, is very busy to do acupuncture to patients. Before, there is no saying that a Chinese medicine doctor is to get retired. No one gives him a pension. They have to work until they can not work due to physical body condition. My mother continued her clinic work until her last day. However, to my uncle, performing Chinese medicine is to perform a job. The job is his source of living. So, when he got a pension and no need to work, he stops to perform any clinic work. Therefore, though he is old now, he cannot be regarded as an old Chinese medicine doctor. When my mother worked in the hospital, beside her clinic work, she was also a teacher for newly graduated doctors. I saw her photo together with her students in that class.

 

This group of Chinese medicine doctors, who are the same age as my uncle, and who started working after the establishment of New China, first learned is to adapt the working and hospital environment. The “working” and the clinic is the same thing, sometimes. For example, when we emphasize “Saving the near death, help the wounded”, it is so. However, sometimes, they are not the same thing. For example, when we emphasize the interests of the hospital, they are different things. A hospital means it needs to unite the thinking of the doctors with the job; to restrict the action of doctors with regulations; so to ensure everything in the hospital running correctly. Therefore, sometimes, responsible for working may not mean responsible to a patient. Even if a doctor paying much more warm in his job does not mean he is much more warm to a patient.

 

From heart feeling, the public could not accept the death case of a pregnant woman in Beijing Chaoyang hospital.[4] From the job point of view, however, the doctor there committed nothing wrong. Are they not careful? Not responsible? Yes. Then, in the hospital, could we ask the doctor more than it is needed in a clinic? It is the mild difference between the job and clinic that causes the doctor-patient conflict. I think the generation of Chinese medical doctor as my uncle practiced Chinese medicine as a “job”. Would it be another reason that causes the degeneration of Chinese medicine?

We are so used to a job that we never question the job. When I was young, I felt that job is a glorious word. I felt that it was the evidence of backward and foolish of my mother for her not participating job (working in the hospital). Now we can see that, because the ancient Chinese government did not administer hospital, making the Chinese medicine no “job” to find, having to face the patient directly, the Chinese medicine, therefore, kept active life in history.

 

If we say that my mother learns Chinese medicine is to help patients and save their life, my uncle learns Chinese medicine is to find a “job”, my daughter, this generation, learns Chinese medicine is to have a University degree. In this way, the Chinese medicine doctor is much far away from the medicine. Therefore it is not at all strange that many graduates from Chinese medical university change to other kinds of jobs after their graduation. Often my relatives asked where my daughter would work after her graduation. Neither my daughter or I think that is a question. To find a job, or to go to university, for my daughter, is a tool, not a goal. I do not want my daughter to understand the “job” deeper than the patient. Chinese medicine doctor can choose not to have a “job”. If they have a prescription right, they can perform Chinese medicine at home, or in a herb shop. It doesn’t matter if it is a “job” or not, but they should perform the clinic.

 

My daughter said, even if she organizes a hospital, it would be a loss structured unite. My daughter suggested my nephew to learn Chinese medicine. I opposed. I think that he is a “hand is before the mind” person. I don’t think he is suitable to learn Chinese medicine. My daughter however think that the Chinese medicine is a much broad area, there will anyway something my nephew can do. Later, my nephew, after learned Chinese medicine, showed his genius in surgical operation. He is good at sewing massed wound. Watch his diary in internet, it was written as a clinic history (medical record). It was so clear for every step, how sewed the intestine, how connected the tendons, that it can be an operation rule. I joked, for those who turned to the hands of my nephew, would have clear and complete body even if he was dead. Though it is said, no use to sew the dead so nicely, those who survived must be sew in a perfect way. From this point of view, it is reasonable that my nephew sew every kind of body regardless it is dead or alive. 

 

When the body is damaged into an open wound, the Chinese theory is broken too. My daughter would felt loss when she faces a body with blood and opened wound. Her characteristic of strong analytical ability in the brain is not as practical as my nephew to sew it right away. So, when they work together, I feel more comfortable than allow them to work separately. But, it makes me worry since his good at the surgery suggests that he needs the adhesion to a hospital. I asked about the current situation in the hospital. It is full of staff at every level of the hospital. It would be tough that he join the job. He has to come into a hospital no matter how difficult it might be anyway. How can set up a complete surgical operation for himself alone? Now I understand why the surgery in Chinese medicine is not advanced. In history, there is no Chinese medicine hospital. It is really true that something is good in one aspect and it might be bad in another aspect.

 

It is the need of social reality that there are multiple kinds of doctors. So, the idea against either western medicine or Chinese medicine does not allow the development of the whole human medical system. For the sake of both my mother and my nephew, I hope to keep the western medicine and Chinese medicine at the same time and allow them to develop together.

 

Chapter 80: Plane and train

 

For my idea about the combination of western medicine and Chinese medicine, I heard some opposing opinion from both western medicine and Chinese medicine. An internet friend wrote to me: your idea is as let the plane in the sky bring the train to run on the land. I think that regarding western medicine as a plane and Chinese medicine as a train is better than my analogy for Chinese medicine as a “knife for cow or chicken”. We did not cancel the train after we have a plane. From a perspective point of view, the plane will not replace the train either. This is not established on the function of the plane and train. We need also consider the earth energy source and the ability of the earth to endure air pollution. Besides, someone fears to take a plane. I cannot keep from laugh when I see the conductor in the plane showing the safety technique. If the plane falls down, what’s the use of the safety methods?

 

Combination of western medicine and Chinese medicine is not my idea from theory, but a real need. During going to a doctor, the public has already had a combination of western medicine and Chinese medicine. When coming to Chinese medicine, patients usually bring a lot of lab test reports with them. The patients who come to Chinese medicine are either full of western medicine drugs, or have had a surgical operation, or have had chemotherapy or radiation therapy. All such conditions have to be faced by a Chinese medicine doctor. It is no longer impossible for a Chinese medicine doctor to work in a pure natural environment without consideration of the effects of western medicine to the body.

 

If it is true that my mother’s Great master could work without consideration of western medicine to the body, it is impossible up to my mother, her generation of Chinese medicine doctors, to work this way. For a patient who has had been treated by western medicine, my mother must recognize what happened to him by western medicine. Even if it is only a common cold, the use of western medicine makes it from the surface into an inside condition. If the doctor does not consider this, he cannot treat the common cold either.

 

For the Chinese medicine doctor as my daughter’s Great master, they have to use the western medicine terms and explain the meaning of the reports such as lab tests, ultrasound, CT, MRI etc. I think, through the changes in the data in these reports, Chinese medicine doctors have more consideration points for the use of herbs and therapy. It might not be a bad thing for Chinese medicine. I have had several times of emergency conditions before, I wanted to find a Chinese medicine doctor, but where I can find one? For this, I have been given steroid, including imported one. The doses used were so high that the doctor dared not to use. It is the expert in Beijing urged to use in double. But the side effects of western medicine made me feel as got more kinds of diseases, terrible.

 

With the help of my brother’s wife, I take a herb formula that I got from an old Chinese medicine doctor who was ninety years of old and lived in another city. With it, my disease is under control. Considering the fact that, the old doctor has been pretty old, he kept his formula as a secret, I would have nowhere to ask for help if he died, and there need three days to send me the herbs through a fast UPS system, I kept a little bit herbs each time he prescribed to me. When I take the herb s, I do not use water but hold the herbs in the mouth to chew, so to identify the ingredients of the herbal formula. I indeed get known of the main ingredient. I bought the herb that I guessed, and take it. The healing effect is also good. I felt pretty happy. Last time I got an emergency again. I tried the same herb I guessed, but it did not work. I have to use steroid drugs again. The side effect made me suffered a lot. Later the old doctor knew this and blamed me why not to see him. My brother’s wife so told him that I kept some herb each time. The old doctor laughed. He laughed at me for enjoying clever myself. He said that the reason each time for my recurrence is different. This time, my disease recurred with heart disease. The herb cannot get help from the heart power, so it did not work. He then prepared new formula and saved me again. This time, I did not want to guess out what herb ingredient he used, nor want to know his formula since I know it is no use to know it. He treated me with the Chinese medicine reasoning, not the formula. How can I master this? If the old doctor dies, I will have to use western medicine until I die too.

 

The development of human reorganization, all in all, is the course to add eyes, brains to human, e.g., a course to add more sense organs. I said before, what is philosophy? It is that a blind talk about color. Tens of articles written by blinds are not worthwhile to let the blind to open an eye. The instrument of western medicine makes our eyes sharper. But this is not enough. One of my friends said, why the creatures from the “Three-star hill” had a pole eye? It is because the people at that time had recognized that the human eye is a horizontal eye, which can only see the space but not the time. So the creature in the “Three-star hill” used the pole eye to tell us that we should use the historical eye to see the things. This is the vertical eyes. The Chinese who chasing for view with the vertical eyes are a valuable reference even for the current science.

 

Chinese medicine is a time-space medicine, especially the time medicine. The state of medicine is to turn a naked eye into wisdom eye and Dharma eye. Einstein said the most mysterious thing in the world is that it is recognizable. I think, as the main body of the recognition, the human being is the most super detecting instruments of the world. When we create machine and electric instrument, don’t forget the human that is the created and modified by nature for billions of years already.

 

As a Chinese, I suggest living a whole and complete process of life. I told my daughter, the life wisdom is like the lotus in a pool. It doubles its size every day, and it fills up the whole pool after 20 days. Indeed, when at the 27 days, the human wisdom is an only half pool. The human may get the full wisdom at the last time of the life. So, I believe that ancient people have wisdom. Time is not the platen stage allowing people to show arbitrary. As a good wine or perfume needs to store for a long time to allow each component to adjust each other again and again, our human life runs along with time, making “today” have a chemical reaction with the “yesterday”, “the day before yesterday” one by one. Every time, such chemical reaction makes the “yesterday”, “the day before yesterday” change their color and nature.

 

From this point of view, I oppose the stop the process of life at one's will. At the same time, I recommend to those who want to stop life, their comment to life is not the true definition. If one really has the scientific exploration spirit, one should wait for the understanding that the time gives. For the same reason, I oppose separating history into different periods, since the history is a continuous course. The significance of history will change upon the end of “today”. You can even find that there is calling from history to today. There has been some “hint”.

 

The “rising” of western medicine started from previous “hiding”, so the “hiding” of Chinese medicine suggests its “rising” in future. This is really that the time turns (circumstances alter alternatively). Therefore, the real Chinese medicine people do not hurry or urgent. They know what they need to do.

 

One of my colleagues changed her job. Before she left, she sent me a basin of climbing plant. It crewed up to my green tree very quickly. It made the tree lose its color near to withered. Just when I believed that the tree failed in this competition, I found it started to turn its loss to win. Finally, the green tree won. It made the climbing plant withered with only a small branch.

 

The basin-protecting grass in the flower basin had very tiny seeds, as small as needle tip. It uses “explosion” to spread its seed. I watched the ceiling with a crowd of its seeds and felt strange: how strong effort and power it needs to make so small seeds rising to the ceiling? If it is like the size as an apple, would it be an atomic bomb? I grow “Goodluck” bamboo in a barrel. Every time I only change half of the water in it. After half a year, I found a lot of water snail! It should be known that our water comes from underground, not from the river. The ecosystem in a small office is enough to confuse me.

 

 

Chapter 81: Baby in a warm cabinet

 

Having children at home, the parents have to consider to have a vaccine injection to them. My nephew and niece are living with us. Plus my daughter, they need the vaccine injection this one or that one, again and again, quite often. After injection, the children have some kind of reaction more or less. Later one day, I said, you do not need to have the vaccine injection. Think this way: if all of your classmates are injected, no one will get the disease. Who will transfer the disease to your guys? So, if indeed they all have had an injection, you do not need to have the vaccine. However, problems happened. One time, all children and students, from those in kindergarten to high school, had been asked to have a vaccine for epidemic meningitis. After injection, the children got erupted side effects. The hospital was full of these children. The whole city became scared. I felt scared too. I asked my three children. They all had their own mind: none of them have had the vaccine injection! I said: “Now, well, the children in the whole city might transfer the disease to you three. What should we do?” The train did no in function at that time, so I had to send my nephew and my niece their home by car. My daughter said she did not want to leave. She said: “I want to live or die with the people in the hometown!” I locked my daughter at home. I participated in a “working team”. We went to the school helping the check of the disease condition in the students. After two busy weeks, all are past ok.

 

My daughter’s cousin got type B hepatitis after injection of the type B hepatitis vaccine. The use of steroid drug caused overweight, and many other diseases in the body. I have a friend. She did not get married. All suspected she might have some disorder in philosophy and psychology. I raised this question to her. She was pretty frank. She said that, before her 20 years of old, she was as the same as other girls interesting to the male. One day in winter when she went to the countryside to chop fire-sticks, she got confused in the road and got frozen. She was found and later sent to a hospital. Doctors used a large dose of steroid. Later, when she sees male’s courteous and greeting like to see a show by a clown. She said, with such emotion and psychology to a marriage, it would hurt others as well as herself. So, there is no choice by keeping single.

 

My friend gave birth. After the baby was birthed out, the doctor said the baby had little asthma. The doctor put the baby on the scale; the body weight is ok enough. A mixed vaccine was then injected into the baby. It was the baby of others, not mine, so it is not good for me to stop the vaccine. I would have liked to say if the vaccine could be delayed for a while because the baby had little asthma. Upon coming into the body, the body would have some reaction. Would this increase the burden to the baby body? After injection, the baby was put in a warm cabinet, gave some intravenous infusion liquid and antibiotic, and infused with oxygen too. All of these actions made me very nervous. So little body, just came into the world, was forced to tolerate so many things. How could he endure? I put my hands in the cabinet. The newborn baby held my finger without losing it the whole night.

 

I asked the doctor, I heard that, after a long time of oxygen infusion, there might be permanent damage to the vision of the baby. Should we consider it? The doctor said it is hard to think things so far, it is needed to consider the current need. That night, I had a pushing feeling to hold the baby into my chest. In the morning, before I left, I asked the family member of my friend to give the baby a finger to hold. They laughed at me. I left. The baby died soon. The baby had only asthma. If the result was still the death, after using so many therapies, why we must use them? Why could we not stop doing before failing?

 

When my mother was alive, she opposed an intravenous infusion to such a small baby. My mother, who usually asked her patients do not eat cold food or drink a cold beverage, said the infusion was like to pour cold water to the baby. The baby would die if his Yang Qi were unable to ascend up. When many babies, who were treated in the hospital and the condition became worse and worse, came to my mother, my mother would only stop the infusion, that resulted in the babies’ condition better and better day by day. If a doctor, who only acts according to science but not Yin-Yang, will certainly pour cold water to the babies. Mother also opposed to using the intravenous infusion to those of old people, who showed a low level of Yang Qi in the body. She believed that it would damage the little remaining Yang Qi in the body furthermore. 

 

Since we understand a treatment as constant use of therapies, without action is therefore regarded as no treatment. Many medical conflicts sue against the doctor for not performing therapeutic actions. Now patients may sue the doctor’s saving action is a performing.  So, I think that western medicine does not necessarily think that it is essential the so many therapeutic actions to the small baby and old people. That they are performing is to avoid the blame against them for do nothing.

 

Science is undoubtedly a short cut. However, would it be a good thing for human always to go the short cut? There has been a young boy who came to me. He asked me that you are a lawyer, tell me in truth, how big cost is a crime? For example, if I smuggle, how much the risk rate it would be? I told him, the risk rate for one-time smuggling is 1%. He felt happy after heard my answer: then it is worthwhile to smuggle. I said, however, once a person chooses to be traitor, would he have braveness to be dignity and glorious hero again? The risk to be a traitor is the hurt of people’s thinking style and the damage of the person’s spirit. The risk rate to choose the wrong road is 100%. Whenever there was a death case (murder case) that was not detected out yet, I would comfort the family of the affected family; the case will be detected eventually. My experience is that the criminal who murdered others would float out again, as a ghost pushed him. My daughter said that I am cheating people with superstition. I said, no, I am not. If a person went to a life road against human nature, his emotion would change no matter he wants or not. It would be tough for him to turn to the normal road again so that he would do something again beyond his control. From this point of view, that the Buddhist’s saying "put away the knife, and the butcher becomes a Buddha immediately", means it is tough to turn from a wrong road.

 

Science technique allows human being “smuggle” rich from nature. It also damages the braveness of human that accumulated through billions of years in the natural living environment. It would be tough for a human to get this braveness again. However, what road we are walking now? We have not considered this question carefully yet. 

 

Now, it is impossible for a human to find back our braveness to face nature and live in a natural condition. It is a normal reaction for the current human being to twist calf muscle when meeting a wolf. I said to my daughter, in nature, if a rabbit meets wolf, it does not scare to loss urine but face the wolf to struggle against the wolf calmly. The result for the rabbit against the wolf does not always end as the victory of the wolf. To give up right away is not the rule for the animal when they face the strong opponent. Nowadays, people have repeatedly promoted "wise" rationality of surrendering to a strong opponent.

 

The reason that Chinese medicine does not choose to give up for the reason that Chinese medicine theory and thinking style respect individual human nature and individual value. It believes that, due to the exclusiveness of the time and space, every person has an exclusiveness that others can not replace. In other words, the existing of a person does not deny the existence of another one. Saying that the current human is smart than ancient human and that current scientific achievement can replace the full achievement of human being in previous times, in fact, is expanding the current time and space without limitation. The time and space, in which the current human stay, is, of course, exclusive, no one can replace it. It has its exclusive nature, but the gene of human being does not mutate suddenly. Where is the evidence showing that the current human is smart than old generations? From gene point of view, the current human merely is the recurrence of an ancient human being. What we have more is the historical experience. However, our human being goes for these hundreds of years the “blind bear picks up corn”. The corn in our hands is only one. How can we believe that we are clever than ancient human and rich than them?

 

I can think that I occupied more knowledge than my grandmother, but I cannot think that I am smarter than her. I know that, many questions that confusing many experts can be pointed out directly by her. Along with her death, I know that many practical skills disappeared forever. I cannot taste the salty vegetables that can only be prepared and make out by her. I believe that ancient human can beat and win the tiger and wolf, though the current people deny this with the current reality.

 

My daughter can eat away melon kernel (to eat melon seeds but not shell). But after she went to kindergarten, she ate the whole seeds with the shell. She told me: “All my small friends in the kindergarten all eat the same way” Now, when she read ancient books, she sighed that ancient Chinese knew to eat the kernel of the melon seeds, but current people learn from others to eat the whole seeds. 

 

 

Chapter 82: Mineral radio

 

I accompanied my colleague to Beijing, who had had leukemia and had stem cell transplantation for the treatment. We showed to other patients the successful results, which brought them extreme inspiration and courage to accept the stem cell transplantation.

 

I know, however, not everyone would have the same good result with the stem cell transplantation. When my colleague got the diagnosis report, knowing that it is the worse type of leukemia, we have no any lucky hope at all. She did only one chemotherapy before came into the stem cell transplantation. Our donation and the transplantation step the same time, for the whole treatment process. Other patients, however, had chemotherapy repeatedly, exhausted almost all their body energy before their transplantation. How could the results be the same? So, the doctor said that my colleague was the best candidate for the transplantation.

 

I do not admit that I am a conservative when I am now talking about Chinese medicine. Whether I am a conservative or an extremist is not all depended on my human nature, but on my social status too. If I was born 100 years earlier, I would be most likely to cheer for western medicine, as Mr. Hu Shi. When the things go to some phase point, there must be someone standing out to shout. I term this action as the self-adjusting ability of human being.

 

Whenever I have to hand my self to my western medicine friends, I could not blame western medicine if a medical accident happen. Just like Mr. Liang Tichao did not. My western medicine doctor admired me very much for my attitude not suspecting them. I know, either Chinese medicine or western medicine, both are groping to walk. No way to tell correct or wrong. No matter to treat a symptom or the cause of the diseased, whichever is the urgent mostly should be treated first. Chinese medicine also solves the symptoms. If the boiling water in a pot is spilling over, it is also common to remove the fire away from under the pot. That I chose to use western medicine, I mean to ask them to remove the symptom. How could I blame them not to treat the cause of my disease? Some people laughed at Chinese medicine doctor who also goes to western medicine hospital to see a doctor; they omit that they cannot find a medical accident and conflict associated with the Chinese medicine doctor.

When my mother went to western medicine hospital to see a doctor, she was also a good patient. During her three year’s of paralysis on the bed, she used the therapies for both the symptoms and the cause of her disease.  My mother subscribed journal in the combination of Chinese medicine and western medicine. She had a friend in western medicine. She consulted with them the therapeutic means, following them with the western medical means for the treatment. Mother drunk the herbs, but also had an intravenous infusion of “calcium gluconate”. She discussed with me how to supply some iron element. I said that the element iron could not be extracted out by ordinary way of herbal cooking.

 

Continuously I am warm to the scientific technique as my mother. My attitude is even more extreme than western people. For example, I oppose the law that passed in many countries to forbid the study to clone a human being. Can anyone stop the development of science? To restrict the study in the human clone will affect the whole development of life science. Under the condition that the society in harmony, I hope the science develops faster.

 

When I described to the son of my friend the “mineral radio” that I set when I was young, I said: “It is really a mineral!” My friend is a teacher in literature. She corrected my language error: “You said that it is a mineral radio, it would be an error of repeat in grammar if you say the true mineral again” I said that I wanted to emphasize that the science developed so fast. Nowadays, the child is used to the integrated plate, how could them image there is a big mineral stone on the radio? Seeing that the current children, when they assemble a computer, only need to insert the parts together like they play the building block, I envy them very much. On that early year, after I succeeded to assemble a five-tube and seven-tube radio set, I wanted to assemble my TV set ambitiously. I brought a “multiple-use meter” to see my physic teacher, asked him to choose a monitor to me. My teacher jumped up and said the manually twined deflection coil cannot be used at all. I said I can make it as good as made by machine. The teacher said it is impossible to mildly adjust the TV, without several months. I said I have already made my mind to adjust it for one year… My teacher saw that he could not stop me, so he escaped on the halfway.

 

I think, the reason that science has such good condition and reputation today, would not be because there have been so many warm-blood youth sticks to the scientific research in the earlier years? Through the introduction from my mother and my grandmother, I know that the first group of western medicine doctors in China was those who are excellent people of good character and fine scholarship. The impact of western medicine to Chinese medicine is not only the technique but also those people full of youthful spirit and warm. It is the enthusiasm of the young people who have over-corrected things to form a history going swing.

 

According to Chinese medicine, the herb has bias nature, so human being and the society. The material signaling shown by “Five-yun-six-qi” shifted between the excess and deficiency. If during the time of “May fourth” [5],, the social development of China needed to shift towards the western culture, it is time now for the eastern culture shift back, so to be able to develop further in a better way.

 

The bias of science is reflected very typically now in one scientist. He marks the western medicine and Chinese medicine. He marked the western medicine 90 but the Chinese medicine as 10. This way of marking things is very clear, it meeting the willingness of current people to know the truth. When I, however, tried to apply such marking method to expand to more other things or aspects, to mark the cow knife and the chicken knife; the plane and the train, the US and the China, the scientist and myself, the clear boundary of the “mark” not only disappears, but also incites my confusion in thinking and dissatisfied in emotion. If I were the train being marked ten, should I ask the plane to transport the coal and steel? Could I develop the feeling to hate the train being no the wings, and envy the plane, and develop the emotion and mode of losing interest to work and slowing down the job passively? I would have had been a happy train; now I had no active mind to work due to such a low mark.        

 

Just because it is believed that things can be strictly marked, one is one, two would be two, do not admit there are uncertain factors, not give space to human subjective ability, after having had such “scientific attitude”, one would ask doctor he could live for how long, after he got the diagnosis report for cancer, since we believe the correct of science.

 

However, as it was found in quantum mechanics, due to the presence of some uncertainty, it is impossible to predict things completely. It means, science, as a future-telling man, cannot predict thing correctly. This is as a go match, that looks no hope at all, that sustains by a small piece on the board; it is as the Red Army was forced into the grass field, the Chinese revolution came into a count down for death; as Chinese medicine was declared again and again to die, it was refused out of the mainstream of the medical system. Whenever we say the 1% of hope is just this little uncertainty. This uncertainty is just the holding spot for using one pound of force to lift stuff of thousands of pounds. To try 100% of effort on the 1% hope, is the value of human activity and initiative action. Once we can use this 1% possibility, it would as the Red Army went out of the grass field, as the no-hope go (chess) turned into victory, as the universe turned up and down and down to up wholly. If we hold the “scientific attitude”, give up the 1% hope to try, where would be the colorful life of human being? Would such human life be the one we are chasing for? Under the condition of uncertainty, how could our confirmation be a scientific attitude?

 

Without the impact from western medicine, we would not consider what is Chinese medicine or what is not Chinese medicine. The re-evaluation to western medicine would become possible until the science develops into some level. Western medicine and Chinese medicine compare each other, try each other the advantage and disadvantage. Either western medicine or Chinese medicine can avoid its own “backward” or “predestined fate”. The meaning of “predestined fate” in Chinese must not always mean death, but a serious of disasters it must face before, current and future before it becomes the most potent medical system for the human being.

 

 

Chapter 83: Male doctor in gynecology

 

Although Chinese medicine does not separate pediatric department, gynecology, internal medicine or surgical department…I predict that my daughter may develop into the area of women and children. If a man got a sexually related disease, it is not entirely possible for him to see a female doctor. My mother has no many patients with male diseases. There is one young boy. When he has had sex with his wife, he was scared by someone who rushed into the room. It was his mother who brought him to my mother for the treatment, but he always refused to lift his head during the treatment. There were also some cases, in which it was the wife who comes for a consulting, then brings her husband to come. The youth in our compounds may come to ask my mother something about sex, but there was very rare that an adult came to mother consulting things about reproductive diseases. Therefore, the patient's choice of doctor can also determine the direction of the doctor's development.

 

The science in western medicine always and continuously twists our realization of sex. Though western medicine emphasizes the department separation, it does not emphasize the sex of the doctor and the patient. In gynecology and obstetrics, there are male doctors do an exam and help birth and in male wards, the nurses are more female. It is neither heard that it needs a male to insert a catheter for male patients. Though there a difference in the male and female, there no such restriction at all in science. In a hospital, there is only male or female in physiology, but not in psychology. There are differences between the male and female in the outlook, but not in actual essence. In other words, no matter the doctor sees a patient, or a patient sees a doctor, both have no sense of sex difference. This is not hard for a doctor, but may not really be so for a patient.

 

The extent without sex difference depends on the profession too. It is not easy to be followed by a person out of that profession. Even for a male doctor who performs a surgical operation for a naked female, he may not be able to describe the process of sexual intercourse. One time when we brought a rape criminal to the court, the criminal hesitated and not tell out the process of the rape. The judge said his attitude was not good. From the beginning I felt strange too, you did all the things, why you feel so hard to tell out? However, when I had a look at the person in the court, I realized the reason. Though this is a case associated with private secrete, the court is not open to the public, the judge, the public prosecutor, the secretary, even the council, all are women. All women sat around a man and let the man describe the process of his raping. No strange that he felt embarrassed. So, I had to convince him, to regard this description as a patient tells his disease to a doctor, to tell out his story without emotional stress, so to get a better commend for his good attitude toward admission of guilt

 

For about 40 years, the best doctor in the gynecology and obstetrics in our city is male. I had more contact with him. When my friends or relatives met some trouble in women system, in birth-giving, abortion, insert birth control ring, I would bring them to this doctor. His medical technique is excellent. After his retirement, patients went to his home for help, that made the gynecology in the hospital short of patients. To solve this problem, when he was 70 years of old, a new coming young president of the hospital invited him back to work as a president of the gynecology and obstetrics department.

 

My nephew was birth at his home. It was a difficult birth. The male doctor wrote a slip of paper, asked me to the hospital to find his female student to come for help. The female doctor asked two male doctors coming together. I asked her quietly why she called the male doctors. She said helping delivery is work needing a labor work. It is hard for an ordinary female doctor. She has been exhausted before to faint. After they came, they injected oxytocin to the lady. The two male doctors pushed the fetus downwards in turn until my nephew came out. 

 

If I bring my female friends to see a male doctor, and if they had emotional embarrass, hesitated to take off clothes if the doctor needs to have an inside exam, I would shout to them: “Take it off! The Doctor only sees your disease, not your person!” When I have medical trouble, I also come to the male doctor. He usually answered my question while getting gloves on his hands to have inner vagina exam to me. I would ask him what kind of problems he wanted to check. After he told me, I would say: “Please wait for a movement” Then I would go to a female doctor to have the vagina exam, telling her what she needed to check. After then, I went back to the male doctor with the results. The male doctor never got angry for my reaction. He always tried to help me. However, my friends blamed me dealing with them differently. I really cannot tell why I myself cannot separate him as male and as a doctor. It is hard for me to smear off the sex difference.

 

I have had asked the male doctor how he became a doctor in the gynecology and obstetrics. He said he had worked in a military troop as a healthcare nurse before. Later, there was a chance to have continued education to be a doctor. Others chased to choose some departments. He was too honest to compete with others, so he was allocated to the gynecology and obstetrics. Heard this, I sighed. If a doctor could forget the sex difference, there would have had no little male doctor in the gynecology and obstetrics.

 

Among the medical conflicts, some are associated with the sexually harass. I do not think that all are due to the over sensitivity of the patients who have psychological disorders since I had the experience in which a male doctor kept touching my stomach. So, I doubted before if it is entirely possible to ask a person with sex to perform the no-sex job, even if it is for the sake of science. Even if the one can, would it affect his/her nature?

 

When I was a matchmaker, I met someone who refused to date with people who work in a hospital. They said the people working a hospital have less shaming essence and less concern about sex difference. For this, we may laugh at the foolish of the public, but science makes some people who are engaged in science dissimilated. This is an indisputable fact.

 

My grandmother told me a joke before. One day in the early last century, my grandmother visited her friend. Her husband was the early western medical doctor in China. My grandmother knew the old style of baby delivers. There was a man hurried to my grandmother for help. But unfortunately, she was absent. The western medical doctor said: “Let’s go, I can help you” The man felt stunned: “Doctor, the person who needs baby deliver is a female!” The doctor said: “Oh, the one who needs deliver is a woman?” He put down the medical case and sat down again.

 

I met this doctor when I was young. I called him Jin grandfather. He had a very strong science nature. My grandmother said, there were more Chinese medical doctors than the western medical doctors at that time. He opened a western medicine clinic. To be able to stand in the China lands, the doctor needed a much stronger technique and very good medical moral. A girl was living close to him and loved him very much. Day by day she stood under the window of the clinic watching him. The result was that she became disease-like. My Jin grandfather is western medicine. The feeling to science as to religion made him have a strong mind, but he could not, like mother did, to advice the girl’s mother to find a boyfriend for the girl. This made the girl, who just opened sex feeling but no way to release, went to Red zone to be a prostitute. I believed my grandmother’s story entirely since my Jin grandfather was more handsome than his brother – his brother is the earliest film king in China – Mr. Jin Yan (金焰).

 

My Jin grandfather’s father was the earliest western medicine in Korea 100 years ago. It is said that there is a bronze statue in the current Seoul medical university garden. My Jin grandfather’s mother described to my grandmother when her husband graduated with Ph. Degree, he rode on a high horse, the government staffs beat gongs to open the road for him, lift him on a bridge, showing him to the public for three days. She was very proud of that. From this story, I know how attention the Korea government paid to western medicine. At the same time in China, the public did not pay special attention to either western medicine or Chinese medicine.

 

I have no doubt that people who have religious feelings about science can make themselves transcend gender. But is it a reality to ask a man who regards the doctor as only a job to find a way of living, to exceed the sex difference? If he can exceed the sex difference, would it mean that he exceeds human nature too? For a person who transcends humanity, do we blame him for being indifferent to life?

 

Chapter 84: “Small” skill in Chinese medicine

 

When I was scared when I was young, my mother would insert her fingers into my hair fondling: “Fine, fine, no worry, no worry…” I usually calmed down. This way has been passed from generation to generation. I did so to my daughter and would do the same way to my grandson. Such “calming” used for children are not believed to be useful for adult, nor being a way of therapy.

 

A youth had poor sleep at night. I asked his mother to “calm” him, since he just participated in an operation of acting execution of the death penalty to a criminal. I think that he was scared. For this, the young people laughed at me no reasoning. First, he refused to admit that he was scared. The evidence is his calm and quiet on the spot. Second, even if he was scared, he was no longer a child. How would calm by mother work? No matter how he thought, his mother accepted my suggestion completely.

 

One friend, more than 40 years of old, had a car accident. He acted very effectively, calling the police, helping to save. He was excellent doing these. Later he got sick. He had a poor appetite, chronic fatigue, poor sleep… Nothing was found wrong in the hospital. Nothing works either, medication injection, taking medicine, etc. Seeing he was full of tiredness on his face, his wife worried, believing that he got some severe disease, but it has not been detected out yet. She brought him to various hospitals, making him very nervous in emotion. One day, his mother, who was 70 years of old and lived in the countryside, came to visit him. His mother asked him after seeing him: “You have a blue tint on your nose stem. What scared you?” He and his wife felt hilarious. It should be normal for an adult to meet and deal some uncommon things. With the support of rationality, how could be scared? However, his mother insisted that he got scared and needed to call back his spirit. So, in the deep night, she went out to the field, calling his name as she called him back to eat when he was young. She also fondled his hair as for a child, singing a song of “calming spirit”. Seeing his mother was so engrossed, he would like to act like a child, allowing his mother to do what she wanted to do. When we met later, he had returned to his previous way of very active again. Friends asked how he was cured. After heard his story, we all admired the mystery of his mother’s spiritual calming. 

 

With the protection of reasoning, uncommon events do not express out on our body as a scaring. This, however, does not mean that our emotion and spirit are not affected or impacted. I also was very calm in the uncommon event, but later, those who showed scared, lost control of the action, lost consciousness, usually returned normal, I, however, felt tired more and more until my heart disease recurred.

 

“Mother” bears meaning not only in physiology but more in psychology. “Mother” can tear off the rationality coat over our body, calm our heart directly. Rationality can act as “father”, but not replace the “mother” No matter how “father” “teach” us; our heart still needs the calm from “mother” For this, the “calming” way for a child sometimes works significant role to an adult too.

 

I saw that my mother treated a patient with spirit diverted due to scare. My mother used acupuncture and moxibustion very quickly and “calm” the patient too. After the patient finally cried out tiredly, in the chest of my mother, his emotion became calm gradually.

 

My mother usually used a small skill in the treatment. When I was young, and when I had spare time, mother would ask me to buy several pieces of bamboo, four cents in thick. I cut it open, make them into small cups of one inch high each. I boiled the bamboo cups in herbs. After mother inserted the needle to the point, I would pick out the bamboo from the pot, swing little bit off the water, then hold it onto the needle. Mother also asked me to fold herb Aiye into shape as a cigarette, store them in a box nicely. She said, if there are patients with stomach pain, abdomen pain, bloating, hiccup, take out one such herbal column, burn it, perform the Moxibustion therapy on the acupuncture point of “Zusanli” and “Sanyinjiao” and other points. The illness would be ok without taking any herb therapy.

 

One year, my senior brother got acute appendicitis. After heard that doctor said he needed a surgical operation, he tolled off the bed, escaped from the hospital with holding his abdomen. My mother was urgent, asked me to catch him to use acupuncture to him. But he crawled up to the top of the house. I could not catch him. At that time, there was no sugar cake to be used to “cheat” him to drink herbs. The whole family could only wait for him to fall from the house after having the appendices broken. I discussed with my brother again and again. He only accepts one therapy – Moxibustion, which can only be performed by me. He eventually did not have surgical therapy. He did not eat drugs or have acupuncture. It was hard to even for me to believe that Moxibustion can be used to cure appendicitis.

 

The therapy used in Chinese medicine can be named as small skill. A disease that can be cured, of course, can not be regarded as severe disease. From this point, I do not oppose saying that the disease that Chinese medicine treats are small diseases. In psychology, we wish that the disease we got is a severe disease, sometimes. One of my friends, whom I have mentioned before, later told me that, the reason for him not listened to me not to accept the surgical operation to cut one side lung, is to show to others that his disease is severe, to show that he did not pretend to be sick. A disease needing open-chest surgery is, of course, a severe disease. But in more times, we do not want us to get severe disease, for example, if we get the diseases that need to replace the liver, kidney, or change bone marrow, etc. If we really get such disease, the first thing we may have to face is not the disease per se, but the much harder thing - the human nature.

 

One of my friend who has had a severe surgical operation asked me to write an article to admire his wife, to express his thanks to her. I laugh them as to show. Would it really need to do so between a couple? He said you do not know the reason. I saw many patients who were thrown off by another partner. In the ward, if the patient is accompanied by the parents, the brother, and sister, but not all the partner, it means that the patient is thrown off by the partner. The attack from the being thrown is much heavy than the disease. I wrote this admiration article, but I also felt some sadness. The modern science technology in many aspects put human nature into a terrible test that has never had before in human history.

 

When one of my friends needed several tens of thousands dollar for surgical operation, his family fall silent. I “catch” them one by one, forced them to supply money. Failed to refuse my question, his father said: “Could you ensure for us the surgery succeeds? If not, would it mean that you force us to break the whole family (in financial), with loss of both money and people? You donate ten thousand first, then come to force us” I never transfer these words to this of my friend. If the parent feeling to a child cannot bear such medical test, how could we ask the partner, the brother and sister do better way?

 

One day, I got a call from the hospital. It said that one old hospitalized lady was left in the hospital by her children since they were unable to pay the medical cost for her. The hospital asked to handle this issue since I was stuff who ensured the woman’s right. I tried a lot to bring all of the old lady’s children together. By cheating and by convincing them, asked them to bring money to the hospital. The old lady did not feel happy or glad for my bring the money to her, but refused to eat and finally died.

 

This makes me think, if the “treatment” is regarded so much so that it cannot be bear by loving feeling or family feelings, then the accept to death might be induced by some loss of hope. Though it has nothing to do with medicine, but it is needed to do some adjustment. How can we adjust it?

 

 

Chapter 85: Sun Wukong

 

A sick child took medicinal for a long time. His mother saw that my daughter's pulse assessment was pretty correct so that she asked what else medicine he needed more. My daughter said, for so small child, why he needed to eat so many medicinal? Do some massage, use some heat application, the results are usually pretty good enough. The body of the small child is very sensitive. Improper use of a medicinal is easy to damage it rather than to help it. So, it should be very careful to use medicine to a child. My daughter did some massage to the child when she was talking. Only for a while, the child felt very comfortable. He told his mother that he liked such therapy very much.

 

Due to the coming of western medicine, the concept for a doctor changed. Compared with the big surgical operation for transplantation of heart, liver, kidney or other organs, Chinese medicine doctor cannot be regarded as a real doctor. For this, I do not oppose the comment that Chinese medicine is a supplementary medicine. The achievement of Sun Wukong on the road to Indian is vast, but would he be willing to carry the luggage on a carrying pole for two days?  Did he ask to kick off Sha Heshang, because he himself goes in front of the team to remove any obstacles for the team? I never thought that the monk Tang is a lower-ability leader. His “kindness” is really a smart eye of scientific value. He did not deny one value with another value to allow finally there is only one value left. He did not apply the principle of “high-ability survives, and lower-ability are depleted out”. He did not let Sun Wukong take over all the benefits. He refused and repelled Sun Wukong several times away of the team, but never kicked other members of the team out. He would rather risk being eaten by monsters than allow the competition consciousness of Sun Wukong against the heaven.

 

It is not the defect of Chinese medicine for its no competition mind. It is neither the reason to delete it from the medical system. I had worked in a women organization for some time. Before I went to it, I was advised that it has much trouble with many women in a group. They have conflict each other very easily. The inner condition of the organization proved this comment. After observation for some time, I found that the problem is not on the sex, but the improper allocation of staff. Since there was less chance for a woman to promote, those who promoted were all as “Sun Wukong”. If the Monk Tang brings three “Sun Wukong” to the west to get Buddhism literature, what would happen?

 

Chapter 86: Five-element: democracy

 

Someone laughed at Chinese medicine and suggested to have a competition with western medicine, to decide which one should be kept to develop. They think that this is very fare and pretty scientific way. I think that such science is not as practical as the “kindness” of the Monk Tang. From this point of view, I suggest having moral, to “combine” the western medicine and Chinese medicine into the “serve the people”. Due to the block between the professionals, people would almost to launch a “Holy War” due to the difference in thinking. Only when moral has a common value, it can conduct the associated part each other. Therefore, moral is not a void or a hollow thing. It is not produced to make people royalty. Its value is no less than medicine.

 

I think that it is the basic attitude to realize the different value of different things, to understand that no anything has exclusiveness. Chinese medicine is established on this attitude. In Chinese medicine theory, nothing is absolute, Yin-Yang, Five-element, and many others. Nothing is not in a course of development and movement.

 

I did not take medication when I get a common cold. For this, I got criticized. I did not take medication when I coughed. My friends said that it would cause other diseases. As they said, I started to have swollen, sour lower back… My friends said it was the symptoms for a kidney infection. I however still did not take any medication. Several days later, the swelling disappeared, so did other symptoms. On the other side, my friend took medication, had an intravenous infusion, had an increased amount of the medication after he had a cough and had a bacteria culture. He told me, the development of the disease must stop on its way. The result is, he did stop the disease in the lung but not in the kidney. The lab test report showed that he really got nephritis. Of course, it is not a mild disease. It needed to be treated seriously. He felt strange for this. For me, I got the symptoms for nephritis but did not get the nephritis. For him, he tried every step to prevent to be nephritis, but he got it. What’s the reason? I said, when I cough, my common cold disappeared. The movement I had swollen, my cough stop. When my swollen disappeared, all other symptoms in my body disappeared. The reason is: when the disease went a full round in my body, it was no longer a disease. You did not allow it to go a full course, but stop it in the phase of the kidney. Now, treat your nephritis with patience. Seeing he was very depressed, I advised him to take it easy, if he repeats the thing, would he have braveness as I did? It is one of the reasons the “risk” manner of the Chinese medicine that the current people feel hard to accept it. Though there is a risk in western medicine too, people have the freedom to choose it with risk in mind.

 

Chinese medicine not only does not look at things in an absolute manner but also not to look itself in such a way. Therefore, from history, Chinese medicine never stops to check, review and criticize itself. This phenomenon was regarded by someone to prove that Chinese medicine has no enough solid base. It also makes some scholar confused.

 

One internet friend wrote a letter and said: ginseng cannot be taken in a large dose, but he dared to eat it as a turnip. However, he said it depends on the way to eat it. It needs to eat a little bit by little bit, to increase the endurance of the body, then it would have no problem to risk life to eat a large dose once. I agree with him completely. The tendency nature of the herbs and the tendency of person is a relative concept. If in the Galaxy there is another “earth”. It has everything as in our earth but cabbage, and if they come to our earth as a guest, they may get poison after eating our cabbage. If the ginseng was everywhere on the earth, it was the main dish of our ancestors, they have had tolerated all of the poisonings from the ginseng, then when we eat it now, it would be as a turnip. On the contrary, if the turnip is as rare as the ginseng from history, we may get poison form it if we eat it now. 

 

This relativity applies to western medicine. It is proved by the fast change of the generations of antibiotic. From this point of view, much so-called new development or creation of western medicine is like to march on the same spot to maintain the healing effect. Therefore, in our Chinese medicine, when we start the medication, using herbs, the time and the territory, all of such factors must be considered together. Sometimes, I joked with my friend: you do not need to take medicine. You only need to come to live in my home for sometimes, eat our meals rather than your current ones, you would be able to get better as taking medications. The couple who get the same disease proved what I mean here.

 

The harmony of the Chinese medicine makes it possible that, no matter how to use its own spear to stick its own shield, it could explain itself well. Those who feel confused are those who fail to understand the nature of Chinese medicine. If we hold the “spear and shield” of the Chinese medicine, but forget and throw its “the way to of explanation”, and if we fix the Chinese medicine on a given time and space but omit its history before and after that time and space, then the spear of Chinese medicine will break its own shield. This is just the typical way in current time; people use it to criticize Chinese medicine.

 

To me, it does not mean that I must defend Chinese medicine but that the way to criticize Chinese medicine should be as for any element in the five elements system, in which every element needs to be promoted but also to be inhibited by other elements, so to make it in balance. The spiritual nature of the “five elements” is the democracy. Such democracy thinking can prevent the science not develop into a monster.

 

Chapter 87: Escape of corporeal soul

 

I accompanied my friend to see a Chinese medicine doctor. After she finished the consultation, she wanted to compare with me. She held my hands and told the Chinese medicine doctor: “Please see her too” The doctor felt my pulse and said: “the spirit is held in, but the corporeal soul is evaporated”. Heard this, I smiled but said nothing. My friend felt scared. She wanted to ask the doctor more. I pulled her out. She looked at me the whole body, with a strange feeling on her face: “This doctor is correct. He indeed said that your corporeal soul has escaped off”. I told her that that doctor did not talk nonsense. I felt that the word “the corporeal soul has escaped out” (魂收魄散) described my condition precisely. My friend asked me: “What does it mean?” said that I could not explain it clearly, but I now felt that I have no feeling to time and space. I thought that means the “escape of the corporeal soul” by that doctor.

 

My friend cannot understand what’s feeling for the loss of time and space. I tried to explain to her: have you ever had an experience in which you had a sleep, after wake up, you cannot realize what’s the time at that movement and did not know where you are? She said she had it before. I said, such condition usually lasted for only several seconds. If such condition continues for several days or tens of days, would it be called the evaporation out of the corporeal soul? She said: “Wouldn’t you now realize where you are and if it is in the morning or at night?” I said I know, but I feel not confirmed. That is why I always look at the watch, the street plates around and need to check with my friends and relatives to confirm. She startled and said: “Would you see me not real?” I said: “I see you not only as with a block as a mountain, but hear your voice as blocked with a film. Even I see myself as of seeing another person.” My friend said: “Ai, your condition is very severe, but I see you are pretty normal” I said: “Of course I am ok. Didn’t you hear that doctor said: my spirit is in the hold?” She asked how such a condition comes. I said, if I know, I will not let it happen as such. She said we should go to the doctor to find the reason. I said that the doctor will say that it is due to physical exhausting that exhaust the body energy and blood. The therapy would be supply more blood and Qi. The western medicine would say that I have a mental disease but not know the reason or mechanism for it, nor have proper medications for it.

 

She felt worried and felt it is scaring. With more think, the mental disease is also scaring. It must be treated. She suggested me to see Chinese medicine first. I did not hurry to see a doctor. Not to speaking that disease has its own course of development, it should be allowed to develop some steps further, if it is possible. For a human, it does not mean that there is no need to experience and to feel the disease status. Why someone felt mad when faced death? Probably it is due to he never experience the strange body feeling before death.

 

Why there are so many people chosen suicide? Probably it is because they can not accept the strange feeling of the body. We normally separate the feeling as “normal” and abnormal”. The “normal” feeling is not only our certificate to live, but also the weapon to criticize the “abnormal”. So, it is more terrible and dangerous to deny this emotional status than the “abnormal” feeling per se. This makes people not only refuse to experience the abnormal feeling, but also try to refuse it by giving up life.

 

From the plenty of description of the spirit and corporeal soul in the Chinese medicine literature, I think, the life environment of ancient Chinese made them also have such “loss of spirit and disappear of corporeal soul” experience. There should have much more chance for them to have such experience. So, the ancient Chinese could not only deal with such condition calmly but also found out the methods to solve such a problem. The coming of psychology makes us throw away the “valuable secret” that the ancient ancestors left for us. The knowledge of psychology has no help for us to understand the suicide people’s emotion, nor help to prevent their suicide.

 

Currently, the depression is as cancer: once found, it has already been in a later stage. The function of the psychology makes us accept other’s suicide with our peaceful mind. Would our cool emotion reflect some shortage in our heart and emotion? For me to have such escape of corporeal soul condition, aside from due to my over exhausting, I felt that there are some other reasons, that I cannot find it from rational level, and my consciousness cannot scan it out.

 

The “loss of corporeal soul” created me a chance and tool to explore myself. I want to take this chance to search every corner of my body and spirit, to find the position of the “broken layer”. Human, why it needs lonely? It needs to stay itself, to communicate and to find the signal send out by the body. It is the need to “explore”. For this, I know that someone builds up an abundant spiritual life is not for being a sage, or a wise person, but for self-adjustment. Therefore, a sage overcomes himself is not to show an example for the public, but to get rid of his own embarrasses. It is meaningless to deny the effort of a sage and to approve his hypocritical by finding an error from his body. I told my daughter, it is not a way to make people get advanced.

 

My friends felt very strange: “You are so calm in front of stress. You could keep calm even the Mountain Tai falls broken away. Even if we all get a mental disease, you would not. How could you get such loss of corporeal soul?” I said, too calm may not be a good thing either. Too solid is not a good thing for a building, what about to a human being? The result is broken if everything is too solid without a kind of flexibility.

 

The willing of the people is to break, but the “corporeal soul” does not. The loss of corporeal soul can be said being a body symptom, but it might a reflection of my life condition. This is just the reason that I do not want to solve the symptom urgently. My friend said with a smile: if you are mayor, would your loss of corporeal soul reflect the problem of this city? I smiled too and said: probably. Would you do think that the spiritual condition of Prime Minister Zhou reflected the social condition at that time?

 

When loss the feeling of time and space, I need a lonely feeling to connect with my own body, I also need my relatives to adjust my position. One friend had superstition to psychology doctor. She went to Beijing, spent eight thousand dollars with a psychologist for “talking therapy”. When she came back, she was very disappointed. She said she would have spent such amount of money on “collective talk” to get a better result. So I think, the lifestyle of western people to keep private secret makes them depend on a psychologist. The lifestyle of Chinese to communicate with others, the so-called “bad habit”, makes us easy to learn from others: using others as our mirror. These mirrors not only help us to wash face but also pour light beams to the bottom of our heart.

 

At a party, my colleagues and I had a drinking game: everyone invited you a cup of wine (liquor) and tell out one defect of yours. If you deny it, you need to drink a cup of penalty. Whether the defect pointed out is correct or not, is decided by all others. I thought, the inviting wine needed to be drunk, and the penalty wine might not be drunk, since whoever has no such tolerance to criticize? However, I saw that my colleagues, one by one, drunk the penalty wine. The defects pointed out are precisely correct, but none of them admit it. All of them could not prevent from denying. When it was my turn when I heard my defects, I laughed, I felt they are not correct at all. I thought, without my denying, others would refuse these proposed defects and gave me a fare adjustment. To my surprise, they all nod and agree. I felt angry. I felt this is a plot. How could you all do this way just for pushing me to drink more wine? So, I knocked the table and complained… the results are: all criticized me until I was speechless, convinced, and drunk the wine.

 

This is as that the person standing aside has a more clear view. Others can usually see your defects that you cannot see by yourself. Your friend who knows of you and who understand you are more helpful than the professional knowledge of a psychologist. Compared with the women I saw when I was young, the current women have no little way of put on a show of bad temperament. The scale of the exam, the recruit, and the promotion all fixed the human being into a fixed manner and standard behavior. The way of treating a headache if there is a headache fixes all "bend" position in the body that has a chance to bend. There is no “bending” action to divert the pushing force from outside; the life would have only had to “break”. So, the psychology that “solve” the “bend” would have to solve the “broken”. For this, the psychology became more and more abstruse. 

 

 

 

Chapter 88: “Lazy” Chinese

 

I had a dream. I dreamed a man criticized me. His conviction was so strong that I felt as I understood and realized the things suddenly and very clearly. At the time when I felt I was much clear for the point, admired to him very much, I also felt I was nothing, felt self-inferior and depression. After waking up, I still felt depressed. My daughter said: “I never see a person who is so good at creating self-inferior. You cannot realize that the man in the dream to criticize you is yourself. It seems that you need personality assembling. Indeed, the points used by the man in the dream are supplied by myself! This made me very happy. However, how my own opinion became other's in the dream? Moreover, I became being criticized? Would it be, as my daughter said, to keep the long habit of being self-inferior, I make the “original myself” into "others" to admire?

 

I defend my self that it was the specific emotion in a specific environment. For hundreds of years, the main emotion in the Chinese is lack of confidence. In the conflict condition between the eastern and the western culture, the original self and the current self cannot recognize each other. I am not the only one who has such emotion embarrasses. If we need to assemble them, it needs all of us assembling. The older I am, the more I understand what means the Mr. Q. I really do not want to admit there is such an original self. It has to be assembled. Especially in the current, it is too embarrassing. Who does not want to live comfortably? What about as Faust to give up himself to a devil? What about to be a Mr. Q, to cheat himself and cheat others? It does not mean we did not do so before. Chinese would feel a headache to see a devil too.

 

Chinese people are not blank paper, so they are not pure in spirit. For example, if foreigner opposes Chinese medicine, they may eat the ginseng like a turnip. Such hypocritical can be seen in those who are fully westernized. Since, if you are Chinese, you cannot get rid of China through opposing China. My grandmother said, Japanese invader never trust the Chinese traitor. It is not easy to let Chinese as “good people”, since they cannot believe in anything fully with heart. It is not easy either to let Chinese as terribly bad people; their kindness would turn back again when they are too bad to some extreme. During the time when the Japanese invader controlled China, my grandmother hid five escaped soldiers from puppet army. However, when the Japanese gave up and escaped, she brought a basket of pancakes to chase to send to them.

 

My friend said the Chinese heart is not on the government but in the outside the government. So, to criticize the government’s Confucianism does not shack off the base of the Confucianism. People used to believe that it is Goethe who created Faust. They believe that it is Goethe’s freedom to create whichever creature. However, Mr. Jung said it is the Faust who creates Goethe. It is due to the self of Faust, that pushes Goethe to improve itself up until the Faust get good fate. So, to create Faust is the “dedicated and decided fate” of Goethe. Tagore said: “It is the world spirit to come in that knock my heart window, or it is my spirit that wants to go out?” The whole idea of heaven, earth and people is created by the Chinese, and it is also the "correct reflection of objective laws in the human mind." Though it cannot be painted like a new picture, the spirit can respond to the calling from the outside. During the thinking movement of such echo reaction from inside and outside, it is impossible for Chinese to neglect such willingness of the "original self" to re-see the world. Such “designed fate” cannot be avoided by selling the spirit to the devil or act as the Mr. Q. When we suggest throw away the traditional culture, did we remember that we are not only the sufferer of the culture, but also its creator? So, if the culture needs to be killed off, it is not enough to just “burn the books”, but also need to “kill the scholars”. 

 

I am not going to defense and advocate Chinese medicine or Chinese culture. How could I not know the advantage of western medicine and western culture? I am a pragmatist. If western medicine and the western culture can be used directly and if it works, why we try so hard, bearing the self-inferior feeling, to try hard to find the best way by ourselves? The hundred of the year of history to learn from the western makes us lose the original aim of learning. If the outside failed to wake up the inside, the Chinese would keep in “sleep”. Mr. Q is the Chinese, who lost self, separated personality, with spirit nowhere to touch, and walking in a dream. 

 

It is right to say that Mr. Q has not been awakened. Without calling back his spirit, how could he wake up? Many people doubt that the Chinese culture suffered from heart failure, doubt its value, suggest change a heart. The power of the Chinese heart indeed is not as strong and western culture heart. Chinese culture is short of the separation power, religion power, tragedy motion and hero spirit of the western culture, all of which are needed to create great “potential” movement. The self-consistency of the Chinese culture causes the “inertness” of the Chinese in spirit.

 

My daughter’s art teacher felt some pity for her not go to the road of art. I also feel strange, how she resisted against the dream to be a star? She told me, she loves art. But if she did not meet the Chinese medicine, she must have been to the art. She said: “Art needs suffering to ferment, and with life to sacrifice. It can be approved by the difficult life of the artists, short life of rock musician. There is a side effect of art on the human being too. It is the Chinese medicine that allows me to stand out of its side effect to enjoy the art.” Considering that some people are trying to find the reason for the backward of Chinese art, I found the answer from my daughter. My daughter and I measure the heart's standards are not only according to its power. Athletics have a hidden problem in their hearts, and the life span of man is shorter than a woman. To nourish heart is important to the heart. I think that not great of  Chinese medicine is not its defect like we should not regard the eyes of a blind is defect because his hearing ability is excellent. From time to time, my friends may accuse me too weak. They may abuse me being Mr. Q. I admit: “I am that ugly Chinese”.

 

Applying “Stimulating method” by swearing at somebody usually does not work well for those of people whose thinking is in a self-consistent, since the “Fire” excited is depleted off by “Soil”, counteracted by “Water” and exhausted by “Metal” in the flow of the five elements. It is hard to form angry Fire to push the person to act. Therefore, the Chinese are relatively less aggressive, less action and less completive. Such national nature is under criticizing now. The reason that the Chinese medicine is associated with the Chinese culture is that Chinese medicine includes the sky, the land, and some more concepts into the medicine for the human. A young goy said, when he was learning an ancient zither, why there were so many stories and talking about playing the instrument?  I said if you had had contact with the Chinese culture, you would not feel it hard to learn the zither.

 

Chinese culture is a series of systems. No matter which door you open, you would come into the same room. Einstein failed to open and connect all rooms of the different departments of western culture. For Chinese characters, without creating any new word, the characters available are enough to express the meaning of a new concept. During construction of a new theory, if there are any missing parts, then along with the development of this department, the creation of any new element may break the current relationship between concept, so causing new allocation or classification. Such broken and re-organization might be called as development or progression, it can also be called as the concept re-new, or correction. For Chinese medicine, however, it is not allowed.

 

Why my mother gave me a lot of classical books/literature in Chinese medicine? Since if not master the Chinese medicine from the whole view, but only from a local part to learn the Chinese medicine, I would most possibly renew my concept again and again. How would the patients not be treated by me with tomorrow’s old concepts? If this correction or renew of the concept is completed, would the patients not be treated turn and toss? If the correction is false, would the therapy use today not be pseudo-science tomorrow? If Chinese medicine does so, it would need to create a set of “science’ theory to support its way. The Chinese medicine cannot keep the same step of the time, can not keep the “trend of the times” created by the hero western medicine. The “trend of the times” has changed nature, including the human being, the part of nature.

 

The human being faced by current medicine is no longer “natural human being”. The road on which disease comes is a twisted and twisted mountain road. This has not been recognized by western medicine yet. So, in the book of the current western medicine, it is written: “the reason for the disease is not clear. The mechanism for it is not clear yet” I think, the medical research needs not the samples that have not been contaminated. For the current “task”, it is needed to solve it out of the current “time”.

 

 

Chapter 89: Influence by gene

 

If the concept of health of Chinese medicine has never appeared in history, would it be suggested by western medicine one day? When western medicine proposed the “Chinese medicine” theory as a new theory, would people feel hard to understand? Someone may oppose that, how could western medicine suggest a “Chinese medicine” theory? The Chinese medicine and western medicine are two different medical systems, no compatible each other, so no possibility to connect. For this comment, I do not agree. Who said that a new theory must be compatible with the existing one? Classical mechanics, the general relativity and the quantum mechanics, are they compatible? No limiting zone for science. Not compatible is not only allowed in the science, but it is also the expression of the expansion force of the science. 

 

It is described that the science is always developing according to one logic, based on one theory, so to blame Chinese medicine being not logic. It is described as the science would have the “unified field theory” a quite long time ago, and as all theories are included in one unified field theory based on a cause-result mechanism, so the Chinese medicine can be excluded off the field. Otherwise, what’s the scientific reason to ask Chinese medicine to be compatible with western medicine? The occurrence of quantum mechanics does not deny or replace the classic mechanics. Rather, they work in a different area. People do not deny the usefulness of the classic mechanics in the production of a car for it is not applicable in the production of a nuclear bomb. Since the “unified field theory” has not been developed out, every part holds truth, who indeed has the right to delete and cancel the Chinese medicine?

 

Chinese medicine now gets a new life power. If the presence and the development of Chinese medicine before is the historical need, now, its life power comes from the space that is left along by the development of western medicine. Even if the Chinese medicine does not come to fill this space, some other similar medical system will be developed to fill it. This is the way by which the science develops. Even apparently not compatible things are not really and not compatible. The compatible of the thinking has its physiology basis. In this question, we can follow the natural law. The personality of my mother and my father is very different. For example in the idea for wealth and money, they are not compatible. My father is stingy but my mother is generous. As their child, what I would get their inherit? There would have only three possibilities: first, as my father, extremely stingy; second, as my mother, very generous; third, compatible the personality of my mother and father, not so stingy or generous. The only impossible result is: stingy but also generous, since it is illogical.

 

However, the illogical thing happens. I am very stingy but also very generous. My colleague cried out in alarm to my subconscious behavior: “Why you add water into ink?” My leader also felt very angry with me: “We have nice paper. Why you always use the used paper and write a report on the paper back to me?” My friends said: “Why whenever we suggest throwing away a dish that had fall into corrupt, you would eat it all?” I cannot answer these questions.

 

On the other hand, my generousness exceeds my mother a lot. I not only give out all that I have, but I could also borrow money by the name of others to sign on the borrowing receipt. So, some offices would like to send the relief money to me, depend on me to allocate it out.

 

Psychology doctor may think that this is my conflict personality. To me, it is pretty normal actually, since if I am not stingy, the father part in my body will feel discomfort, which needs me to care every mild thing, not waste anything, big or small. In the same way, if I do not spend money to help others, if I can help them with money, the mother part in my body would feel discomfort. Therefore for me to live comfortably, being able to eat and to sleep well, I must be both stingy and generous. No any part can be neglected.

 

So, the chain of the gene does not link as our understanding. The apparent conflict personality is unified in my body perfectly. The gene combined in my body comes from my direct ancestor of thousands of generations. From gene point of view, I am them, and they are me. But I do not own these ancestors exclusively. From my blood system reverse up not far, I would catch cross with the ancestor of other people. My grandmother’s mother might be your grandmother’s mother-in-law. Vertically, from many and many of your previous ancestors, you can find all the gene currently in your body. In other words, they are the generations of your life. Horizontally, the gene of current people came from your ancestors. So, you can also find all of your genes from current people. We can say that our current people share the live generations by generations. We so exist currently and historically. If we really inherited in such a way, then, what thinking manner is really not compatible? Of course, the human being does not become a flock of sheep without personality due to the compatible gene mixing.

 

On the contrary, once the individual thinking style is formed, it expresses very strong independent and self-protection realization. Without very strong feeling power it would not open. Compatibility against willingness would cost the damage of the body health.

 

It can be said, it is due to the feeling of the human being that protected the independence of thinking. So, we can understand why a human has rationality but also keeps feelings. The two aspects have been bind together. If the conflict in thinking cannot be solved logically, if it cannot be solved, as the Buddhism suggested to “leave it going naturally”, it needs to be solved with breaking through and overcoming manner. But, what’s the breaking through and overcoming manner? After my marriage, I am not compatible with my father’s family in many thinking. That I tried my best costs my health in body and in the heart. After my daughter’s birth, I found surprisingly: my daughter’s thinking manner, the value desire, the behavior in speaking and action, all are like copied from her father’s family. I am amazed: my abdomen was borrowed to give a birth of other family’s baby! But the God designed that I love my daughter without any condition.

 

Daughter is a gobbledegook (heaven book). I watched her and felt strange. I cannot understand her behavior. Then I re-paid attention to her father, tried to carefully understand his thinking, feeling, personality, and nature. Faced to his surprise, I answered, you are a dictionary. I accompanied her grandfather and grandmother to chat, tried, from their point of views, to look at this world. I told my daughter, I am checking a dictionary. Of course, I have also tried to understand as far as the history of my husband’s family tree. This is to check an origin of phraseology. It is through these checking, I can then understand my daughter.

 

Sometimes, I joked with my daughter. If she is the product of one-night love, it would be worse, since I would never be able to understand her, since I have no dictionary to help me to read her, the heaven book. From this point of view, I oppose one-night love. It is just due to my daughter, I cannot deny the family from which she comes. Therefore, for the thinking manner that I originally not agree, what I need is not to deny, to oppose, to avoid, or to refuse, but to try compatible with it. There is no problem of against-willing. When my daughter opened the thinking barrier of two families, I sighed: “Human really needs sexual multiplication!”

 

Love, this word is not very theory, not at all truth, not at all logic and cannot bring it to the open discussion. But, it allows me to achieve the means of thinking breakthrough and transcendence. That human is an animal with feelings, with thinking, is due to the combination of these two. Would it be due to the current people is short of feeling power so that the current people is hard to break the jail frame of the thinking? When the emotion of love becomes somewhat illusory, the power of thought is also weakened.

 

Someone laughed at me, that I protect for Chinese medicine is for my feeling to my mother and my daughter, that I stick to Chinese culture, and that it is due to national feeling. For this, I have no objections, since I am not living myself this one generation, but many generations of myself. I cannot strip history, culture, and our entire nation from my life. My rational openness, compatibility, and vitality are all inseparable from emotions as pioneers and driving forces. I cannot leave my flesh and blood to love the truth. Is this difficult to understand?

 

Chapter 90: Son with a sour throat

 

When I was young, we always ate old, saved surplus grain. The government saved the newly harvested grain to eat next year, fearing that there might be a short-of-grain disaster if there is no harvest next year.  At that time, China was around by other counties against China, nowhere to find grain support. The saved grain goes with more or less moldy. There were two years in which we always ate the moldy grain. It was more severe with moldy in corn. It became red, tasted spicy, hard to eat. However, every family eats the same. Previous years, there was a saying that the moldy corn contains a fungus called aflatoxin, which is a strong cancer-inducting material. Even heat would not be able to kill it. Once find it in grain, the grain should be destroyed. After fear, I started to recall the neighbors at that time, who died of cancer. I tried to recall again and again but can not recall any. So I doubt that this aflatoxin might not be so terrible. Seeing that people throw away the grain that contains little bit moldy, I felt pity.

 

Chinese is the nation that suffered hungry before. Chinese have been so hungry so that even at this time, you can see fermented tofu, soy juice, sour vegetable, smoke meat, moldy vegetables, wind-dried intestine, and preserved eggs on the dining table of the Chinese family. Indeed, they are all degenerated food. When I was young, I followed my grandmother to prepare soy sauce. We put tofu on shelves to dry. After several months, took it down to open it, to wash… In the soy sauce, there was not only moldy but also maggot shell. So I have had time to refuse to eat soy sauce. But my neighbors all came to ask a taste of the new sauce, that they admired a lot. I thought, the eating of the degenerated food, it has no alternative at the beginning, and a habit later. No matter how nice it tasted, the degenerated food is not at all as good for health as fresh food. I really doubt if the degenerated food still contains nutrition.

 

Along with the reform in China, the concept of food changed. People chase for taste not only good but also fresh. They eat less degenerated food. After 30 years, those Chinese who do not eat degenerated food have higher and higher, even doubled, an incidence of cancer. Today, I saw TV news that the incidence of lung cancer increased by 465%. All agree that it is due to the contamination of the environment. In this way, would the cancer-inducing power of the environment is stronger than the aflatoxin? The report also said the cardiovascular disease had become the number one reason for the death of Chinese. There are 180 million Chinese with hypertension. I thought it must not be due to the eating of aflatoxin. High-quality food makes people with higher blood pressure; the degenerated food has however less power to increase people’s blood pressure. The food with high nutrition contains high heat, along with less body movement, the high nutrition food brings to the people not the healthy, but “Fire”. If the “Fire” accumulated for a long time, there would have trouble.

 

One of my friends was very nervous about this. She said: “My son got a sore throat again!” I said: “What about it happens again?” She said: “It would cause nephritis”. She said precisely correct. Her son got the disease as she predicted. The son has an allergy to penicillin. She brought him to the provincial hospital, had penicillin a movement with anti-allergic infusion. After two weeks, the doctors said it has to stop, suggesting them back home to have a break. My friend said: “But there is still blood in urine?” The doctor said, there would be blood even if it is cured from now for the following half year. The doctor then prescribed medications to them to go home. A lot of medications, all are Chinese medicine but prescribed by a western medicine doctor, to clear Fire and detoxify. My friend strongly believed that the reason was the inflammation in the throat, so that keeps asking her son to take the Chinese medicinal. But the blood in the urine only increased not decreased. She was nervous as if she herself got obsessive-compulsive syndrome. She let the repeated lab test every two days and looked at the urine bottle of her son every morning. Later, even she herself can tell out the amount of protein and red blood cells in the urine through looking at the urine.

 

I know the body constitution of his son. There is not the Fire in the body at all. She should not continue the cleaning Fire therapy. I suggested her to bring her son to a Chinese medicine doctor. But my daughter’s Great master went out for traveling, and could not find him. So she found another two Chinese medicine doctors. These two doctors were also recommending the clearing Fire. When we consulted with another Chinese medicine doctor in another city, he agreed with me. So she brought her son there. After back, I had a look at the medicinal. All are Cold herbs again. I said, how this doctor did not agree with me either? The friend said the doctor believed it was too much Fire in the body. It had to be cleansed. So many doctors, used both western medicine and Chinese herbs, all used Chill herbs. My friend also believed that her son has strong Fire. She started the Cold herb again. But the lab test made her like ants on a hot pot.

 

My daughter’s Great master came back. My friend came to him in a hurry. She went back to me: “Dr. Hao also used Cold herbs!” After opening the herb package, I cannot prevent from laugh: “They are Cold herbs? No any Cold herb. There is also red ginseng. This is a Warm therapy” My friend said: “I told him that my son had Fire, which always caused a sore throat and nephritis. The doctor said, well, well, clearing Fire, clearing Fire” I said, he saw fifty to sixty patients a day. Get tired to death. How could he have time to convince you? He followed you in the mouth, but the treatment is still according to what he thought to be. After twenty days taking the herbs, everything is fine.

 

My friend felt strange: “The doctor in the provincial hospital said there would have the blood in the urine for a half year, how it disappears now?” I said, if the disease is cured, why it should still have blood? My friend now cares much about the diet of the whole family, not only the nutrition but also the Cold and Hot nature of the foods. Whenever I went to prison, I paid attention to the diet of the prisoners. Their diet menu is of scientific value. It pays attention to the fined and original grain, the meat, and the vegetable. If such a diet menu is adapted to the public, the incidence for the cardiovascular diseases must reduce dramatically. The prisoners have physical exercise every day, have some other physical movement, the amount of their physical movement is also pretty proper. They practice meditation, learn to sew and knit, also learn Confucianism. I joked with them sometimes, the scientific lifestyle now is in prison. I worry, if the prisoners are really changed into an honest person, would they look at us as we are rude savages? If we pay attention to the lifestyle, the cardiovascular disease should not be the number one killer to human.

 

My colleague’s mother died of brain bleeding. She was very saddened and cried: “My mother had no good fortune. She liked TV very much. I had just installed a net TV for her for three days before she died. " Like Mrs. Xiang Ling (祥林嫂), she repeated this every day. After one month, I told her: “If you have had not installed that net TV for her, to make her sit there without moving for three days, she would not have died.” She was stunned. After a while, she said: “I am the one who hurt my mother! I should not have had her have this happiness!”

 

If according to the previous lifestyle, there would have no question that her mother may live for additional tens of years. However, sitting continuously for three days caused her having bleeding in the brain to die. For those who have continuous physical activity, the body Qi and blood has been designed and adapted according to the need of the physical activity. Without movement for three days, the body energy could not be released out. The blood pressure therefore increased. For an old person, with hard in blood vessels, it cannot be avoided to have health trouble.

 

Several days ago, we went to a mountain. A young boy of twenty years of old climbed for only several minutes before a stop. He said: “I cannot climb anymore. I feel hot. The heat in the body appears hard to evaporate out. I felt as to explode.” All laughed at him. Someone encouraged him to continue. I did not push him to try again. I know that he eats a lot usually, has enough heat in the body. The heat has been overwhelming in the body. With a little bit of physical movement, the heat would be much higher. If it is not removed out of the body in time, he may also have trouble.

 

Chapter 91: Addition vs. subtraction

 

Science defense person has severely said, Chinese medicine has no qualification to ask tolerance of science. It is like the lecture room of a university can be given to a witch to use? How a witch has the quality to ask equality with science? One of the most critical tasks of science is to struggle against pseudo-science such as Chinese medicine. To me, not allowing Chinese medicine into the science hall as not allowing Mr. Yuan Longping being the fellow of Science Institute of China. It does not relate to whether Chinese medicine is a medicine or not; not whether Mr. Yuan Longping is a scientist or not, it is a question that science is showing what itself is.

 

Think about it: in the beginning, Chinese medicine started and developed without any help from science. Yuan Longping's hybrid rice is breaking through science. If the science cannot tolerate small stream, it means it has no desire to be a sea. Then it does not matter if Chinese medicine mixes or not mixes with such a low-level knowledge system. No worth to respect such a science. In the current time, people worry to kill mosquito since killing may damage the environment and ecological balance. How Chinese medicine becomes an absolute harmful thing, which needs the science to bend its body and rush out to kill the Chinese medicine? Someone also said that the science does not come from the eastern, so they commented again and again that Chinese people and western are not in the same level, so they summarize that the Chinese nation is a low-level nation. For this, it is no longer a science question.

 

To me, if you want to find a reason supporting that Chinese should be deleted out of the earth, you first of all need to prove that Chinese is a gorilla. However, the wisdom of Chinese in mathematics is most excellent in the world. It means that human wisdom does not always need to be maintained through science. Between based on human, or based on science, no matter how great the science, it should base on the human. The human wisdom per se is science. We are not trying to study the rationality of human thinking, but trying to change human thinking. It tosses the world up and down.

 

One day when my daughter was in kindergarten, her teacher talked to me very formally, that my daughter had some problems in her wisdom. I felt pretty surprised. How could I not find this problem by myself? The teacher said your daughter could not understand addition. Back at home, I picked out a box of a match to my daughter. She really could not add it! This scared me. To make me quiet, I brought my daughter out to see the moon. When came back, I changed the way to test her. Now I felt easy. She indeed did not know the addition, but she knew subtraction. Ancient people might not know how much apples they picked, but they knew if the apple was stolen. If the teacher taught her the subtraction first, she would not have been believed she had trouble in wisdom.

 

When my daughter went to elementary school, the teacher told again, she does not know multiplication. I told her, to teach my daughter division first. We feel that the current teaching sequence is very rational, one by one, very logic. But in fact, it may not be so. The human thinking always goes back to its own way from time to time, so it could meet conflict with science sequence from time to time. The child of my neighbor went into the school but was forced to quit. The teacher said kindly that the child wisdom developed slow, suggesting to come again next year. The child was refused out of the school. The neighbor sent his child to me and said: “Only you said that the child is not stupid. Look, the school refused, how can say he is not stupid?” I asked the child to come to my home, helping me to do housework, telling him to pass me some amount of bowl, or chopsticks, etc. No any problem. However, once we come to homework, everything became mass. Later, I understand, the child had a good memory. Whenever the way of teacher’s teaching does not match his own thinking way, he would try to remember everything in the classroom mechanically. The fingers that come to him now all change into numbers. This, according to his own logic, is pretty normal, but to others, it appears not only a commonly seen chaotic.

 

After finding the reason, I helped him to make things in order. I asked his mother to send him back to school. The teacher no longer said he is clumsy. It would be ideal that child can learn according to their own nature. But that the education is called education is that it is to set a unified model. The science thinking is so deep in the mind of teacher that the content of the teacher is to set fix model for the students for their thinking.

 

The first day my daughter came back from school, she told me that her teacher said: “You are all small tree. You need to be fixed, to chop, otherwise, you will grow twist”. Not many children are naturally meet the science thinking need, so the teachers first of all need to do is to first deny the thinking way of the children themselves, then replaced with scientific thinking. The children are fixed straight. Not only their own thinking becomes “straight”, but they also not allow others to “slanting”. When I was a teacher in a middle school, the students all pointed out to me: “Teacher, your way of teaching is not correct. The class should not be like such”. I surprised: “You are students, how do you know how to teach?”

 

Therefore, it is normal that Chinese medicine is attacked and suppressed. Our education denies ourselves first, then deny others. People think that it would be correct if doing things according to science. They would have right to “fix” others, even to attack and to shout at others with complete confidence. In this way, apart from scientific thinking, where would be individual and free thinking? Teaching should be brainwashing, but to induce thinking. When I teach << Lung Yu >> (论语), the way I used is to refer to the way of Confucian, to induce the thinking of my students, inducing their interest to think more, far and higher. If the human nature would have had endured “fix” by others without producing any physical and emotional trouble, then it does not matter which way is used in the education.

 

The child of my friend went to elementary school and suffered from frequent urine syndrome. The child needed to go to washroom several times during one class, which made the teacher felt pestered, questing the parents to solve the problem. She brought the child to several hospitals but fail. I said it might be due to the too nervous of the child. We need to help him to relax. But how to make him relax? My friend could not find a way. I told her, the source of the nervous is in the teacher. That the teacher stares at the child as an eagle stares at a chicken, would stress the child to be so nervous to go to the washroom several times.  But a teacher cares tens of children at the same time, it is not practiced to ask her being soft in eyes and kind to always show a smile. Indeed she is very tired.

 

When my daughter went to elementary school, on the windowsill, there were a lot of flowers. On the teacher’s desk, there also always had the most beautiful flower, that is sent by my daughter. The teacher enjoyed these flowers, and sometimes she might even smell them too. I told my friend, the teacher needs to care. So, the teachers can escape from the tiredness and heavy burden of the work. For example, send her some gift, and send her in time greetings, etc. That parent becomes a friend of the teacher can soft the eye of the teacher. My friend said, would this be a way to suck up to the teacher and to indulge the child? I said it is the human care for the teacher and your child.

 

The whole society continued to put a press on your child. The person who can protect him is only you. You can not only stand on the side of the teacher, but need to bring the teacher to your side. My friend followed what I recommended. Her child’s problem was solved since whenever the teacher passed from his site, would touch his head subconsciously.

 

Those who learned science for tens of years usually cannot learn Chinese medicine. They either say that Chinese medicine is a pseudoscience or say that it is tough to learn. Some university students, masters, even doctor degree students usually ask my daughter’s Great master: “How to learn Chinese medicine?” My daughter felt strange: “Asking by them, it appears that Chinese medicine is so profound. Chinese medicine is something that a child can learn. Like the go (match), even a child can try. The picture of << Nei Jing picture >> (内经图) is so scintillating: on the position of the left and the right kidney, standing a boy and a girl drawing water using waterwheel. How vivid it is!” My daughter said that, the reason she did not feel hard to learn the Chinese medicine, not because she has a special learning method or what genius nature, but because she has no block in thinking. This is well because I did not “teach” her when she was young.

 

 

Chapter 92: Pulse feeling

 

Pulse feeling now becomes a mysterious thing. My daughter feels a pulse, wherever she was, it was regarded as a mystery. Whenever she goes out to other company for something, there would be someone asking her to feel their pulse. Soon a troop of people is set in a line waiting for her to feel the pulse. When I was young, people have no idea of physical exam and feel the pulse feeling is an ordinary thing. Without a discomfort, people would not go to a doctor for an exam or ask for pulse feeling. So there was no such massive event as my daughter feeling pulse for so many people. Now, people see the pulse feeling as the Chinese way of an annual physical exam. For the ways of an annual physical exam, people do not feel bothering how many it is. Current people know much about the annual physical exam. The Chinese pulse diagnosis does not need any blood sample, or biopsy, or others. Chinese naturally accept it. This makes my daughter’s pulse feeling usually for the whole department, the whole office or even the whole company as a collective, one after another, all peoples' pulses are felt.

 

When my daughter spoke out their symptom, one after another, the people around her felt stunned. Such collective pulse feeling makes my daughter have some experience that even my mother had not before. My daughter said, she found that some company staffs have a similar trend in their pulses. There is a company-dependent phenomenon. She thinks this is associated with the management style of the company.

 

I felt strange. How can it be? She analyzed that, if most of the stuff in a company showed a Liver stagnation pulse in common, it suggests that that company is managed very clear in level, in degree. The management is strict and the working pressure is huge. In the treatment, the stuff in the whole company can be treated the same time with the same way from beginning. Heard this, I could not prevent from laugh. I said, according to you, from the management of a company can find the health condition of the whole stuff, and from the health condition of one stuff, can realize the management style of that company? My daughter said, the organization efficient and the stuff health are associated. Usually, the last one who came out for the pulse feeling is the “first leader” of that company.

 

My daughter said the pulse of the “first leader” of the company is usually not the same as the other staff. His or her pulse is usually a strong condition in Qi. The Qi Excess reflects in the work strong momentum and strength. But, too much and too strong overwhelming would cause the damage of the heart and blood circulation, increase in blood pressure, so not good for health either. I said, according to this, to take herbs as a collective is neither the way to treat the root (cause). Is it needed to adjust the organization manner? She said: yes. To use the herbs to support the management style is anyway not a long time solution. Management with the care of human need is the best way of medicine. I advised her not talking about the company’s management. Do not put into other company’s organization and management. The job of a doctor is to solve the disease. Only talk things related with the disease, not go beyond the medicine. Otherwise, people would say that you practice Chinese medicine as a witch to tell people’s future, leaving reasons for others to attack Chinese medicine.

 

My daughter spoke slowly: the difference between Chinese medicine and western medicine is that Chinese medicine pays much attention to the people’s emotion, emphasizes the influence of personality and living environment to the health. Would the charming of the future-telling not be the prediction and explanation ability? The prediction and explanation of Chinese medicine is the derivation based on current life through a logic evaluation. Though Chinese medicine cannot show you the lab report, its prediction and canalization can be proved by following fact. It is not improper to point out the relationship between the environment and health.

 

I said, Traditional Chinese medicine did not comment on the management of the unit. I never heard from my mother about the management problem of a company. At that year, when my mother spoke out the lifestyle of a patient, it made people feel mystery. Now, if Chinese medicine points out the management situation of a company, would it make people feel more mysterious and hard to believe? My daughter laughed and said, the reason that Chinese medicine did not comment on the management of a company is due to the previous people were not at the current time to come as a collective, as a group, it makes the Chinese medicine hard to make a summary. Second, in tradition, there was only one management style in Chinese society. There was no way for Chinese medicine to make a comparison. Now, the situation changed. There is the public (government), company, a private company, and foreign company. If there is no difference for the management styles among these different companies, how we would feel out the difference in the pulses among the staff in different companies?

 

Chinese medicine can find new conditions every time and change its own development according to the changed time. Would this not be a development with time? Indeed, the development of era proposed a lot of new observation and new experience to the Chinese medicine. My friend prepared compote. She put the mango and melon all in one dish. We use a prod to stick it into the mouth to eat. I said you choose one kind of fruit to eat, don’t est them together. She asked my reason. I said I have no scientific evidence but feel that as a human being, our first generation went this way. My friend laughed. She ate along with talk: delicious thing should be eaten together. Also, these fruits are no toxic thing, no harm food. They would not cause trouble for our body.

 

Since I can not convince her, I can only observe aside. After a while, she started to cry for stomach pain, asking for medicine. I did not hurry to find medicinal for her but asked her feeling and symptoms carefully, then told my daughter through phone all of this valuable information, since I know that there is no any record in ancient medical literature. In a previous age, there would be only the king who had such a chance to try what happens if the various foods are eaten all together. I do not know how many times the king might get pain in his stomach. However, even for the king, he might have no chance to eat the melon and the mongo together. How could I not pay attention to its result?

 

Recently, the government set out the rule asking to supply nutrition value in the food products. It is ordered to list the nutrition compounds and the usefulness in nutrition. Some people ridiculed the Chinese doctor for this, how can the country not replace the food nutrition label with the cold and hot label? Or is the theory of Chinese medicine unscientific, and it can not be indicated to the public?

 

Of this, I would not feel it is reasonable. I do not know how much help such nutrition label would be to ordinary people in shopping. Even for a graduate from a medical university, it may have no strong help either. Also, it does not mean that the nutrition does not change at all during cooking. Chinese medicine cares the way of cooking very much. Even if food of Cold nature, it might be changed into a Hot food after cooking. Chinese do not eat western food. After cooking, would the nutrition list be re-listed? China has many “degenerated food”, do they have a nutrition label?

 

If the nutrition concept works, would we delete such “degenerated food” off? Chinese food per se does not suit such nutrition label system. So, to make the Chinese food suit to the science, would Chinese change to eat western food? Nowadays, these people who oppose Chinese medicine think that the development of science is forming the final combat to Chinese medicine. They feel very happy about it. But what I see is the new life of Chinese medicine in the current age. The application of the nutrition label implies that the science has already linked the food with the health, though it is a shallow level if it is considered only from the nutrition point of view, but it is meaningful. On this way of thinking, the consideration of Chinese medicine is much rich and open than western medicine, and even more perspective. At the current time, the things that Chinese medicine can do are a lot. If you have a willingness, you might be able, “when the willows are in dark, then the flowers might be in blooming”, to open a new chapter for science by this “heretical sect” of Chinese medicine.

 

 

Chapter 93: Earthquake

 

Recently I paid much attention to the internet about the information on the earthquake. I saw a lot of reports and comments. This time, the National Earthquake Bureau was blamed very much. They felt very aggrieved the same as a doctor faces the collective attack by patient family. The prediction of an earthquake is the world challenge. People should not blame the scientist. But the scientists also feel very angry. They are not angry at the public blame, but to some earthquake experts who said the earthquake could be predicted. It is commonly known that, for the earthquake, to say it can not be predicted, it is a scientist; to say it can be predicted, it is a fraud.

 

In the meeting in May 19 on the Fragrance Hill, some experts proposed: “The whole thinking of Chinese is useful for the prediction of huge earthquake”. Some others suggest that the earthquake prediction cannot depend only on the professional team and instrument. We should start “Public measure and public prevention” policy, apply some “public methods” to collect thousands and hundreds of information to make the prediction. These scientists who suggested to use such “no scientific evidence” and use “specious” means to predict an earthquake, were said to be a group of “earthquake experts with Chinese medicine thinking”, and were called the same frauds as Chinese medicine. In the team of Chinese medicine, there surprisingly has a group of earthquake experts.

 

Though I agree that the earthquake cannot be predicted, it does not mean that I do not want to predict the earthquake. Whenever the earthquake cannot be predicted, there would be the “fraud” continuing to try. Between the “fraud” and scientist, “fraud” is usually more with fighting spirit, more warm to search truth and more care the reality.

 

Science makes us more rationality, but for the sudden loss of many vivid lives, the rationality cannot stop our tears. I disagree to say that the earthquake experts are of Chinese medicine way of thinking. The earth sample is only one. Even collect thousands of information, it is still the western medicine way of research, not at all bias from science. It does not need to exclude the science.

 

I myself experienced one failure example of “Public measure and public prediction” to predict the earthquake. My home located on the belt of the Pacific earthquake. The land shakes from time to time. The previous municipal mayor did not want to depend on the science only for the prediction. He wanted to combine the expert prediction and public prediction. He visited the experts, installed monitoring instruments, set up observation stations; send observation stuff in the wild animal farms, chicken farms, fish pools, and several of mines, water wells, and springs. The public is also informed to report any abnormal signs to the experts. Several phone sets on his desk linked directly to several observation stations. There are an alarm in the east and the west end of the city with special staff to care. To make the public getting familiar with the alarm, it has been practiced twice. Whenever there are a serious of abnormal signs, he would live in the office, day and night on duty.

 

One day, the situation was not favorable. The Government officer lived in his office for several days. On one night, the phones on his desk run one and another. It was reported: the raccoon dog refused to sleep; fish jumped off water; air bubble raised from the water wells and became not clear. There were also reports that the chicken and dog at home were irritable; the rats moved home… So, the face of the officer changed to pale. His sweat fell from his face. Finally, he waved his big hand: “Pull the alarm!” Just this one order, the whole city broke apart. The miners went to the above ground; the university students jumped from the building; the pregnant women jumped off the bed, run faster than a doctor; I brought my daughter to run out the house… However, nothing happened. The next morning, the president of the province called and shouted at the municipal president. The public also laughed at him in the whole city. The municipal president brought with a bag and went to the provincial city to criticize himself, in a dejected motion.

 

Later, there were no people trying to predict the earthquake. The earthquake cannot be predicted. The earthquake Bureau that cannot predict an earthquake is still earthquake Bureau. However, the way of the combination of the experts and public is argued to be deleted and was called fraud. From this event, it is not by chance event that Chinese medicine is attacked. It is pretty an example. For many years, the science is trying to keep its purity, performs a high-pressure policy as “would rather have science grass, not pseudoscience sapling”.

 

However, I do not feel that the president was wrong in starting the alarm. After the alarm, I went to the suburb. There were wads of black fog in the field here and there;  gunpowder smelled in the air; the moon appeared as a pale paper; several bright silver lines floating in front of the moon up and down… the earthquake bureau measured there would have an earthquake that night, thought the degree of the earthquake is not high. I thought, the magma underground continuously floats, tosses and turns, either slowly raise the ground, or break the lands suddenly. As with the brain bleeding, no one knows from where it would come up.

 

That night, the earth did not quake, but that the brain blood vessel does not break doesn’t mean the blood pressure was not increased to high. These mysterious nature events make me think, the old saying about many spiritual events from old generations might not be superstition, but the earth light, earth sounds, and earth Qi is moving. These things would be admitted when they come with the earthquake, not during ordinary days. That president “cheated” us bore no scientific evidence but should not say that it is without scientific value. 

 

In TV, I saw the army soldiers tried very hard and saved a life, but the life died very soon. I hurried to ask my daughter: “Though it is termed the pressing syndrome, can we give the wounded person some herbal soup as the Hui Yang Jiu Ni Tang? Do you prepare something for such a situation in the future?” My daughter was also watching the TV. She said: “The life is like a flame. Upon the critical time of the life, it is urgent to save the flame, not to press the fire died with many wood sticks. It is needed to supply the wood stick little by little. This needs to adjust the concept of how to save a life”

 

In this huge event, western medicine contributed a lot. Chinese medicine also send out teams for the bone wound. But in the saving life, I hope they combined to increase the survival rate.

 

I saw that the teachers in the disaster area gave hungry students little cake to eat. It is called to “bring Yang Qi”. Asking students to call each other, remind the mind. All of these are in accordance with Chinese medicine and also very effective. It makes me admire them. Though it was somehow careless for our president starting the alarm at middle night, I thought would it be proper only to sound a yellow alarm? Would an earthquake pre-alarming cause scare? Could human sleep without any worry? Can Real life exclude the worrying mind away? If we have pre-alarm in ordinary days, it is better education to human, than the effect from the negative political study and moral education. In this way, people would have more practice, and the house would be built more solid. All in all, all are a benefit without any harm.

 

It is time that we really need to put the science in a correct position in our life.

 

Some people lift the science up to the level of God for Chinese. They ask people to respect it, to correct self unclear, an expenditure with disaster and to endure the disaster without any doubt… But Chinese do not accept any God. That the Christianity was not largely spread in China, and science was not respected largely in China, are not due to the poor science nature of Chinese, but to the fact that Chinese would not set a God for themselves.

 

The God is too super from ordinary life. It has too many conflicts with a human being.

 

It is not that Chinese want to go against the science, but that the Chinese culture always wants to bring the God down to the earth to eat the same as the human, to be more close to the human. So, Chinese would combine the science and folk methods and try to have public measure and public prevention to predict the earthquake. They would combine western medicine with Chinese medicine. If they get sick, they will try various kinds of medical system, western medicine, Chinese medicine, and the witch. For this reason, there are “fraud” in China, again and again, one after another. This is the true nature of the Chinese.

 

One earthquake quaked out a group of “fraud” with “Chinese medicine thinking”. It makes the team of Chinese medicine “Bad elements” having more members. I think, if there is any disaster in China in the future, the team of Chinese medicine will grow larger.

 

Chapter 94: Renew of western medicine

 

I strolled with my friend on the sandy beach beside a lake. I picked off a piece of clay, a piece of bone. I told her, they were things six thousands of years ago. She would not believe. I said, it can be tested and proved by the measurement of the earth magnetic or carbon radiation, and so on. She believes these measurements. However, would people realize that these measurements are similar to the diagnosis of Chinese medicine? No matter with the measurement of the earth magnetic, the carbon radiation, earth layer precipitated magnetic, or heat emission, year circles in a tree, all are similar to the Chinese medicine: all need to set up a sample, and the age of first group sample is known. First, measure the average value from many of the samples with known age, then get many of the average value from many other groups of samples with known age, finally, using these average values to draw a standard curve as the experiment curve, or the year curve. This is the scale to measure the age of stuff. 

 

If the comments against Chinese medicine is rationing, these ways of scientific research should be deleted and stop, since these methods are not only similar to the diagnosis ways of the Chinese medicine but also have the same problem as the Chinese medicine – the data are not precise. If the data of the sample is not precise, could a precise measurement be performed? 

 

Those who oppose Chinese medicine think it cannot, since it is not logical. However, there is almost no precise sample in the world. Many random events could make every sample hardly tolerate the assessment, analysis, or check, resulting in a common phenomenon in many scientific research departments, that the more chasing for a precise, the more not precise. The requirement for an explicit accurate is hardly met even in the science domain. It seems reasoning to ask for a precise sample, but not realistic. The reality is “obscure”, but the reference and adjustment of the data among variable scales and many methods could allow the precise float out from the obscure. Such a way of mastering the precise from the obscure helps science come out embarrassing.

 

Therefore, the presence of various measurement methods is to refer and adjust each other. We need many methods to achieve from a blurred or a faint outline to precise. It almost means a suicide of science to keep only one so-called the best and the most scientific way, but throw away and ban any others.

 

Based on large samples of human body structure and functional changes in the four seasons, the Chinese medicine formed the “four season,  eight steps, twenty-four sub-steps, the seventy-two conditions”, such diagnosis scale. In such samples, there are this or that errors. These samples can even be criticized and rejected, but continuously checking new samples and adjusting the new data after that, including the use of data from western medicine, the error from each old data can be compensated, so makes the Chinese find the precise from the blurred, to ensure the precision of its diagnosis.

 

One person who lived in the US and who opposed Chinese medicine criticized me that I am not a Chinese medicine doctor but talked about Chinese medicine is “the evidence of low society: no fine and clear differentiation”. He said that, that the Chinese medicine doctor can communicate with the patient is due to “Chinese medicine belongs to the low level of knowledge of society” and “the knowledge of a doctor and that of the patient is close”. He commented: “In higher and advanced society, the difference in knowledge level between the doctor and patient is huge, and it is as huge as hard to image it”, and “the knowledge of western medicine renews itself every seven years”, “the knowledge learned seven years ago is insufficient to pass the exam today”, and “the patient would never be able to discuss medical professional questions”.

 

He made an example: “In such condition, the relationship between the doctor and patient is like that between a judge and a thief. In front of a judge, the thief would always be trembling, waiting for the convict by the judge”. He also said: “I use such comparison is to tell Mrs. Ai Ning: it is completely wrong, many of the successful cases by Chinese medicine that you summarized in low society”.

 

I admit that the examples I proposed can all be criticized and be denied. I did not prepare to insist on an individual case. I am, anytime, ready to give up my stronghold in front of criticizes. However, even if I give up all of my strongholds, I may still stand on my position.

 

The phenomenon of not failure of Chinese makes some people very angry. You would not be shameless when you defeated but not admitted it? To me, however, it is only a continuous correction and adjustment course, no failure to admit. Upon the impact from outside,   a self-adjustment and correction is to keep alive.  How could such a process be linked to death?

 

Western medicine is as the grass on the ground. It dies every seven years. I suggest setting a degree level, each of which is seven years, inside the western medicine. Otherwise, it might not be fair.

 

It is not easy to learn western medicine. Even if I understand all about my body, after seven years, I will become knowing nothing about my body. If I could live to 70, though my body remains one, the western medical knowledge would have had to be invalid for ten times. If an alien has a chance to read my medical reports from a doctor, would he consider me ten species?

 

Can we expand the separation into high (valid) and low (invalid) level western medicine out western medicine, for it is hard to learn? If Chinese medicine is tree stem, can we ask it to change stem every seven years? So far as I know, in the US, the law is also hard to learn. Being a judge is not as easier as a doctor. But in front of a judge, a criminal is not always “trembling”, since to judge an accused person is not by a judge, but by a jury composed of ordinary people who do not know the law. The real reason that the US does not apply the entire law or allow a high-level judge to convict, but allow a group of ordinary people who do not know the law, is to prevent the separation of society into high or low. Such a way of a verdict by “low realization” is to tell us: even the highest level of law needs to be applied according to the understanding by ordinary people.

 

After all, the theory of Western medicine is not empirical. Multiple methods are not only needed for evaluating ages of stuff, to refer each other, to adjust the data, to make the blurred into precise, but also needed for prevention of science from bureaucrat and from the formation of the social-estate system. The way to apply only one method will help the science go to high level, so high so that it makes the presence of Chinese medicine “guilty”. If what the science needs is only the experiment and observation to prove it, those that cannot approve it would be denied, would the science become real and veritable God?

 

I am not producing a bomb to write an article, as it is once produced, it will be shot to target. My aim to write, first, is not for battle; second, is not for disseminating truth; and third, not ask readers to read me. Only after stimulating the reader’s own longtime seen, heard, felt, thought, could reader feel happy after reading. Once the mind of the reader has been stimulated, the reader might not agree with me for my thinking or idea. He may even criticize me. I however know, the truth is a living thing. It does not exist in the course of talking, discussion, or reasoning, but in the movement of spiritual connection and communication between the author and the reader. Only when what I listed, showed, talked and commented is associated with whatever that has been in the heart and mind of the reader, can my words get kind of true nature. My way of “to throw out a minnow to catch a whale” to complete the connection with the reader and the sequence of numerous connections can offset the errors of individuality.

 

When Chinese medicine can still correct by itself continuously, it would not fall failure in all position after the loss of one stronghold. It is lucky that in the combination of western medicine and Chinese medicine, there are quite a few doctors who are combining, referring, adjusting them, so to increase the level of diagnosis and treatment. My nephew said, when he practiced surgery, he saw that the president of the surgical department used herbs for patients with intestinal obstruction. He let the patient drink half of the herb tea and use another half to give an enema. So, the herbs work from both upper and lower part of the body. It works in most cases. Only if it does not work, will a surgical operation be applied. 

 

 



[1] Qing Zhu’s entry and exit figure is the geometric proof of the mathematician Liu Hui’s use of the relationship between numbers and shapes in the late Eastern Han Dynasty. The method is rich in oriental wisdom, distinctive and easy to understand.

[2] Angry youth, literally meaning angry young men, a Chinese slang term for young nationalists.

[4] On November 21, 2007, a pregnant woman hospitalized in Beijing Chaoyang Hospital. She needs surgical operation. The doctor needed her husband to sign on the information of the pre-surgery sheet. He refused. Without the sign by family member(s), the doctor dared not to perform the surgical operation. They dared not to take the responsibility for anything happened during and after the surgical operation (the same as doctors in the western countries). This delay caused the death of the pregnant woman.

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